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Monday, October 15, 2012
To the day I get to meet my niece and see my whole family!:) THURSDAY 18th.
I have mixed feelings. I am disappointed I gained instead of lost. I have days where I catch myself worrying about the family dynamics, the tension, stress, emotional ups & downs and overreactions we tend to have - we are all very opinionated and protective and get defensive and voices get louder...! But I'm also counting down the days where we can all just laugh, take pictures, watch a movie and eat my dad's popcorn!
I have supportive friends and my husband here who all know that I've been working hard towards my goals (eating slower, not interrupting, working out a lot, eating less, etc.) so that my family won't criticize or pick me apart.;(
They're FAMILY they're the ones who are supposed to support you but I tend to get nervous - remembering harsh words from the past (but I need to just put it behind me, let it all roll off my back like water off a duck's back, put up my protective shield and play bingo: "Oh got one! He corrected me for this. Oh that's two, she just got particular about something and had to bring something up!" haha!
Through my work's insurance, I email with my health coach (at Delta Health systems) and she has been very helpful. I wake up early to read, pray, meditate, journal, and then to go work out. What could be wrong?!
No really, I am excited! I'm a peacekeeper. My strengths can also be my weaknesses.
Thnx for listening!
Friday, October 12, 2012
I was counting down the days til I get to see my family, then realized I gained 3lbs:( I'm so frustrated. I felt better (clothes felt looser, Felt leaner) when I was running but that's usually what caused my headaches:( I've been working out so hard and trying to eat healthier, not late, and eating slower and eating less, and what do I get?:( I'm pretty discouraged. I hate the cold rainy weather cuz of headaches and neck pain, back pain, but I came home to my husband heating the house and comforting me:)
I hate the political debates everywhere(I'm still undecided). I just want a blanket and hot drinks. Rant over.
Sunday, October 07, 2012
I'm trying natural green coffee bean extract, acidophilus, yogurt, and Pearls(the digestive kind:)) all to try and see if it helps my bloated stomach. I'm working out 90min. A day. I drink lots of water. Eating a low carb diet, and I have 11 days til I see my family. I first was emotional thinking the family dynamics and tension would rise, thinking the worst. I was worried they'd correct and criticize me, and I'm married and I'm 30. They know I'm happy and content, yet it's like they find something to pick me apart. I don't eat it, I love and accept them, but I've been burned in the past. If I go nonchalantly and excited, they might hurt my feelings. If I assume the worst, I'll be surprised they are so sweet! Haha! I won't mention all I've been doing, I won't bring up nutrition, I won't talk about my looks, and hope they will notice the good. Yes I compare myself to them bc I've always been the bigger sis(built like my dad). My 7siblings are slender like our mom and they don't have to work as hard. Or they're unhappy or OCD about it, which no one wants that life! Yes I should be more self disciplined but shouldn't I also get 1 soda/week and maybe an ice cream or something once in a while? If I never ate potato chips that's all I'd crave. My 4 sisters get to look great in bikinis but I can't pull it off. I want to look nice for me, for my husband, but why do I care so much what they think of me? Is it because I know they're right?:/
Tuesday, September 25, 2012
I think I get distracted and tempted and excited by ads way too much. One minute it's, "oh that looks good! And it's only ...$..!" But really I could be that girl who wastes money impulsively all bc she wants to be healthy. :/ I've tried jumping on different bandwagons, only to fall flat on my face and forget I even started. I conveniently forget my own rules(such as low carb or slow down and stop eating when you're full!) I'm still bloated bc it's not just gluten, it's all the beans, fibrous veggies, oatmeal, yogurt, a little brown rice, etc thinking I'm eating healthy but probably had more than the serving size. Just cuz it's healthy does not mean you will lose weight!
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