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Dieting: My Self-defeating Behavior

Thursday, February 09, 2012

It's only day 2 and I didn't do my Jillian Michael's "30 day shred" dvd today. I hurt so bad when I woke up, my ass is so sore it's ridiculous. I did the video yesterday and it kicked my ass after the 4 day break. I pushed myself a lot harder, though. I did those squats and lunges to the floor! That was my win for the day. My legs were jelly afterward.

Today I stayed in calories and all my nutrient ranges, even the "under 1,000 mg" sodium. I was just too sore to work out today. I could have walked, but didn't. I spent the day cooking and getting car insurance quotes and looking for a car title. Yeah. It is not enough to say that I was slightly annoyed.

Anyway, day 2 is almost over. I usually fail within the first 3-4 days of any given week, if not sooner. Hoping I can make this time different. I haven't done more than 4 days on a diet in years. It is really self-defeating, I know.

My mom is a binge eater, something which I picked up in early teen years. I have been on a diet since like 12. I thought I was fat way before then. But since I got out of high school, I have been on a rollercoaster of dieting and failing. 2 days on, 3 off. 4 days on, 1 off, 2 days on, 5 off, etc. Horrifying. Well, trying to make something stick.

Anyone else have these same experiences?

It is really a self-esteem killer.


Hey there.

Wednesday, February 08, 2012

I am working on "Making the Cut" right now, trying to fit in the balance of diet and exercise. I did level one again today after a 4 day break. I stayed on my diet today, too. Starting over after a relapse.


Day 2 of New Me.

Friday, January 27, 2012

Well, I succeeded in keeping to my calories yesterday. I was emotionally hungry last night at work, I did end up eating a bag of kettle cooked chips (totally worth it), and since my calories had been around 850 or so until then, I could "afford" it. I did the workout yesterday, and I will be doing it today as well.

I planned out a healthy new recipe from Sparkrecipes.com, and did a "makeover." It is creamy italian chicken in the crock pot, with fat free cream cheese, brown rice, veggies... sounded good. It smells even better! I planned out a generous portion, 2/3 c. brown rice and 1/3 of the mixture. Yum!

I feel pretty motivated today. I quit my job (today was my last day), and now I am free to be a home maker for a couple of months until school, and another part-time job. I will use all this free time to keep up with my cooking, cleaning, exercise, and health measures. I hope they will become an ingrained habit by the time work and school get in the way.

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ACYCLINGMIND 1/27/2012 10:35AM

    Wow; being a homemaker for even a few months sounds fantastic. It would be great to have that freedom for a while! Just don't get caught in that laziness trap! Sounds like you're coming along nicely; did you really just start this journey yesterday? Keep it up!

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Thursday, January 26, 2012

Well, I have been consistent in exercise for about a week, so that's a small win for me! I am going to set a goal for myself. You are my accountability.

I WILL do the "30 Day Shred" for the next 30 days at least, every day. It is only 20 minutes, and I KNOW I can do it! I did it Tuesday and today. Today will be my official "Day 1."

I WILL keep eating healthy and keep my cocktails down to a minimum to achieve my health goals.

I WILL stay within my calorie range at least 6 out of the 7 days, and I won't go hog wild on the weekends anymore!

I WILL cook healthy new recipes from this website and others; I will branch out and try new things and work on bringing whole foods, whole grains, and health into my family.

Consistency is key for me, and I WILL strive to keep consistent in my efforts, both diet-wise and exercise-wise!

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FITFABJENN 1/26/2012 5:50PM

    I love that you have locked onto some healthy choices you can do consistently, because that really is the key. Good for you!

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Wednesday, January 25, 2012

This has never happened to me! I have been eating great! For 3 days and exercising longer, plus super hard the past few days. NOTHING. No results. I am super sore and annoyed and the same weight. WTF?!

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HS1056 1/25/2012 6:58PM

  Give your body time to adjust to the good things you are giving it, i.e. good food and exercise. The scale sometimes takes a bit longer to show results but don't give up! You CAN do it! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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RHILL4455 1/25/2012 2:42PM

    We all hit plateaus from time to time. Don't let this get you down!! Keep pushing forward. Your doing great!!

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