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Does the Past Dictate the Future?

Thursday, October 20, 2011

"When I am anxious it is because I am living in the future. When I am depressed it is because I am living in the past. - this is a quote I just read on HS1056's profile. WOW! Perfectly true in every way - this really epitomizes my thoughts lately. I have been both depressed and anxious recently over such thoughts.

I realized the other day that I have not stayed on track eating-wise and exercise-wise for more than a couple of days in a row for YEARS. It seems like the more often I have tried to go on different "diets," or rather, healthy eating plans (whether I include exercise or not), I have always gone back to my old ways immediately. I haven't stayed on a diet for a whole week in YEARS. Talk about a self-esteem blow.

What makes this time any different? I don't know. I have started over on this website so many times; I come on Sparkpeople for a week or so, even if I don't stick to my diet, and then I disappear for one or more months. The past few months of my inconsistency are about the most consistent I have been on here. The only thing different is that I have still kept doing some sort of exercise every day for almost two weeks. Plus, this is day 4 of me sticking to my diet! I have already made it about twice as long as usual.

The crux of this situation is that tomorrow, I am having my wisdom teeth surgically excised and I won't be able to get out and exercise tomorrow. I am being put completely under for the surgery and I really won't be able to eat tomorrow either. Soft foods only for a few days following. I am super nervous. The procedure is horrifying to read about, and I am a big baby when it come to bone saws. God help me.


Weigh in.

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

I have stuck to the plan (eating a lot more emoticon than I'm used to!) for the past couple of days and have exercised every day for about 8 or 9 days, and I am down 3 pounds! Victory is in sight! emoticon

I weighed in at 134.5 today, which is closer to where I started months ago, and a lot better than the 138-9 that I started with!

Yay! emoticon

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

KTBDAY 10/20/2011 11:31AM

    You're doing really well at overcoming your hurdles one at a time. I hope that the 1 day at a time approach is working for you and helping you stay motivated.

Keep it up!


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FITGRL124 10/19/2011 2:34PM

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CRYSTAL8488 10/19/2011 12:21PM

    Congrats on your weight loss!! Keep up all that good work. :)

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FITKAT62 10/19/2011 12:21PM

    Congrats on your success!

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Day 2 and Going Strong!

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Well, this is my second day back on the eating plan. I am a weekend muncher, as my hub is home and I do nothing but loaf around with him and eat for two days. But yesterday I stuck to the plan! I ate toward the lesser end of my calories, which excites me. emoticon

I plan an equally satisfying day today, and I have already worked out! Here's to day 2, may it be as glorious as yesterday and beyond! I am hoping my new resolve will help the emoticon go down toward my goal!

Today is also the first day I am completely emoticon I am eating right for my high cholesterol, and nothing can stop me!

My new goal is to be around my short-term goal weight by emoticon - November 23rd, actually. It is October 18th today, and that gives me 5 weeks and a day from today. I'd like to be at least in between my first and second "small goals." If I lose 2 lb. per week, I can be around 126 or so, which would be excellent! I can almost feel the future success coming on. Wish me luck!

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FIREWORK20 10/18/2011 9:58AM

    emoticon You are doing great!!! You can definitely make your goal of 126 by November 23rd too! Just stick with it! Hope you have a great day today! :)

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Nighttime gorging.

Friday, October 14, 2011

I did really well on my diet for the past two days - until last night. My husband was starving an hour after dinner and I wasn't hungry, but I craved anyway. We got a large pizza (16") with extra cheese, green pepper, onion, and pepperoni, thin crust, as well as some pepperoni cheese sticks. I ate a stick and then went on to eat who knows how many pieces of pizza. They were square pieces, about 2 x 2 in. I think I ate like 3 with most of the crust and then two to three more of just the toppings (meaning the cheese and veg). I wanted to throw it up. I was worried I'd aspirate on the cheese if I tried to do that. How sick is that? I am so upset with myself, and I don't understand why, despite this health scare, I continue to do this to myself. I can't control myself.

I am happy to report, at least, that I did go for a walk today and have started back on the healthy eating. It's just so depressing to have done this for years - I was able to diet on Weight Watchers once a few years ago for 3 weeks and lost the weight and kept it off, and I can't hardly stay on one for 3 days anymore. It's always been one day on, a week or ten off, trying over and over and over. It has really taken a toll on my self-esteem.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

FIREWORK20 10/14/2011 11:34AM

    Have you tried taking the SparkPeople approach? Not a diet really, but making small changes that really add up?

I find that when I make really drastic changes, it's a lot harder to stick with it! When I decide to do just one or two things differently, I can handle that and then I add in another couple changes when I feel that I can handle it!

Also, when you tell yourself that you can't have something, you are going to want it! Maybe tell yourself that you CAN have it, but you WON'T. Just a small change in attitude, but sometimes it's easier! Or start even smaller and let yourself have a small portion of whatever you want--don't cut it completely out yet but work on limiting it more!

Whatever happens, letting yourself get down about it won't help! It will just prevent you from getting back up. Shake it off and start fresh! You can do this!

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PENTAD 10/14/2011 11:00AM


Try not to beat yourself up when your make a mistake. Be gentle with yourself. emoticon

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GAILRUU 10/14/2011 10:56AM

    My problem with overeating is in the mid afternoon. I learned not to have foods around that tempt me because I know I will give in and eat them!

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HOAGIE22 10/14/2011 10:55AM

  Git Er Done!!!

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Health Scare.

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Talk about a wake up call! I had the results from a physical done a month ago arrive the day before yesterday --I have pretty high cholesterol for a 24-year old girl with a BMI of 24-ish. I mean, it's almost 200, with HDL ("good" cholesterol) at 42 (under the optimal level by quite a bit). My triglycerides are off the chain for me. It seems that a couple years ago my cholesterol was around 100 or lower.

So, yesterday I started really sticking to my diet and I did it. I reached all of my nutrition goals, and didn't binge on bacon, sausage, or cheese, like I normally do. Today, so far, I have done well and on my food log I still have dinner to eat as well as a few sugar-free popsicles. I walked 1.7 miles yesterday and today. I hope I can stick to it and do it this time; it appears heredity is not on my side as far as cholesterol is concerned, my Mom's is 274 and my Dad's is 220-ish.

I hope this health scare is enough to tip the motivation scale in my favor.

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CATANTIGO 10/13/2011 4:39PM

    It sounds like you have a plan in place to lower those numbers. You're on the right road. Just keep going. Let your sparkfriends help you. Big hugs. Cathy

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HS1056 10/13/2011 3:40PM

  Wow! That sure is a wake-up call. You are very young to be having those unhealthy numbers. Now is the best time for you to get it under control. I know you can do it!
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