Sunday, February 26, 2012
Laying in bed last night, thinking about a comment had from one of my Spark friends. Who said they want to be like me when he grows up. Sorry David but you did get me thinking.
I was thinking about all the changes I have made in the last 6 months. I have been a member of Sparks for 17 months, but I was a bit slow to take off. LOL.
But the changes in my life have been fantastic, mentally as well as physically.
I think I have grown up at long last. I was not always like this and those of you that have followed my blogs from the start would know this, I had my fair share of ups and downs and melt downs. I used to emotionally eat if anything upset me. The last time I did was about 6 months ago and made myself feel very sick. Not nice.
Like most people I blamed everyone else. The last time I emotionally ate I realised that no-one forced to eat that 1/2 block of chocolate, it was all me and only my fault. This I feel was my turning point in my life. I realise now that I played the victim. Why me, why did this happen to me etc, etc. It did not prove anything, only made me obese and sick. I doubted myself. Was not in a good place.
With everything I have been through lately it hasn't bothered me, I just keep changing my foods I eat and keep trying to learn.
This has occurred because of everyone that have replied to my blogs with your comments. There has been so much support, encouragement, help, love, care and friendship. This has been so important to me. It has changed the way I feel about me. I am important. I am so positive now. I know I am a nice person.
Yes I may have my downs but it does not take over my life anymore and I have that many more ups than ever before.
This has been a long journey to change but I will continue it and fight to continue with my healthy life. I have a long way to go but I will get there.
I am even a co-leader of one of the teams I am on now which I love doing. Never thought I would do that.
So now I am a very positive person
I love me and care for me.
I am worth it.
I know I am loved.
I am doing this for me.
I am not a victim.
I know I have so much to give.
A nice person
Most importantly I am in a very good place.
Thank you for anyone who have ever responded to my blogs, you have helped to make me what I am today.