Wednesday, December 04, 2013
I'll be honest- I think gastric bypass and gastric sleeve are a joke. I've worked in a surgeons office who performed these operations and I've seen the people loose hundreds of pounds, only to gain it back again within a year or two because they never changed their eating habits.
The surgeon is a very good, and he insists on people getting counseling and diet advice from RDs and a fitness plan laid out by a trainer. Maybe 30% of the people I've seen (i forget the actual 'long term' success rate at the moment) keep the weight off. But most of them return to old habits, because they view the surgery as a cure all, even with all the help and advice. They want their miracle cure, and they get it. But once the weight is off, they go back to the way things were.
I am watching a show about a 900lb woman. She lost 500lbs through diet and exercise and medication. But after that, her doctor tells the camera that if she doesn't have the surgery, she will never be able to control her eating.
How does surgery solve the underlying issues? How is surgery going to keep her from eating hot cheetos with cheese sauce (called nachos)? She clearly needs some other assistance besides the surgery, and based on what they are showing, it does not look like she is getting it.
They just showed her in the grocery store, and she says she "cannot eat what she wants" and "cannot eat what she sees". She is vocalizing that she sees this as restricting her from doing what she wants, eating what she wants. No one is able to maintain a life of restriction. That is why 'diets' fail. It has to be a 'want to' change, and it has to be a lifestyle to make this work.
Obesity is a real struggle, but no one seems to really want to get to heart of the matter. Politicians, doctors, health educators, the food industry; No one really addresses the problem. Or when they try to, people argue about 'restricting freedoms' or whatever.
How is killing yourself with food freedom? I may not be eating 1200 calories burritos 4 times a week like I used to, but I am more free now than I ever was at 250+lbs. In doing what I wanted, eating what I wanted, I was limiting myself from new experiences, new places, new activities and new foods. I had to buy 2 plane tickets to fly places. Sex with my ex-husband was uncomfortable and not satisfying. I was embarrassed to go places, so I didn't. I could not wear the clothes I wanted, so I wore tattered, stretched out rags.
My life is far from perfect now, but I cannot imagine being limited the way I used to be. THIS is freedom. Health is freedom.
/rant mode off
Tuesday, December 03, 2013
I am pretty happy with my current size- I am a 12-14. I would like to be an 8-10, but I think I have reached the point where I need change things up a bit as far as my routine.
I am making a point of doing zumba as my cardio one day per week to give me a change from my standard elliptical. And I think I will attempt to add additional strength training. I do power pump twice a week, but I am going to try to add some ST on Saturdays or Sundays. Not sure what to do, though. Free weights and weight machines are boring, and my gym does not have strength classes on the weekends.
I could do one of my Coach Nicole DVDs, and just use heavier weights than I normally would. I could do a YouTube video, like those featuring Jennifer Aguirre. Or I could just do standard stuff, like push ups, chest presses, lunges and leg lifts, etc.
I also need to look at my diet. This has been a struggle for a few months, and I believe that it is my depression coming out to play. I also struggle with being hungry all the time. I am keeping my fiber up, since that helped so much before. I've added flax seed to my diet many days for the fiber and Omega 3s. I drink plenty of water- Again, I don't always remember to track it, but I get 8+ glasses a day.
I've experimented with increasing protein, but I just stay hungry if I do not get enough carbs. Fat and carbs are what keeps me full, so I will need to go back to eating like that most days.
I want to get more veg into my diet, but I am flat broke at the moment- I have $0.70 to my name until next week, so I have to make due with that I have- Potatoes, carrots, and some old celery. Oh, and frozen corn. I could make a soup, actually. Probably a good idea, it will just lack protein since I have just one chicken breast, about 6 ounces ground pork, and some bacon. I could put a few slices of bacon in the soup, and I think I have a quarter cup of lentils, and some good rice.
I will go through my car and apartment and see what sort of change I can put together to buy some protein. There was a sale at the local megamart on pork shoulder. Or I could just do without and get extra veggies or lentils, which would be cheaper.
We'll see, I suppose. Sometimes I just get frustrated with this still, but I don't want to erase my progress.
Sunday, December 01, 2013
I have a bunch of white potatoes and sweet potatoes sitting in my kitchen that I got out of my bountiful basket a couple of weeks ago. I made 'mashed potatoes' tonight as part of my dinner, and what a treat that was. I used a single TBSP of half and half, and 10g of butter. They were sort of dry, but with the chicken and peas and corn, it was nice.
I will very likely make another round of mashed potatoes, but I'll use some no sodium chicken stock to help make them a bit less dry, and the stock will add some additional flavor.
Tomorrow I will make a potato cake (pomme de terre anna), but with sweet potatoes. That will be delightful as a dessert, or even a side for dinner. I put together a sort of tentative recipe in sparkrecipes, but I need to actually make it to see how much of what I actually end up using, and cooking time, etc.
People should really eat more potatoes, I feel like they are underrated, and demonized by the low-carbers. Nothing wrong with carbs, especially in a more natural, less processed form. Plus, they are generally pretty yummy. :)
Tuesday, November 26, 2013
This is the first major holiday after my divorce, and I am spending it alone. I won't go into how lonely I feel and my disappointment, because I am pretty sure I don't need to.
So, since I am alone, I decided I am going to make sure I do things I enjoy. I am going to make pumpkins scones with a vanilla cardamom glaze. I am going to play with my cats. I made reservations at one of the nicest restaurants in town for myself so I can actually do a Thanksgiving dinner (first time in my life I was Thankful for some place being open on a holiday that is not a medical provider), and I will study for my board exams. I will also rent non-holiday movies to watch since all day will be thanksgiving/christmas/football.
I am trying really hard not to be sad. I finally put two and two together and realized this is why I have been feeling cranky and "off" the last few weeks. So I am going to make the most of it, and enjoy myself by doing things I like.
Friday, November 22, 2013
I didn't sleep great, which makes my normal routine difficult by itself. But I also started my period (a week early! Thanks, uterus) and am dealing with cramps and my normal period lethargy.
I know I should go to the gym, but I am just so tired I want to go back to sleep! And I have a lot on my plate to get done before I leave for work this afternoon. I need to study for my board exam and I was going to make a shepherds pie. Both of those things are time consuming, and because I let myself sleep an extra hour, I am not sure I will have the time and energy to do all three. So I am considering chucking something from my schedule.
I can't chuck the studying. So that leaves the shepherds pie or gym time.
If I go to the gym, one days like this, I don't usually feel great afterwards. But I get the fitness minutes in, and burn calories.
If I don't make the shepherds pie, I will have to figure out quick something else for food the next day or two until I can make it. Probably frozen somethings for work meals. I have things like that handy, but I prefer to make my own food.
At the moment, I am leaning towards skipping the gym. I have no energy, I have cramps and a headache, and it is friggin' cold outside. And it would give me an extra hour of study time.
So much to do, so little time.
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