Friday, August 26, 2011
Hope all is going well. I wanted to check in since it's been 3 weeks since I delivered my little bundle of joy. Things are going well over here. Tom went back to work for 2 weeks and will be off another 2 weeks come Monday since his parents will be here for 10 days! Yikes, I love my in laws but it's rough having someone at your house for that long. Hopefully things are smooth and no one irritates me too bad. I have been tired and a little snappy lately so I better make sure and nap when I can to avoid being nasty. The baby is adjusting really well. He's eating a ton(every 2 hours during the day and every 3-4 hours at night). Breastfeeding has been better than I expected. You never know what can happen, I know some women just can;t do it or the babies don't take to it and we have been lucky to have it so easy in that regard. I feel like all I do is feed him though. Some days I don;t even put a shirt on, just walk around in the nursing bra because he eats so often it's kinda pointless. He naps a lot and the dogs love nap time with him. The only issue with napping is that he's a little spoiled and wants to be held a lot of the time. There are days that if I lay him down while he's sleeping he will wake up and freak out and not go back to sleep. On those days I either nap with him on my chest or wear him in our moby wrap so I can get some things done. I really can't complain though because holding him and snuggling him is about the best thing I ever felt. He is so precious and when he looks up at me when he's eating or snuggling me I just melt. This is going to sound totally sappy but for a long time now I have been struggling with my motivation in life. I paid a lot of money for school and have student loans that I will probably be paying until I am 50 and don't feel passionate about any one given career. I always envy people who say they knew what they wanted to do and love their jobs(like my hubby) becuase I don't have that pull towards a job. That is until I gave birth. Being a mother is the best and most rewarding job I could ever hope for. I always said I could never be a stay at home mom because I would be bored and had more goals in life but now that I am a stay at home mom I am so satisfied. I have such a peace with myself that I could never have imagined. When I told my mom this she actually cried. She was a stay at home mom while we all were growing up and went back to college as an adult. She said she always hoped us kids would come to appreciate the hardwork and dedication it took for her to stay home. I do now and I am so thankful for her giving up so much of herself so that we could have such a great time growing up. Ok sappy rant over.
I wanted to post a few pics of my post baby body so that others could see the light at the end of the tunnel. At delivery I had gained 36 lbs, currently I have lost 21 lbs. Once I get back to my prepregnancy weight I might strive to lose a little more but I think that will depend more on how my clothes will fit. I am in no rush to lose this weight, it took 9 months to gain and I know it won't come off overnight. Right now I am focused on eating healthy and often so that I can continue breastfeeding. If anyone has any questions please let me know! I'll also post some cute pics of my man just because!
These are from 3 days postpartum, the day we came home from the hospital. I look exhausted sorry!
These are from this past Monday 8/22/2011 3 weeks postpartum, and yes I still look exhausted!
And pics of my handsome baby
Friday, August 12, 2011
OK so be forewarned this is a long post. Sorry but I typed it up in word to print for his baby book and I didn;t want to miss any details.
Nathaniel’s Birth Story
Nathaniel’s crazy birth story actually starts at my 39-week doctor’s appointment, which was on Thursday July 30, 2011. While there the doctor again told me that I was 3 cm dilated and that my cervix was really ripe and he asked if he should strip my membranes. At the time I said no because my mom was at home caring for a special needs child while her parents were away and I knew she couldn’t get to Baltimore until Sunday at the earliest. I was worried that if I went in to labor Thursday or Friday she wouldn’t be able to come and see the baby right away. I didn’t want her in the delivery room but there is something comforting about having your mom at your house when you get released from the hospital. In any case since I decided against the membrane stripping the doctor asked me to schedule an induction date. He doesn’t like to let patients go past their due date because of placenta issues and larger babies. Quite honestly he has a very busy practice and is the only doctor so I’m sure scheduling deliveries makes his job a lot easier. He had already delivered 8 babies that week and it was only Thursday so I agreed because I also wanted to make sure I could go to my hospital of choice. The next day I woke up panicked because I realized I would rather try and do everything I could to get the baby out before going in for the induction. I called the doctor as soon as his office opened and asked to come in and get my membranes stripped. Luckily he could squeeze me in before another scheduled c-section that day. All day I had some minor spotting and cramping but nothing to be excited over. Saturday Tom and I went to see Captain America in the movie theater and I was so uncomfortable, looking back now I was probably having contractions but just chalked it up to being squished into a theater seat 39 weeks pregnant. After the movie we picked up Chipotle because I wanted to try some spicy foods. I will also say that we definitely had sex to try and induce the labor. I really tried everything minus the castor oil route because who wants to poop themselves. Saturday night we walked the dogs like always and although I was feeling contractions they weren’t any different than the ones I had been feeling for weeks. I was still hoping to go into labor overnight to avoid the induction the next night. Sunday I woke up dreading the thought of being induced. My sister in law had a terrible experience and although I know not everyone has a bad experience I was just really working myself up over it. Finally around noon I called the doctor and told him I wanted to cancel the induction. He understood and told me to be patient and that in 3-5 days I would have a baby or we would reevaluate the induction then. I was relieved.
Tom and I spent the afternoon walking around Target and the grocery store trying to walk in the air conditioning still holding out hope that we would get that baby out as soon as possible. We came home and had dinner, walked the dogs and hung out. I was feeling minor contractions but they never got consistent in timing. I had been having the same issue for days. I would feel contractions and start timing and they would be all over the place. They would be 5-10 minutes apart and then it would be 25 minutes. It was crazy. My sister called and told me just to relax that the baby would come when the time was right which is what everyone says. She also suggested a bath, which I did take because I love baths but it’s hard when you are super pregnant, especially since we have a tiny tub low to the ground. I took a bath around 8:30 pm on Sunday July 31, 2011. When I got out at 9 pm I came downstairs and had a peanut butter tortilla and started the movie SWAT with Tom. The contractions had all but stopped which annoyed me because I was hoping the bath would have the opposite effect and get things moving. Within 45 minutes the contractions had started again and this time they actually hurt. Up until this point they were merely an inconvenience but around 9:45 pm they were painful enough to make me stop walking around. I started timing them again and within 20 minutes realized they were coming every 4-5 minutes. I made Tom call the doctor’s answering service while I jumped in the shower to wash my hair and shave my legs. At this point they were painful and it took me forever to get a shower because I had to keep hanging on to the wall to breath. Looking back I should have skipped the shower but I really had no idea how fast labor would come for us. The doctor called tom back and told him to check with our preferred hospital to make sure they had a room for us (they only have 5 laboring rooms but more recovery rooms). He then called back 5 minutes later and said just to go to the other hospital because if I was progressing as fast as we thought we didn’t want to take a chance at the smaller hospital. Luckily both hospitals are the same distance from our house just in opposite directions. We finally got in the car at 10:45 pm and drove to the hospital. I was panicking at this point because it was such intense pain and so frequent that I said to Tom “I feel like we aren’t even going to make it to the hospital, I might deliver in the car” I’m pretty sure he almost had a heart attack when I said that. This was also the point when I told him I would most certainly be getting drugs. He laughed because I had been training him for months to just keep telling me “After the next contraction” I think I might have threatened him that if he tried to stop me I would kill him. We got to the hospital and had to fill out the paperwork since I hadn’t preregistered there. We finally got settled in our room and when I went to give a urine sample I had a lot of blood, which made me scared because I didn’t expect it to be there. They immediately called the midwife who came in to check me and told me I was already dilated to 6 cm. This was around 11:30 pm. They called the doctor again to let him know and then asked me if I was interested in pain meds. I kept waffling and telling them I wanted to wait as long as possible. They started the IV because you have to have a certain amount of fluid in you before they will proceed with an epidural. Finally my doctor arrived around midnight and checked me again and told me I was already at 9 cm. He told me if I wanted the meds it was now or never. I tried to rationalize not doing it but I was miserable. Everyone around me was talking and joking and I really wanted to smack them all. I opted to get the epidural so they called in the anesthesiologist. When he arrived they told him I had a codene/morphene allergy and how far along I was which basically meant that I could not get an epidural (they take 2 hours to kick in and I could deliver in the next 45 minutes if my water broke). Not only did he tell me I couldn’t have the epidural but he could not get the cart with the meds open. So there I was lying in pain while they banged and tried to pry the cart open for the drugs they told me I couldn’t have. At one point I asked the doctor to just break my water so we could start pushing but eventually he and the anesthesiologist agreed that I could get a saddle block (spinal block) which would work pretty fast and would only numb me waist down for 2 hours. This would be perfect since they were sure I would deliver before it wore off. It was also a good compromise because you still feel everything but just in a duller state. They finally gave me the meds around 12:35 pm. It kicked in fast and the doctor broke my water. Fifteen minutes later they asked me to start pushing. Unfortunately the meds worked too well because I wasn’t pushing properly since I was too numb to feel my butt. After 3 or 4 pushes the doctor asked me to rest and said he would come back in an hour once some of the meds wore off. I was comfortable and feeling okay for about 40 minutes before I started having intense pressure which was of course the baby coming down further in the birth canal. We started pushing again around 2:15 am and my baby was born at 2:49 am. Honestly the pushing wasn’t nearly as bad as I thought it would be even though I could feel most of it. The worst part was that my doctor, nurse and Tom kept saying “you are doing so great, he’s right there” which made me think that I was almost done but I still have a few pushes to go.
While we were waiting to push between contractions everyone was taking bets on his size. This helped me because it distracted me from the pain and pressure I was feeling. As soon as he came out everyone’s faces looked shocked which worried me but as soon as I heard his little cry I teared up. When they put him up on my chest I remember saying “He’s perfect” to which everyone, replied, “He is a big baby, let’s weight him”. Turns out the ultrasound tech who told me he would be 10 lbs was pretty close. He weight 9 lbs 7 oz and was 21.5 inches long. My doctor was shocked and just kept saying, “You did so great, look how big he was!” He and all the nurses all commented that my belly did not look big enough to hold such a big baby and I have to agree. I said all along that I thought he would be little but I guess we were wrong. Since he was so big they had to test his glucose level right away so I only got to hold him for a few minutes before they did all the testing. I couldn’t believe that my little guy decided Sunday/Monday was the right time for him to arrive after all. It made me feel so much better about my decision to not be induced. I guess it was an instinct that he would come when he was ready but never did I think he would be ready right then. I also couldn’t believe that he came so close to his due date. I know so many women who go days past their due date with their first child and my little guy came 1 day early. It makes me smile because all weekend before he came I kept saying to Tom how cool an 8/1/11 birthday would be, I guess Nathaniel thought it would be a good birthday as well! Once I got him back in my arms I couldn’t stop smiling and was amazed at how quickly my instincts took over. Just looking at his face made me realize that 40 weeks of my life produced the most perfect human being I had ever seen. I couldn’t believe how blessed I felt and how big my heart swelled looking at him. Everyone kept telling me how intense the love you feel for your child is but you really cannot fathom it until you hold your baby. He makes me feel complete in a way I never could have imagined. He makes me thankful for every day, every minute that I get to have with him. I think this quote best describes how I have felt the last 10 days : “No one will ever know the strength of my love for you. After all you’re the only one who knows what my heart sounds like from the inside”
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
HI Spark friends.
Well I am still pregnant and actually am in week 39 as of yesterday. We have 6 days till our due date and I still can't believe how time has flown by, does everyone say that? I know I have said it over and over again but truly it still amazes me. Hubby and I will be lying around and suddenly he'll look over and say "Doesn't it feel like we just found out about this baby?" It's true and it makes me nervous for how fast these first few weeks, months and years will fly by. At my doctor's appointment last Tuesday things were still status quo. I was still at a 3 but my cervix had thinned a good amount. The doctor did strip my membranes and although I did have an increase in contractions it did not bring on full labor. Go figure it works for 7/10 women but not me! It's kinda okay that baby is being stubborn though. My mom is planning on coming down for the arrival so that we have some help at home but she watches a special needs child 1 week every summer and of course that's where she;ll be until this coming Saturday night. The earliest she could be here in Maryland is Sunday afternoon so I am hoping baby can stay in until at least then so that I can rest easy knowing mom will be here when we bring him home.
This past weekend we just hung out and wrapped up some last minute stuff. Hubby lucked out and had Friday-Monday off so it was nice for us to actually have a weekend together. He went and saw Captain America on Friday and of course loved it, he was dying to talk to me about it but I'm sure you can all agree if you haven't seen the movie it's like listening to rambling. Haha. We finally finished hanging the curtains and valances in the nursery and touched up the paint in our living room. Sunday we hung at the pool for a few hours and it was nice. I love being able to float and would love to spend the next week just floating around. We did pretty much the same on Monday but also threw in a trip to Borders. The deals were not good so it was kind of a waste of a drive since the closest store is a good 20 minutes away. You live and you learn, but that's a word of advice for any of you looking for deals, wait a few more weeks until they increase the percent off. At most it was 40% and it wasn't on much. Also the online deals for Borders are much better. I went to the gym Monday and Tuesday because everyone keeps saying that I will be doing so much sitting over the next few weeks that I should enjoy whatever activity I can. I would have gone today but I was supposed to have a doctor's appointment that got rescheduled again and by the time I found out I was not in the mood to go and sweat it out. Haha. So no doctor update today since the doctor has 5 labors going on today! Holy cow right. I would complain but I know that it will be me any day and I'm sure I will be messing with someone else's schedule.
Hmm, let's see I think that's about it this week. I have been working on writing a letter to the baby to give them someday when they are older. I want to document this time when I had them to myself and want him to know how much I loved and cared for him during these 9 months. I think it will be special(probably more special if the baby were a girl, women love that stuff more than men) but I want hubby to write one too. We will see if we can get him on board!
Ok ladies, hopefully the next time I write to you I will have a baby update!
After 9 months seeing this made me smile
Sunday, July 17, 2011
How Far Along: 37 weeks
Gender: this cracks me up every week- he isn't changing sexes I hope
Size of baby: watermelon- 22 inches 6.5 lbs
Total Weight Gained: right at 30 but again I am trying not to focus on the number, i have a healthy baby in there
Maternity Clothes: still living in sundresses, i will say i am proud of the fact that i didnt outgrow any of the maternity clothes i did buy. i know some women do.
Movement: moving a lot but also having longer rest periods. the doctor says that he is already mimicking life outside the womb, so hell have active periods and nap times too.
Sleep: crazily enough I have been getting really good sleep lately. i think my mind can rest a little easier now that most of the stuff on the list is done. there are still things that im sure i could do to be better ready for the baby but i am just kinda over it. i will take the full nights rest and not complain!
What I miss: This week i dont miss too much but i am looking forward to being somewhat thin again. having so many nice pairs of shorts that i cant really wear this summer was a bummer so hopefully in a few weeks i can squeeze back into them!
Cravings: Fruit- watermelon and grapes especially. Total raisin bran. cereal of any kinda really. eggs, broccoli, corn on the cob.
Aversions: still not really eating meat, i dont have much of an appetite to begin with so i try and eat what really is good and will be most nutritious.
Symptoms: contractions- a lot of them, a few other things that could be labor related but since we haven't gone into full blown labor yet we will just chalk it up to normal pregnancy stuff!
Best Moment this Week: Hubby and I had a date night last night just in case it's out last weekend as a twosome. It was nice to sit back and relax and talk about this incredible journey so far. Everytime he looks at my belly he makes a comment about when we told everyone we were pregnant back in December. It's amazing to think about how fast life has changed and how much more it will changed. I think as much as he is scared that he doesn't know much about babies he is starting to get really excited. It's fun.
This week has been interesting. Friday I was having a ton of contractions and was worried I was going into labor. I tried to relax as much as possible but got the last minute stuff here at the house done, ie laundry put away etc. Tom also packed his hospital bag and installed the car seat just in case. Luckily when he left for work I was able to just lie around on the couch with the dogs and the contractions eased up. I have had more and more contractions everyday but nothing on a set schedule yet so I don't think we are quite ready for the hospital. I want to try and hang out at home until the last possible minute because lying around an uncomfortable hospital is far less appealing than lying in my own house with the dogs. I don't know if the baby has dropped yet or not because my belly looks the same to me and hubby is clueless. I have my appointment tomorrow afternoon and they are stripping my membranes so I'm keeping my fingers crossed that sends us into labor. When my sister had it done she went into labor the next evening so you never know. Honestly if the baby wants to stay in until his due date at this point it's fine with me. I've made it this far 2 weeks won't kill me and really I am not in pain at all, have no swelling and have had a pretty easy pregnancy so there's no reason to force him out any faster than he wants to. I guess the doctor figures since we are already so far dilated that maybe little one is ready to join us.
Date night was fun, we went to a hibachi restaurant so that hubs could get some sushi. I barely touched my food. I think I have finally reached the point in pregnancy where no food is appealing and the food that is appealing fills me up so much faster. I am making sure to eat enough I just have to spread it out over a long period now. Works for me I guess. I think that's it for this week, I will keep you all updated once I get home from the doctor tomorrow or if baby arrives!
and a pic from date night
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