Tuesday, December 10, 2013
Okay, on Sunday I set a new goal of being in bed no later than midnight. I did go to bed before midnight Sunday, and I slept pretty well. Last night I went to bed before midnight again, but I could not sleep! Several times recently I have read that if you are unable to sleep, you should get out of bed, so I did. I felt like maybe I could sleep around 3, so I went back to bed. But although I was very tired, I still could not sleep! So I got back up and was up until after 5. Finally I was able to get to sleep.
I was tired when I went to bed, so why couldn't I sleep? Main reason: another stress-filled afternoon and evening spent at the ER. When Charles is sick, my body does not cooperate very well with me. I did some bad eating and even had a fully-loaded Cherry Coke. Not a good idea!
The reason for setting a bedtime was to try and improve my sleep schedule. But maybe that is doing it backwards. Theoretically, I have more control over when I crawl out of bed than I do over when I can actually fall asleep. So I am trashing the bedtime goal and setting a wake-up goal instead. Maybe if I can get the wake-up time in place, the bedtime will follow.
So, new goal: Drag my buns out of bed no later than 9:00 each morning! I may set it earlier in the future, but for now that seems ambitious enough.
This will be much more difficult than the not-eating-at-the-computer thing. Thanks for cheering me on through that one!
Friday, November 29, 2013
Some people might think I am "wasting" too much time participating in "silly" threads and looking at blogs that include mostly comics and cute animal pictures. I appreciate the inspirational blogs I read, too; but the funny ones are what help me most in dealing with my life right now. There are lots of studies that show that laughter is good medicine . . . for physical problems and for the anxiety that many of us face.
When I go to sleep at night, one of the last things I usually think about is whether or not my husband will still be alive in the morning. On my good nights, I am able to leave the question in God's hands and go to sleep. On my not-so-good nights, I find it difficult or impossible to go to sleep. And sometimes I am awake because Charles is moaning from the pain in his feet and legs . . . or because he is coughing . . . or because he is having dreams about Vietnam and thrashing around in his sleep . . . or because he is in the office or the living room because HE cannot sleep.
When I wake up in the morning, I check to see that Charles is still breathing. I look at his legs to see if they are swollen. If he looks feverish, I check his temp to make sure his fever has not sky-rocketed again. I remember the day I found him on the floor in the office in a diabetic coma. When he does his morning check of all his vitals, I quiz him about whether he has gained fluid weight over-night. If he has gained a lot, then we have another run to the ER. Every time I wonder if it is the last time.
I have some medical issues of my own, but they are nothing compared with what Charles goes through every day. Still, they do add to my exhaustion.
So . . . I want to thank all my Spark friends who participate in my favorite "silly" threads. I want to thank my Spark friends who post comics, jokes, and pictures that keep me laughing. Other than prayer, it is the single most valuable support I get here. Yes, it is even more valuable than the support for forming better eating habits and being more consistent about exercise. It gives me relief from the stress of life and keeps me smiling.
So, my dear, "silly" Spark Friends . . . Thank You!!!!!
Sunday, November 10, 2013
Okay, I've been threatening for two days to write my first blog. Why? Because I need help! I started my journey toward better health back in early March when I enrolled in a weight-loss program at the Veteran's Administration with my husband. By the time I joined Spark in April, I had already lost 10 or 12 pounds. After joining Spark, I lost another 15 or so. Then I got sick, stopped exercising, and plateaued. When I don't exercise, I also don't eat right. I would get better, start exercising again, and eat better, but I was still on a plateau. This happened a couple times, and then I got sick again. This time, I started gaining a little of the weight back. Oh, no . . . I don't want to do that! I worked too hard to lose it! Now I'm feeling better again, but my eating was getting out of control in spite of the fact that I was exercising. The worst day was this past Thursday, when I ate a small milkshake, a small order of fries, 6 servings of candy (!), an entire bag of microwave Kettle Corn, and 4 frozen fruit bars. All that in addition to the healthy food my body needed!
When I started this journey, I made a rule against eating at the computer, but that rule had gone by the wayside. Since I started eating at the computer again, I consistently ate extra servings of carbs and treats. Soooooo . . . my first step was to reinstate the rule against eating at the computer. Friday and Saturday I have done a much better job of keeping my eating under control.
Kiwi, I thank you for posting your "snack-free" days on your status. I am going to start posting my "no-eating-at the computer" days on mine. Maybe that will inspire me to keep it up!
There are some other things I need to improve, too, like my schedule and such. But for now I am just going to concentrate on the discipline of not eating at the computer. And, of course, I will continue to exercise as much as I can within my health limitations.
Thank you all in advance for the support I know you will give me!
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