WHITNEYLD   33,955
SparkPoints
30,000-39,999 SparkPoints
 
 
WHITNEYLD's Recent Blog Entries

My Eating Disorder is Back.

Monday, September 17, 2012

I am going to come clean and admit to a past of compulsive overeating and binge eating disorder. I have noticed in the last few weeks that my binging is back. I had stopped for years, but now it's back and I am up 2 more lb. to 155 lb. today.

What do I do?

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

RECREATING_ME 9/17/2012 3:53PM

    You are definitely not alone in this, and we are all here to help. emoticon

The journaling is great advice because it brings heightened awareness about what you are doing and why. Getting enough sleep is also important. I have the hardest time with overindulging when I am getting tired at the end of the day. If I don't listen to those cues, I get a terrible case of the munchies!

This healthy living thing is not an exact science. Just let what happened the day before stay in the past and start each day anew with strategies that will lead you to success!

Report Inappropriate Comment
PERSISTANT123 9/17/2012 11:15AM

    As it has been suggested by others, start journaling what you are eating, when, and what your feelings are when you are eating. If you can find the trigger that makes you binge, you can work on that to get it back under control.

I'm working on the same thing right now, so you are not alone.
emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
DAVEED 9/17/2012 10:33AM

    Thanks for being honest. Get back to it and don't feel guilty. Change is never easy.

Report Inappropriate Comment
FITGRL124 9/17/2012 10:12AM

    I am sorry that you're experiencing this again. First, kudos to coming here to blog. I am proud of you for doing that!! As far as your eating disorder, have you ever talked to anyone professionally?

Report Inappropriate Comment
LIVINGFREE19 9/17/2012 9:54AM

    Looks like you have already been given the advice you need to conquer this. It all takes time.
You can conquer this, please be diligent!

Report Inappropriate Comment
SWIMMING_CAT 9/17/2012 9:04AM

    First of all, emoticon
Then, I say the same as everybody else : find your trigger and work on it!
I've been a binge-eater for years before actually realizing it!
Once I decided to take control of the problem, I was able to find the cause (I could/would not communicate my feelings and emotions and was eating to numb my pain). It took a lot of work, but I was able to overcome the binges. I'm still working on the communicating part.
The thing you have to understand right now is that there is hope! And there is help!
Opening up about it is a great step and you can be proud of yourself!

Report Inappropriate Comment
TEMPERANCE88 9/17/2012 8:37AM

    Good for you for reaching out when you need it! That alone was a great first step. I agree with what others here have said: journal. Journal what you eat and why you ate it. That can really help. Also, maybe start a thread on the message boards asking other compulsive overeaters what they do when binging hits. That can be really, really helpful.

Whatever you do, you'll be able to pull through. You've been doing an awesome job, and you can keep pushing through. We believe in you!
emoticon emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
DEBBIELCG 9/17/2012 7:55AM

    Keep a log of what you eat when you eat and what emotions you were feeling.

Report Inappropriate Comment
NJJ-EXERCISE30 9/17/2012 7:08AM

    First what is happening in your life? It is not about the food. I am a compulsive overeater- I say that even though I have chosen not to overeat for quite some time. I do not even remember the last time- it has been that long. You need to take one day at at a time. Look into overeaters on the web. www.oa.org emoticon emoticon Little steps and stop beating yourself up. emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
LINDAMARIEZ1 9/17/2012 7:06AM

    I would start journaling! what you eat and what stress you have! work on the stresses! watch those carbs! they make you want more food! Take a deep breathe! You can do it one day at a time or 1 hour at a time or one meal at a time!!!! Two pounds isn't bad! You noticed in time and i am proud of you!
hugs
kinda emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment


Lovely Day.

Sunday, September 16, 2012

Today has been a good day. So far, I've had a half of a whole grain bagel with 1/2 of a laughing cow cream cheese wedge, and 3 cups of coffee. I just made a packet of weight control oatmeal (oatmeal with added protein and fiber). I am feeling good. I have planned to eat some chicken for dinner and some brussels sprouts. I also walked this morning for 25 minutes.

I have to work tonight, but it's ok. I didn't raid the vending machines like I wanted to last night. I opted instead to have a diet Pepsi.

I have been struggling as usual with the diet, but today I am feeling strong. I just need to take it day by day. We don't have a lot to eat really, so it is hard to make the best choices when we have NO fresh produce at all. We need to go to the store.

Anyway, wish me luck at avoiding a binge tonight. My plan is to stop eating after 7 PM every night at the latest, because my break for lunch is usually 6-6:30 or 6:30-7. I normally come home to eat a healthy dinner when possible.

Hope everyone has a great day!

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

MOONSTORMER 9/17/2012 1:37AM

    emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
FITGRL124 9/16/2012 7:54PM

    You're doing great!!! :)

Report Inappropriate Comment
VICTUS_GIRLANYA 9/16/2012 12:49PM

    You doing great so far.....Just believe and you will.....

Report Inappropriate Comment


Day 1

Friday, September 14, 2012

I'm feeling good on my day 1. I am not starting over, just starting!

I had my first day of nursing clinicals, which was pretty intense, but overall great! I met the lady I am going to be working with and she seems like she needs more care, but will be a great lady to work with.

I have eaten great today, packing a healthy lunch to take with me. I ate it, and still feel pretty good and full. I am going to make a healthy dinner of sorts, and things are going well! For the first time, I feel like I can do this!

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

MOONSTORMER 9/15/2012 4:23AM

    so glad!! of course you can do this!

Report Inappropriate Comment
DAUGHTEROFTWIN 9/14/2012 6:20PM

    This blog made me smile! See this face?? emoticon

It's all for you bay-bee!

Report Inappropriate Comment
EDDYMEESE 9/14/2012 3:09PM

    That's fantastic! I was supposed to start Day 1 of Phase 1 South Beach on Monday...then decided, what the heck! Start NOW! So I did :) Day 2 is today and already feeling better. We can do this!

I hear ya on the "just starting" - this won't be the last time you have a few days off the wagon and jump back on. That's just real life. I guess the trick is not making a mountain out of a molehill just because we have some off days, right? Great job!

Report Inappropriate Comment


Starting Fresh for a New Me!

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

I am starting fresh every day. I feel really motivated today to succeed at this weight loss battle. And it is a battle! Weight has been winning, but I am feeling the beginnings of a comeback!

Today, I planned out all the food I am going to eat for the day. I have, thus far, stuck to my plan. Nursing school is a stressor, work is a stressor, but I have a great husband who supports me and a good family network for support. I can do this.

I will be an RN and I WILL reach my goal weight!

My new goal weight: 120 lb. That's right, I am aiming high, but with only 33 pounds to lose, I KNOW I can do it. Some people have lost hundreds. I only have to lose 33. I should consider myself very lucky and do this right now.

I am only going to be this young once, and I better make the most of my metabolism before it gets slow. Plus, I want to have a healthy body to get pregnant and have a baby with. Not for a couple of years, but still. I have a time limit here.

The best outcomes are those with specific goals and specific time frames.

Whitney will... lose this 33 lb. by next year.
Whitney will... lose 10 lb. by October 31st.
Whitney will... stay within the calorie ranges for the next two weeks without splurging due to doing so well.
Whitney will... aim to get more active in the next two weeks, walking at least 90 min per week.

Sounds good, no? emoticon

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

ALLIEALLIE2 9/14/2012 11:25AM

    Great attitude Whit!! I'm excited to watch you achieve your goals!

Report Inappropriate Comment
RECREATING_ME 9/13/2012 12:41PM

    Plans are always great to help keep on track. You can do this!

Report Inappropriate Comment
MOONSTORMER 9/13/2012 2:27AM

    emoticon sounds like a plan! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
STLRFNS 9/12/2012 11:59PM

    emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
FITGRL124 9/12/2012 11:15AM

    Sounds GREAT ! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
LDRICHEL 9/12/2012 9:54AM

    Yes! You WILL do it! Good for you!!!! Great attitude!

Report Inappropriate Comment


Day 7: First Weigh In.

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

I am already tired of this failure of a challenge. I ate pizza last night. I wanted it, and I ate it. I haven't weighed in yet. I am going to do that in a minute. I just wanted to decompress. I am starting over today, like officially. I want a clean slate. I am going to do a mini-fast break for myself and keep my challenges to weekly. Every week a new challenge, so that way if I make a misstep, I will know that I didn't blow a whole 3 month challenge.

Fall Challenges
Week 1 - Stay within Calorie Ranges
Week 2 - Exercise at least 90 minutes this week

I think these mini goals will suit me a lot better. Staying within my calories, exercising, and everything else, all at once, is just too much to handle. I am overhauling my diet and exercise, 1 week at a time, 1 thing at a time.

5 Things I Am Grateful For
1. The beautiful fall weather is starting!
2. I am healthy, overall
3. I have a nice husband who loves me no matter how large I am, and I sort of believe him
4. I have really great parents who support me in all that I do
5. My mom really helps me get through hard times, and I can lean on her during these challenges as a support system to be successful

On a positive note, I weighed in and I am the same 153.0 as I was last week. So, no loss no gain. Well, I gained my losses, but still. I'll take it.

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

CHANGINGSAM 9/11/2012 3:58PM

    I know it's tough, but take things one day at a time. It's easier that way. Best of luck. emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
ALLIEALLIE2 9/11/2012 1:45PM

    emoticon Remember this is tough stuff, don't beat yourself up you have an awesome support system and breaking it down into smaller mini goals is a great idea! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
FITGRL124 9/11/2012 1:25PM

    Struggling can be so frustrating. Good for you for setting mini goals. I think that will be better overall!

Report Inappropriate Comment
CJADERUN 9/11/2012 12:46PM

    You know, everyone is struggling right about now--literally every single one! Focus in on that quote you've posted--just keep looking forward, and don't dwell on what's passed.
emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
DAUGHTEROFTWIN 9/11/2012 9:53AM

    I'm sorry you're struggling. It can be so frustrating trying to find your daily motivation. Hugs.

Report Inappropriate Comment


First Page  1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 33 34 35 36 37 38 39 40 41 42 43 44 45 46 47 48 49 50 51 52 53 54 55 56 57 58 59 60 61 Last Page