Tuesday, February 07, 2012
Thank you everyone who left comments on my last blog. I will see my grandchildren again very soon. They are so precious to me.
Had an appointment with the dietitian today, need to change my diet again. LOL As the state of my kidneys have declined, I now need to start watching my phosphorus and phosphate. My last blood test were not pretty.
I see the Nephrolgist on Friday, I have a feeling it is not going to good as even the dietitian feels that I will have to have the fistula inserted so I can be ready for dialysis when the time comes.
The sad part is that I feel really well, don't look sick and my friend told me that this is the healthiest she has seen me for a long time.
The only real difference I can tell is that I get very tired and worn out very easy. I am also not hungry which is probably not a good sign. I have just inserted my foods into the nutrition tracker and the grand total is 750 calories I need to go eat some more but I am not hungry. (I will eat though). This has happened quite a few times lately. At night I usually have a bit of fruit but now I have to cut that down. That is the thing I am going to miss is the summer fruit.
But as I have said I feel fine and well and healthy, it is just my kidneys that is going to let me down badly.
The dietitian said I should be proud of myself because I have put up a good fight for 26 years. I was told 12 to 15 years ago that I would be on dialysis in 5 years, I have had many more years than that.
I am really in a good place as even 3 months ago I did not want to go on dialysis, now I have accepted that it is going to happen. As someone said in a blog I read (can't remember who) I am starting another chapter in my life.
Life is still good and I am happy in my decision, what will happen will. That's ok.
They are not getting rid of me that easy. I will still fight. I have not given up. By changing my diet, I may still buy some more time. hopefully.