Sunday, July 11, 2010
Since I am fully ready to shed these last 15 lbs I am going to post my weekly plan on here and check in next Sunday so see how I did. I need to be accountable to someone and since hubby isn't into these details you all are the next best thing.
This past week I took some time off of running, I was having some foot and hip issues but I am feeling great today so my focus this week will be getting back to my half marathon training plan.
My plan is to go to the gym or run 5 out of the next 6 days
Stay within my calorie range
Avoid eating out(I make terrible decisions when I eat out)
Stay active with the puppers
Clean the house from top to bottom(one room each day)
Lastly I want to spend quality time with the hubby at least 1 day-not watching tv or eating out
Thanks for listening guys. Here's hoping I stick to it
Wednesday, July 07, 2010
I hope everyone had a fantastic weekend. I know I did. My office was closed Friday and Monday for the holiday, which was fantastic since we never get that much time off. Friday the hubby and I went to the trail near our house to get a morning run in. It was nice to spend time with the hubby since we rarely have full days off together and he doesnít usually want to get up early to workout with me. I ran the 5 miles I had scheduled for the half marathon training plan and then hit up the gym for a little arc trainer and strength training sesh. It was nice to be able to workout a little later than normal and take my time. When I workout before work I always feel rushed because I know I have to come home and do all my morning stuff and still make it to work on time. After the gym hubs and I hit up my favorite diner for some breakfast and then did some shopping. I hate shopping lately. I know that is blasphemy right. I used to love shopping especially for clothes(when I was much heavier) and now when it should be more fun since Iím thin, it just isnít. I donít know if part of me is frustrated at spending money on clothes that donít fit after a month or if buying smaller clothes that are tighter donít look as good in my head. I dunno itís weird. All day on Friday I was debating making the drive to Pittsburgh to see my family. Hubby had to work the rest of the weekend and I had no real plans in Maryland for the 4th so I caved in and decided to go. Iím glad I did because my brother and his wife had their baby Saturday so I was able to make it to the hospital to see my new niece Alyssa. Other than seeing the new baby I spent the weekend lounging at the pool with my nephew and sister and pretty much eating my weight in junk food. I donít know what happens to me when I go to Pittsburgh but itís like my self control flies out the window. The damage wasnít too bad when I weighed myself yesterday morning and as of today itís almost all gone so it was clearly water weight but I still want to get to the root of eating badly.
On a completely different note I decided that the husband and I waste the nights heís home going on lame dates(dinner and a movie, dinner and shopping, just breakfast/lunch/dinner, etc) so we are going to switch things up. We are each going to take turns planning a date for the other. Tom decided he would plan Julyís date and he has been secretly making phone calls and searching on the internet so Iím really excited to see what will happen. I am already thinking of some fun things for us to do around here, so anyone in the Baltimore area with suggestions let me know.
Moving right along. One thing that has been bothering me a lot lately is happiness. Generally I feel like I am a pretty happy person. I donít have too many complaints in life and I almost never cry or stay angry for longer than 5 minutes. However, more and more I realize that I need to make a change in my life. Specifically when it comes to my job. More and more lately I have been stressing out over my job and where I see my future going. I am 25 and am terribly jealous of my friends who know exactly what they want to do for the rest of their lives. I think about my future and although there are things that I might want to do for the rest of my life, I just canít be sure. That makes me freak out a little. I thought I wanted to go to law school but the thought of school and spending more money freaks me out, especially when I am not 100% sure. I thought I wanted to be a vet and then I started thinking about having to put animals down and again I freaked out because I think I would cry everyday if that were my job. Lastly I have thought about opening my own bakery or catering company for a long time, I love to cook and bake and get tons of compliments on my creations. However that is a huge money commitment and I worry that if I fail I will have nothing to fall back on. Iím praying that this whole freaking out about my future thing is only because Iím 25 and having my quarter life crisis but what if itís not? I stress about making changes in my life that will affect our future(Tom, mine and our future children) and I just hope and pray that something will click and I will figure it all out. Tom doesnít freak out about this stuff and canít understand why I do, but he has always and I mean ALWAYS known what he wanted to do for the rest of his life. Itís easy for him so he just thinks Iím acting crazy. Hopefully someone else out there understands what Iím going through.
Ok I think that might be enough for today!
Thursday, July 01, 2010
Two blogs in two days? That is a rare occurrence for me. We have tomorrow and Monday off of work for the holiday so things are a little tame today which gives me more time than normal for putzing around. Today started off rough. I havenít been feeling rested even with a full 8 hours of sleep. Today my hubby called me at 4:45 am like he does every morning he works(he works the night shift a few nights a week) and I told him I was getting up and shut off my own alarm. I must have laid back down for a few minutes and the next thing you know it was 7:30 am. I never sleep in that late. Now my whole day feels out of whack and I missed going to the gym. Yesterday was my rest day and now I missed today so I really feel out of whack. Itís ok because I know there will be times when I canít always get to the gym and you have to roll with the punches, I;m just more concerned about how tired I feel physically and mentally. Hopefully this long weekend will help me recharge my batteries.
Not only did sleeping in screw with my workout but it also messed up my normal breakfast. Typically I would come home from the gym, walk the dogs and then shower and eat. Today I was rushed so I knew I wouldnít have time to eat at home. I figured I would stop for a bagel at Panera (My favorite treat but one I donít indulge in all too often). I grabbed a bagel pack for the office and when I got here there is a whole table full of treats. Everyone must have had the same idea as me because there are cookies, brownies, chips and salsa, donuts and now bagels on the table. Good thing I can resist that other crap but I did eat a whole bagel plus went back for another half. GAHH that;s like 500 calories worth of bagels not including the iced coffee I picked up from Starbucks. Again I know these days donít happen often and you canít fight the urge all the time but I really donít like feeling out of control not to mention that I now have a tummyache.
Oh well moving on. Nothing exciting going on this weekend really. Hubby has to work all weekend as usual so I was contemplating making the drive to Pittsburgh all on my own with the 2 dogs I just donít know if I can do it. I have never made the drive alone with Remington and he just doesnít sit still so I donít know how safe it is, not to mention I HATE THE DRIVE. I donít mind being the passenger when Tom drives but I really cannot keep my focus for 4 straight hours there and 4 hours back. The drive up never seems so bad because I know once I;m there I get to see my family but on the way back Iím usually terribly depressed and cry a good portion of it(I moved away 3 years ago and I still cry almost every trip there). Weíll see what happens, but the thought of spending the 4th alone is a little depressing. Tonight the hubs is taking me to see Eclipse and he even told me he would wear a Team Jacob shirt- or he would make his own that said ďIím married, straight and still on Team JacobĒ haha. He can be a funny guy when he wants to. I think itís incredibly nice of him to see the movie with me especially when I could go with my girlfriends. Iím just glad he is willing to do the things I like just to spend the time with me. Heís a keeper.
I have another blog I want to write but would really like to keep these separate so stay tuned for an actual weight loss related blog later this afternoon.
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