Sunday, February 19, 2012
I had an epiphany. I am so over myself!
Courtesy of MICHELLESMILES.
Tomorrow is a new day, people!
I am over my self-doubt, self-loathing, and self-pity. It is high time I buckle down and actually STICK WITH IT!
I WILL get up early tomorrow and do my Jillian Michael's "30 Day Shred" workout, AND walk my 1.4 mile walk outside.
I WILL track my food daily AND stay within my calorie limits daily.
I WILL stop drinking so much, because I know that it lowers my inhibitions and leads to most of my dieting failures.
I WILL stop hating myself, and believe that I CAN do this!
I WILL DO THIS and much more, and I WILL be accountable for my actions and my decisions regarding my health, starting NOW!
- Exercise daily, no matter what! Everyone can fit 20 minutes a day in to their schedule, and I have NO kids, NO job, and therefore, NO EXCUSES!
- Eat right. More veggies, less processed foods, and more healthy choices.
I am now following the "EAT LESS, EXERCISE MORE" diet plan!
Friday, February 17, 2012
I hit my highest weight yesterday. I am almost up to 150, which is ridiculous for someone as short as me. I feel terrible. I am renewing my committment, yet again, but this time things are getting serious. I ate almost half of a large pizza (a 16 inch!) with extra cheese and pepperoni with some veggies, plus ice cream and chocolate. A binge, really. I am totoally disgusted.
Today I ate some ice cream for breakfast. But hey, at least it was no sugar added, and had some fiber! It makes is easy not to over eat too much, also, because you will be majorly ill if you do so!
I am allowing myself a normal sized serving of this ice cream often, most days, and eating some chocolate (Ghiradelli dark & raspberry! Yum!). It isn't good for me, but if it helps me from not going nuts and eating a pound of cheese and butter, I would say it's a one step back, two forward kind of thing.
Haven't exercised in a week. Yeah, I know. School is coming up and I am almost at 150 lb. I have not weighed more than 135 for a long time, until the past 6 months. I feel like this weight is stuck on me. My metabolism is already failing me and I am not quite 25 yet! Horrid.
I will try the 120 oz. water suggestion, and maybe I will eat less. I have been craving white potatoes and butter and sour cream, carbs, carbs, and more carbs! I will aim for a ratio of 40-45% carbs daily, 30% protein, and 25-30% fat as my goal for where my calories come from. I was eating the bare minimum last week and not losing weight. Maybe I should aim for 1300-1400 calories instead of 1100-1250.
EDIT: To clarify, I ate off my plan yesterday for dinner. As for the past week, I usually stay within my calorie ranges 70% of the time. I still don't lose weight. I ate pizza yesterday, but I still didn't eat over 2,000 calories. I do not want to plan to eat unhealthy foods regularly, I just bought some ice cream last night so I can include some unhealthy indulgences and increase my calories a bit so I can stick to my ranges 100% of the time. My spontaneous eating of unplanned food is why I am having a weight problem. I never claimed to have eaten 1100-1200 calories yesterday when this pizza issue occured. Thanks!
Friday, February 10, 2012
I totally embody fantasticness. I walked 1.4 miles today - at a very brisk pace! Plus, I also completed another day of Jillian's "30 Day Shred" level 1 workout. I missed yesterday, but that won't get me down.
I have stayed on calories for 3 days now which, for me, is wonderous. The crux is that the scale hasn't moved. Like, at all! Very weird. I think maybe my age is starting to catch up to me a bit. I used to drop lbs daily if I was diligent on the diet. Now, it takes FOREVER. Like, at least 5 days to lose .5 lb. or less! Turtle speed weight loss doesn't really make me motivated, but I feel good about exercising and eating right! I have stayed around 1,000 mg sodium, give or take . I would think that would decrease water retention. Who knows.
All is well in my world today! Hope you have as good of a day as I have!
Thursday, February 09, 2012
It's only day 2 and I didn't do my Jillian Michael's "30 day shred" dvd today. I hurt so bad when I woke up, my ass is so sore it's ridiculous. I did the video yesterday and it kicked my ass after the 4 day break. I pushed myself a lot harder, though. I did those squats and lunges to the floor! That was my win for the day. My legs were jelly afterward.
Today I stayed in calories and all my nutrient ranges, even the "under 1,000 mg" sodium. I was just too sore to work out today. I could have walked, but didn't. I spent the day cooking and getting car insurance quotes and looking for a car title. Yeah. It is not enough to say that I was slightly annoyed.
Anyway, day 2 is almost over. I usually fail within the first 3-4 days of any given week, if not sooner. Hoping I can make this time different. I haven't done more than 4 days on a diet in years. It is really self-defeating, I know.
My mom is a binge eater, something which I picked up in early teen years. I have been on a diet since like 12. I thought I was fat way before then. But since I got out of high school, I have been on a rollercoaster of dieting and failing. 2 days on, 3 off. 4 days on, 1 off, 2 days on, 5 off, etc. Horrifying. Well, trying to make something stick.
Anyone else have these same experiences?
It is really a self-esteem killer.
Wednesday, February 08, 2012
I am working on "Making the Cut" right now, trying to fit in the balance of diet and exercise. I did level one again today after a 4 day break. I stayed on my diet today, too. Starting over after a relapse.
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