Wednesday, May 30, 2012
I hope everyone had a very productive and safe Memorial Weekend. Although there was a bit of drinking and less than 100% healthy eats, I feel I kept active enough to balance out the splurge. Hiked through the cemeteries in the tri-county area laying out memorial flowers, went fishing all of Saturday afternoon (No fish, but no sunburn either. We'll file that under breaking even), and we had a huge badminton tournament (I lack the coordination, but I was given honorable mention for not tripping over my own feet...much). There was also an impromptu game of hide and seek in Walmart with some friends and a few less than sober dance-offs, but I wouldn't know where to begin tracking that lol
Currently it's one of those drizzly on and off again rainy days that I enjoy so much. A taste of fall in the middle of a heatwave is always welcome. I'm sitting here with my cup of green tea and honey with two dogs cuddled in next to me listening to my rainy day play list. I need more Imogen Heap and Neko Case in my life.
I'm still adjusting to my lack of lower body workouts (aka missing my Jillian Michael's DvD's like crazy and pouting about it mercilessly). My plan for the last few weeks has involved 30 minutes of cardio a day plus a strength training routine that I put together all on my lonesome. I basically watched a few free youtube upper body/ab workout vids, took screen shots, and pasted them into an excel document with a description of what they're doing. I printed this out and keep it on a clipboard that I take with me to the gym. It's not quite as clean and quick as my 30 day Shred or Ripped in 30 but it gets the job done. I can feel my triceps again and I don't shake when doing a plank so little drops of progress.
I've stopped weighing myself three times a week. It started making me obsessive and started putting negative thoughts in my head so now I only weigh in on Fridays. It gives me motivation for the weekend and a whole week to make up for any sins I may commit in that time frame ;)
It's slow going...extremely slow going. I take three steps forward and two and a half steps back. Injuries and plain ol lack of discipline have put the brakes on a few times this year, but there are people with more dire injuries and far better reasons to slack off and they're lapping me. I never want to admit that it's my diet that needs work. I've always prided myself on choosing good things to keep in the house and tracking what I put in my body, but sometimes I don't measure and sometimes I sneak bites and then there's alcohol which is a whole new rodeo of failure. I need to come to terms with the fact that I can't out exercise all these 'sometimes' activities. I'm wasting my time at the gym by cheating myself in the kitchen. I'm going to have to put a mental muzzle on myself when I'm not suppose to be eating.
I really wanted to be back to my fighting weight (185) by my birthday this year (June 24) but I just don't know if that's going to happen. It's a slow process, but I have to remember that I've lost ten pounds this year (started this year at 202...eeek!) so far and that's nothing to sniff at. Had I lost ten pounds when I was at my fighting weight (weight that I plateaued at and felt pretty good at last time around) I'd be only ten pounds from my UGW. Now THAT is something to think about. I can do this. It's going to take time, it's going to take a rededication to myself, and a lot more discipline.
Sorry for the long post, but I feel much better having written all of that down. Thank you for reading, thank you for being on this journey with me. Take care, friends.