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Feeling Like A Fraud

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

The past couple of days my eating hasn't been great. I start out fine at breakfast, but something trips me up mid-day, and that's that. Not going crazy, just off track. This is a hard week with the kids home, and being out of my regular routine. Exercise is suffereing too.

Meanwhile, in the past week, as the weather has gotten warmer (a little...) and I've traded in heavy sweaters for lighter Spring clothes, people are noticing that I've lost weight. I'm hearing a lot of "wow, you look amazing!", and "oh my gosh, you've really lost a lot of weight!" While I appreciate the compliments, I can't help feeling like a big fat fraud. My first inclination is to say "well, if you saw how I've been eating today, you wouldn't think so", or something like that.

I really LIKE being able to fit into smaller sizes. I love being able to wear fashionable clothing, after all my years in tent dresses and baggy tops. My 18 year old niece has been a big help in finding new styles to try out. So it's nice when people acknowledge that. But, at the same time, I can't help this nagging feeling of guilt. What if they knew what I was eating today? What if they knew I didn't exercise yesterday?

I know this is the old tapes playing. I just wish I could figure out how the heck to turn them off!

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ITSMYLIFE2 4/28/2011 10:29PM

    Hey we all have days where we have some treats! If we don't have treats within reason from time to time I think we would implode. I miss chatting with you! Take care and keep in touch


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CBEVNOW 4/20/2011 11:54PM

    Remember we all slack off some time. I do find ,if i have to post it helps me or write in my journal. Dont be ashamed, its happens to all of us. You are NOT a fraud. Get back on the wagon, remember its for your Kidneys.
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PMCFARM 4/20/2011 9:32PM

  Please don't let just a few days of slacking make you label yourself "a fraud". You've worked very hard and obviously successfully to lose weight and have earned the compliments you've received. Thinking negative is part of the old you... what I would label "stinkin thinkin"... Now is the time is the time to remember: you had/have a plan-you're motivated-you have a support team & now is the time to accept compliments with a simple "thank you" (and maybe a pep talk for SP... emoticon)MarilynC.

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Turbo Kick

Friday, April 15, 2011

I thought I was a total klutz in Zumba? That's NOTHING!

OMG this class was hilarious! In Zumba, I just have to watch why my feet are supposed to do. In Turbo Kick, I have to watch for feet and hands! And of course, I was standing behind someone who knows exactly what to do!

Apparently, the class is totally choreographed. All classes follow the same routine, so if I go to a Turbo Kick class on a different day, or with a different instructor, it will be the same. They change the routines about every 3 months. Which means that just about the time I figure out what I'm supposed to be doing, they'll change it!

But I will go back. It was fun! And, while there are quite a few things I can't do (like all the jumping), there are a lot of things I CAN do. If I can just figure out when I'm supposed to do them!



Thursday, April 14, 2011

I went to a new Zumba class today. It wasn't "Zumba Gold"--for "the active older adult, or the true beginner", just regular Zumba. It was a different instructor. And I didn't like it.

For starters, it was dark in the room and very hard to see what she was doing. To make it worse, she really didn't DO any particular thing. She just danced around. It was impossible to follow her. Also, the music was horrible! Just very loud and pulsing, none of the fun Latin rhythms I usually hear in class.

It's a shame, because the time works really well for me. It's a good workout. But I know if I don't enjoy it, I won't do it. So I guess I'll have to keep looking for something interesting to do on Thursdays at the gym.

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MISSLACYLYNN 4/14/2011 10:12PM

    I am a huge zumba fan I looovvveee it. Me advice buy zumba for the wii its great and u never have to leave ur home or pajamas lol goodluck

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VINRANCID 4/14/2011 8:40PM

    BUMMER! I hate it when there is a crappy instructor. :( I used to do Zumba a lot with one instructor who was methodical and specific with her moves and made it easy. She was out one day and there was a sub instructor and I just left the class. She was EVERYWHERE and nothing made any sense. LOL I catch on really quick to things but when you aren't keeping any type of rhythm its hard.

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One Year Too Old!

Monday, April 11, 2011

Well, I am NOT the Biggest Winner (or the Biggest Loser either!) But if I was still 49, I'd have won by a mile!

They divided us all into groups, men and women, 35 and under, 36-49, and 50 plus. The girl who won in the 36-49 only lost 17 pounds, and only had like 18 or 19 points. I lost 30 pounds and had 21.25 points. But the girl who won for over 50, who only lost 24 pounds, had 22.75 points, so I came up short.

Oh well. As I said before, even though I didn't win the money, I am still a big winner! I lost the weight, I got myself back on track, and I discovered a whole new world of classes that I enjoy. I'm doing 6 classes this week!

There were 2 people there who were actually contestants on The Biggest Loser on TV. I don't watch the show, never have, but I guess I'll have to check it out tomorrow night.

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CBEVNOW 4/12/2011 3:01AM

    emoticonon your weight loss. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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The Biggest Winner

Saturday, April 02, 2011

Today was the final weigh in. I officially lost 13.24% of my body weight! And the head trainer said I had lost the most weight so far today. So there's a chance I could actually win this thing! I could use the $500 prize for more personal training sessions.

In celebration, I did exactly what I'd planned to do today. Got paint for my bathroom, ordered the tile and the light fixture, picked out towels, straightened up, vacuumed, ran to the grocery store and did my time on the elliptical. And ate exactly what I planned to, minus one snack that I never got around to, since all my meals were late and I honestly didn't need it.

At dinner (meatloaf, mashed potatoes and peas!), I thought about having a little extra meatloaf, but decided to listen to my body. I realized I was perfectly satisfied with what I'd eaten, so I didn't take any more.

As I told the head trainer, even if I don't win this thing, I'm still a winner! emoticon emoticon

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LAFFLOTS57 4/7/2011 1:15AM

    Thanks for the emoticon encouragement on my blog & congrats to all your successes!!!!!! emoticon emoticon

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CJD2000 4/3/2011 2:52PM

    Wow! emoticonWhat an accomplishment. Hope you win the money!!

Loving our Kidneys

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CBEVNOW 4/3/2011 3:47AM

    Way to go, good job. You sound like me paint for a room etc. I hope you win the money. If not you did win by losing the weight. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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DUTCH1811 4/2/2011 10:15PM

    You are the Biggest Loser..... emoticonon the weight loss. Good job on rewarding yourself by doing what you planned on doing. I know for some of my personal rewards I give myself more time at the gym.

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TYME2BME 4/2/2011 9:38PM

    You are a winner and you have done a fantastic job. You had a good day with all the things you planned. Good luck on winning the $500.00 but even if you don't win it you will have a nice new bathroom. emoticon on losing 13.24% of your body weight. That is emoticon

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