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Self loathing.

Monday, October 10, 2011

I am 140.5 today and therefore up almost 10 lb. from last month. Someone please, stop me.

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FIREWORK20 10/10/2011 9:56AM

    emoticon Don't hate yourself!!! And don't waste time being down about it! That won't do you any good. Pick yourself up and make a fresh start. If you need another fresh start every hour? That's okay!! Take a deep breath, decide you are going to make a fresh start and start again!

Take it an hour at a time! Think about what you can do to make THIS hour healthier! Do a 10 minute exercise video from SparkPeople? Great!! Eat a serving of veggies instead of a serving of chips? Great!! What about the next hour? Do something active instead of sitting watching tv? Prepare some healthy pre-portioned meals and pack them all ready to go?

You can do this!! Read the success stories from others on SparkPeople and get encouraged! Make yourself happy--look at the beautiful day, the flowers, the birds, listen to a happy song, cuddle with a puppy, focus on the good, the beautiful, the happy things and do not let yourself get down!

"You cannot change the past, but you can begin now and make a new ending!"

Everyone has bad times, I've just gotten through a bad time myself! Today is my fresh start and I'm determined to be positive and not let my past mistakes affect my future in a negative way.

You can do this!!! :)

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JANVIVALDI 10/10/2011 9:24AM

    well I wish that I had that kind of power. However, what I can do is support you in your decisions and offer suggestions. Here are a few suggestions: 1. Be kind to yourself. We are quick to make sure that we treat others with love and respect but rarely do we offer the same thing to ourselves. 2.Stop beating yourself up. You made a mistake beating your self into shame will only prolong the mistakes. Instead congratulate yourself for seeing the problem...for reaching out for support and for the new day you have in front of you. 3. Take it one meal at a time...stop thinking about what is done. What is done is done cannot unring that bell. Instead you have a choice and the only next choice you have is your next meal. What ever meal that is what do you want to choose and what will make you feel good about yourself. Do not think about the very last meal you had and say oh well I ate too much or this or that so that day is lost. No it is not. That meal is lost ...not your day or your next meal or your will power. You can do this...one day at a time. One meal at a time. Keep reaching out when you need the support!

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Good morning!

Wednesday, October 05, 2011

Hi, friends. I'm back! I was on a blogging hiatus, as well as a diet and exercise hiatus. Such is life. I gained back the weight I lost, plus a few. I changed my goals today, and yesterday went off without a hitch! So here's to starting over!


I'm on a Bender

Wednesday, September 07, 2011

I am on a reverse-diet bender. Namely, I am munching down everything in sight. The holiday weekend didn't go well, and it continued into this week. I have been eating whatever, not exercising, and feeling horrible about myself.

In other news, I might be pregnant, so I am pretty sure the anxiety from that is making me feel like eating. That, or I am PMS-ing. I'm late...period, where are you?! I have only been married a three weeks, and I don't want to be that girl who gets pregnant a week from the wedding night. I don't want any "shotgun" references.


Drinking = Diet Disaster

Saturday, September 03, 2011

Well, the holiday weekend has come. My hub got off work early and we had a healthy dinner, and then went out for drinks with his dad- 3 drinks later, we go to the store and buy a bunch more stuff and I drink 1.5 more drinks. Those were cranberry lemonade light mikes hards, but still. Over 2,000 calories due to the drinks plus the food that followed. emoticon

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CATANTIGO 9/3/2011 1:04PM

    Yup, those liquid calories really add up fast. And the worst thing is, they make you hungry to eat more food. (especially carbs) I'll be fighting that battle tonight, at a neighborhood party. Hope the rest of your holiday weekend goes better. Keep on Sparkin!!!

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The Dreaded Scale

Friday, September 02, 2011

I awoke with a start this morning, writhing in agony over my angry stomach. It cried, "Why would you stuff me to maximum capacity and then go to sleep?" I was feeling downright sick this morning, probably due to the fact that I ate almost 40 grams of fat and a bit under 700 calories immediately before bed last night! I deprived myself of fat inadvertantly yesterday, which led to me feeling deprived. I describe it as, "I feel like eating!" Not hungry exactly but something is off. After a few hours of discomfort, I am now feeling great!

Why? Well, I just faced the dreaded emoticon The verdict: since my weigh-in yesterday, I am down 1.5 lb.

How can that be?! Well, I have been working out consistently and I know I drank plently of water yesterday, so it isn't likely to be water weight (I hope). I am keeping my fingers crossed that I won't be up 2 lb. tomorrow. I know, I know, water weight and what not. I still like seeing the number go DOWN. emoticon

I am excited to announce my weight today: 130.5 lb. I am down 3.5 lb. after my first week! I hope I can maintain this loss and continue my progress. I really need to cut down on the calories I am munching down at night; I have only stayed in my calorie range 2 of the 7 days. I only went over ridiculous one day (over 3.700- dang Mickey D's) which is completely horrible and I gained 1.5 lb. from, and the rest were not quite as bad (2,223 was the highest, the others range from 16-1900). The highlight is I still lost 3.5 lb. and [I have exercised every day].

Yay, me! I hope everyone's September has started off well! emoticon

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HS1056 9/6/2011 11:27AM

  I was also weighing myself several times a week at first and I noticed my weight went up and down by a pound or 2 each time. Then I read here on SP that it's best to weigh just once a week to get a truer reading. I now follow that advice and no longer go nuts or feel bad because of the fluctuating scale. I see a consistent drop (other than a 2 wk plateau) each week now. It's hard to keep away from that scale, I know, cuz we want that instant gratification. That's why the fast food places are so popular. emoticon

But you can focus on your clothes fitting looser and the added energy you have now. Make the choice each day to be consistent. Do your best and you will be successful.
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