New and Improved Me.

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

I have had a major motivation problem lately. A week ago, I tried on the dress I was supposed to wear to a wedding in August and it only zips halfway up! I have exactly two months until this wedding, so today I went for a walk and ate an Atkins Advantage bar for breakfast. I am going to eat a healthy lunch of salad with pork chops and a light dinner at work. I am going to go back to a semi-Atkins state of watching my carbs, but not dieting per se.

I am making a lifestyle change. Saying NO to alcohol on the weekends, NO to mindless eating, and NO to the endless excuses.

Today I weighed in at 153.5 lb. The most I have ever weighed in my life, again! I am maxing out on my weight. I am short, so the 15 pounds I gained this past month or so have really made a bad look for me. It is all fat, and my clothes don't fit. Like, none of them fit, even the bigger ones I'd previously gotten. I am so ready for change, it is not even funny.

So wish me luck! I am going to eat only when I am hungry, exercise, and I hope to fit into that dress by August.

Starting weight: 153.5
Goal weight for August 5th: 138.5

I think 15 pounds is a reasonable amount to aim for in two months.

  

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EYES_ON_THEPRAZ 6/14/2012 1:35PM

You can do this! Even if you don't get the 15, I bet if you get close the dress will look great! I have never lost 15 in 2 months but I am a SLOOOOW loser! Sounds like you're taking good steps. PS I LOLed a little at your 153 only because that would be a dream weight for me! But I know it's different for everyone and it's all about how you FEEL. Report Inappropriate Comment

ZMILENA 6/14/2012 6:34AM

Hey girl! You know you can do this. You did great on the last challenge you are like my idol now. No bad feelings about yourself. You can do anything you want! Report Inappropriate Comment

MRSKATWAT 6/13/2012 3:02PM

you can do this! try the dress on every week and take a picture so you can see the results. I do this and it really helps me x Report Inappropriate Comment

HOPEFULHIPPO 6/13/2012 2:29PM

time to get serious!!! I'm on the 5% summer challenge too (the determined underdogs) Hoping for 165 by Aug 18th we can dooooo this!!! (my dress only zips halfway too!!) Report Inappropriate Comment

BEATLETOT 6/13/2012 1:45PM

Hey, Summer Challenge starts June 23! You can still sign up, I think. Hit up m'SparkPage, it should be the first group there. Report Inappropriate Comment

EICHSWIFE06 6/13/2012 12:37PM

you got this! you sound like you have the same body type as i do. carbs are evil lol. good luck! Report Inappropriate Comment

FITGRL124 6/13/2012 11:33AM

Let's DO this! We can encourage each other. My goal for August 15th is 135. I am going to do everything in my power to get there! WE CAN do this! It's all about mind over matter. Comment edited on: 6/13/2012 11:34:20 AM Report Inappropriate Comment

June Goals.

Saturday, June 02, 2012

1. Weigh in only once per week.
2. Track all food.
3. Exercise daily, at least 1 mile walk. I can commit to that.
4. Eat only when hungry.
5. No more mindless snacking!
6. Aim to lose 8-10 lb. but don't focus solely on the number.
7. Measure all food consumed.
8. Eat more fruits and vegetables.
9. Celebrate non-scale victories!

  

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GINGERPAWZ 6/4/2012 11:55PM

Take Care, Sharon Report Inappropriate Comment

EYES_ON_THEPRAZ 6/4/2012 2:38PM

goals! Report Inappropriate Comment

BEATLETOT 6/3/2012 12:48PM

These are great goals! You can do this! Report Inappropriate Comment

FITGRL124 6/3/2012 11:28AM

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Hello, Sparkers!

Friday, June 01, 2012

Happy June! I am not where I'd planned to be at this time, but I am still optimistic for the future. I am hopeful. Unbeknown to me, I have been on medication that causes weight gain up to 30 pounds. Since the 5% challenge, I have gained 12.5 pounds. In a month. I am now 150.5, per my last weight in yesterday.

But today is a new day! Now that I know the reason for this seemingly unexplainable weight gain, I CAN better fight it! I am going to exercise more and try and eat healthier. The goal will be to be a little hungry when I go to bed, but not ravenous.

I am looking forward to future success. I feel good. It was raining but I still went out this morning and walked. I am going to go on another one when the rain stops! The goal is for 3 miles today, which I will reach after my next planned walk.

I am also going to start back on the 30 Day Shred. I know exercise is the key for me, since I have never really done it regularly before. I want to be healthier, I want to be more fit, and I want to be comfortable in my own skin. Being this heavy - the heaviest I have been in my entire life - is a shock. Maybe I needed that?

I saw this on a fellow Sparker's blog, and loved the message, so I will share it with you!

  

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FITGRL124 6/1/2012 8:52PM

I am glad that you found out about the medicine! Is there a different medication that you could switch to though? If not, fight it with exercise!!!! I love the quote! Report Inappropriate Comment

I am Done Dieting.

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

I am so over this whole dieting thing. I try and change my diet so severely every day and always fail. Like, daily. So I am done dieting.

I planned today's food in advance, but I am eating what I want, no matter how many carbohydrates it has. I miss fruit! I miss sugar! I can eat in moderation if I make an effort to, and be a lot happier.

I am sorry I have been missing in action for a while, but I am back and going strong starting today! I am beginning to get back into exercise.

What I mean by that is I have walked twice in the past week. I had gotten out of the habit and exercise had become a chore I hated doing!

In other news, my new mattress is arriving today, along with my new coffee table and two end tables! I am so excited! I can't wait. Now I get to go all gung-ho cleaning up for the new arrivals.



Also, another good bit of news: I got accepted into the clinicals for nursing school and start in the fall! I already registered for classes. In 2 years, I will be an RN!

  

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FITGRL124 5/23/2012 8:28PM

New furniture - ooh that sounds fun!!! Yep - dieting is for the birds! Eat everything you want in moderation. on being accepted to the RN program. AND - what a great picture!!! Thanks for sharing! Report Inappropriate Comment

SUPERMOUSE35 5/23/2012 8:54AM

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MONAKIN314 5/23/2012 8:33AM

Congrats on Nursing School! and Welcome back to the wagon! You can do it! Report Inappropriate Comment

THE_SHAKESHAFT 5/23/2012 5:32AM

I love getting new furniture, Good luck getting back on the wagon :) Report Inappropriate Comment

PRINCESSAA12 5/23/2012 5:22AM

Wow. Congrats future RN. :) Report Inappropriate Comment

BIGDOG18 5/23/2012 5:06AM

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Troubled.

Friday, May 11, 2012

Well, I'm still here! I have been tracking my food somewhat, and starting to get somewhat back on track. My mood seems to be better.

I was started on some new medication which originally helped me stick to my diet, but now that the adjustment period is over, I can't seem to stick to anything for a single DAY. It is crushing my self-esteem. I don't know where that unshakable resolve went! I did induction on Atkins, lost like 7-9 pounds, and have been a yo-yo ever since.

It really feels bad to fail every day. Day in and day out, after trying so hard. I don't know what's wrong with me.

  

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FITGRL124 5/12/2012 8:33AM

I agree with LA.Princess - you should throw out diets all together. Sometimes when we do "diets" the need for perfection arises. In this need for perfection, we are hard on ourselves when we "fail." However, what is failing? If you eat a piece of chocolate, did you fail? If you have a coke, did you fail? If you are tired and don't workout, are you a failure? The answer to all of these questions are NO! You are human. We're all human. You deserve to treat yourself better. Think about this for a minute. If you have a SP friend beating themselves up in a blog about all the things that they did to "ruin" their nutrition or telling themselves how bad they were that they didn't workout one day or one week, what would you say? How would you respond to them? I'm pretty sure you would say - it's okay. Don't be hard on yourself. Get back on track with the next meal or the next workout. Okay then - why are you so hard on yourself? Is it because you expect yourself to be perfect; to always eat 100% clean; to workout every single day? I think you need to take time to reflect on what put you here in the first place? No one is 100% perfect so throw those diets out the window. Just do the best you can 80-90% of time and enjoy life the other 10%. So what if it takes a little bit longer to reach your goal, this is about a healthier lifestyle not a number on a scale. You need to BELIEVE in yourself. YOU are WORTH this! YOU can DO this! YOU are STRONG! Report Inappropriate Comment

L.A.PRINCESS 5/11/2012 5:54PM

I think you should forget about diets. Just feed your body healthy foods, log your minutes, and drink lots of water. Try stepping away from the big picture for a little while and just focus on each day as a little mission. You have to stay positive. I had a terrible week but I'm not letting it bring me down and today has been great. Report Inappropriate Comment

ALLIEALLIE2 5/11/2012 2:56PM

I assure you there is nothing wrong with you! Cheer up!! Focus, today is a brand new day, clean slate!! Report Inappropriate Comment