Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Most recently it's been the diet (nutrition) part... And sadly, I know the reason why.
Once again, my dad's health has taken a turn for the worse. His throat cancer is back and doctor's think it's spread to his lungs -- They're still running tests.
This is what led to the beginning of my emotional eating years ago... Except back then, it was my dad's skin cancer. Last summer, when my dad was first diagnosed with tongue/throat cancer, my nutrition once again became a problem... I was either eating too much or too little. When I stayed within my calorie range, the food wasn't always as nutritious as it should have been.
So, once again I'm an emotional basketcase as I wait to hear what the doctor's have to say and if my dad decides to be treated or not -- He's not sure what he wants to do yet.
I'm trying my hardest to watch what I eat and the portion sizes. Since snacking seems to be my biggest problem so far, I cleaned out the cabinets and refrigerator tossing the "unhealthy" snack foods replacing them with fruits, low-fat cheese, hummus, etc. I even switched to eating smaller meals throughout the day (except at dinner which is still a regular size meal).
I'm also tracking everything I eat to see how many calories I consume... And already I see a pattern developing. The more stressed out I'm becoming, the fewer calories I'm consuming. No matter how hard I try, I just cannot reach anywhere within my calorie range some days because I'm just not hungry.
This is just another challenge in my weight loss journey. And I'm going to fight this head on because I'm not a quitter. I know I can do this, although it may take a little longer than I had anticipated.