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Saturday 9th April

Saturday, April 09, 2011

Hi everyone,
Thank you again for the support that I received from my meltdown. I wrote my blog so that I could start to own what I was feeling. I realise now why they recommend to write and keep in contact with members on this site. For the support and encouragement. Members are so positive.

What I have noticed before when I was more positive I was blogging and being more active with lots of teams. However in the last month the blogging has started to fall off. Also the interaction has fallen away slightly. To my detriment. By keeping involved does keep you motivated.

When I wrote the blog I actually did not know what was wrong. I realised what the problem yesterday. Yesterday was my niece's graduation from university. So proud of her.

But the history behind is I actually talked her into joining me to start uni together. (Best thing I ever did because we now have a fantastic relationship, not as Aunt and niece but as best friends). I had to pull out because of sickness and the operations that I have written about in the past.

I did actually withdraw at the start of this year. I have accepted the fact that now it would be too hard to start studying again. But I really think it was that last little bit of letting go.

Went over to see her graduate. So happy and proud and I am glad that I went.

One of my lecturers asked how I was and when I said "really good now", she asked me to come back and continue. My answer was "no, I am going to have a life". This is when I realised that I had completely let go of this part of my life, with no regrets. I felt the weight lifting from my shoulders.

Had a beautiful day, went to the graduation, then went out for dinner to celebrate. I had nice clothes on, makeup (I don't wear makeup often) had my hair straighten by a friend. After she finished my hair I went into her bedroom to look at myself in full length mirror and DRUMROLL (shock horror) I thought I looked nice and actually did admit it. This is a big moment because I have never thought that before.

I am glad I attempted to do a degree, it has helped me in lots of different ways. I am a lot stronger person than before.

Now I am back to being positive and concentrating on myself. I ended up putting on weight (2 1/2kgs) in the last 2 weeks because of the emotional eating and not weighing. But at least I have stopped eating.

Another thing what was worrying me was my hot air balloon ride. I feel that I was being too rigid in saying I have to lose another 15kgs. I have lost 14kgs now. But now think I deserve it if I lose between a total of 25 to 30kgs. I am still going to aim for the 15kgs but was thinking what if I only lose another 14kgs, I will miss out. I still need to earn it, but need to have a little bit of a leeway and flexibility because I am not perfect.

Now I start on my next chapter in my life.

Short term goals.
1. Post regular blogs.
2 take a more active role in the teams that I am on.
3 lose weight 500grams per week or 1lb per week.
4 eat healthy, not to emotionally eat
5. do exercise every day.

Still aiming to lose 15kgs (30 od lbs) by November

Get back to living an enjoyable time. Back to being positive.

I want my balloon ride in November, this is with my niece.

Then I need to make more goals for next year, I will need to aim for a total of 50 to 60 kg loss of weight.

I am not perfect
I can't expect my weight loss to be perfect
I am only human.
I need to be more flexible.
I need to enjoy my decisions to lose weight.
I need to be honest with myself.
Don't let my emotions consume me or control me.

Grandchildren will be here tonight so I am going to have an enjoyable weekend.

take care

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    Wow, Wendy! So much wisdom in your words. i haven't blogged in quite awhile, mostly because there is so much going on right now, but i'm taking a lesson from you. Sometime within the next few days i'll get to it.
Getting back to you - i'm so glad that you're happy with the direction you have taken. Instead of regretting not finishing school, you took what many would have taken as a negative thing, and made it into something positive.
Also, it's sometimes almost impossible for some of us to recognize and appreciate our own beauty because of all the filters we put on ourselves. It's wonderful that you were able to appreciate your own beautiful image in the mirror - congratulations! emoticon emoticon

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JANEZAP 4/9/2011 5:43PM

    wow wendy what a great attitude you have! Good on you for starting a degree and realising its not for you, i have started a degree and im in my second year and am starting to think its not really my cup of tea, but having said that i dont really know what it is i want to do so im just going to stick with it :)

I love that you have set goals, i am a goal setter too and i love your reward to yourself, hot ballooning would be so fun! i think that when you get to november you will know in your heart whether you have earned it or not so dont be too hard on yourself if the scales dont say what you had aimed for.

Definately keep up the blogging and ticking off that to-do list :) YOU CAN DO IT!!!!

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LIFE-FAITH 4/9/2011 8:29AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

Wendy, Great outlook and attitude! Keep it up!
You are doing great! Even in the setbacks - you are learning what works for you.

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CBEVNOW 4/9/2011 3:18AM

    Yea, Wendy is back. Remember we all have our days, i do also, sometimes i dont even want to get on the computer, for any one. Yes healthy is the main way to go. Do you like to walk, i really do find this is for me. My daughter was a runner and when i was younger i use to run with her and i hated it. I finaly told you be the runner in the family, i dont like i will be the walker, and they have found you get the same results with walking.Do you keep a journal? this helps a lot.
The grand children will keep you moving, have fun with them. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon Caroline

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CTEMPLE 4/9/2011 2:57AM

    Dear Wendy what a great blog! And you know what no one can tell you anything because you worked it all out by yourself.
I also had to make a choice in life about finishing my second degree ( I had done engineering that is not my tendency to be able to migrate and I was doing literature that is my thing) or having a life and I thought you can't have a life and personal growth when you're doing academic studies and working at the same time. So I chose life. I very much value this decsion becasue I see so many people that do a degree in their late forties and fifties because they always felt inferior for not having one, and they're tremendously behind in their emotianl issues and their time would be better spent in personal growth. What's the point in having a degree, if you're a mess and you can't actually work. So glad to hear that you turned that page.

As for your goals, 30 kg feels so huge, why not break it up into smaller amounts, sorry just an idea.

I'm so happy that you're feeling better. It is much harder to stray if you keep your close contact with SP.

Have a wonder time with the kiddiwinks!


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MOTLEM 4/9/2011 2:31AM

    Yes, SP members are great with support and keeping involved surely helps maintain the motivation. However, I find that belonging to too many teams and having too many sparkfriends, makes it impossible to give due attention to all. Maybe, that's just a 'me' thing, but I find I haven't got the time to be a good sparkfriend as well as join in the team activities if there are too many. I can handle around 30 sparkfriends; any more, and I'm just not a good enough friend. I hope that makes sense to you.

It sounds like blogging is doing you the world of good, so keep it up. I enjoy commenting on blogs, but usually just blog my jokes. But hey, it would be a dull old world if everyone was the same.

That is a top thing you are sharing with your niece. Wonderful that you have such a friendship. Sorry you had to pull out of uni. You must have written about sickness and operations before we became SF's.

The graduation, the whole day, and your evening out sound terrific. I am so pleased for you. Certainly good to hear you are back being positive again. A hot air balloon ride, wow! I'd love to do that one day too Wendy.

Your short term goals are very do-able, so no excuses there, lol. You have fine insight!

Enjoy your grandies and your weekend.


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TAMI1691 4/9/2011 2:22AM

    don't let perfectionism rule your life.
enjoy your balloon ride.
you have worked hard and achieved good results so reward yourself

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Adelaide news from Neurosurgeon

Friday, February 18, 2011

As many of you know that I had major head surgery in November 2009 due to problems with fluid build-up and the hind brain was being squashed. This caused me many problems such losing balance and falling over, choking when eating, problems drinking, speech was affected, headaches, breathing difficulties to name a few.

The neurosurgeon had to put a hole in the back of my head just above the spine. It was about a 6 hour operation. I was told that I may not survive and that it may not work.

I do remember that when I saw him in recovery he was happy and explained that he actually saw my brain expand. He said then that he thinks the operation worked.

Which brings us up to today.
Today when I saw him, he asked how I was doing, told him that everything is ok. Which has improved by about 95/98%.

He then said he needed to tell you this. He started by saying "that he played God when I operated on you". He said that they rarely do these operations as in most cases they do not work. He also said "that in most cases they actually let "nature takes it coarse" his words. In other words you die.

WOW what a thing to have said to you. I thanked him very much for taking a risk to operate on me.

He commented on my weight loss. I do not need to see him anymore unless there is any problems, I have to phone and he will see me. He feels as though there will be none because it be over 12 months.

I thanked him again and shook his hand.

What a privileged to be told this.

It makes it more important and more determined to lose the weight I have had for so long. I feel as though I need to repay him for saving my life. I also need to live my life that he gave back to me by losing more weight, become healthier, fitter and stronger.


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CHINAGAL 2/21/2011 8:25PM

    I'm doing the happy dance for you over here in Alabama! I can only imagine what an awesome experience it was to be told what a miraculous thing is responsible for your life. Kinda gives me chill bumps. God is so good!


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DAVIDPRESCOTT 2/21/2011 12:10AM

    WOW - thats so powerful. You have been given another chance at life - and it seems like this time around you are grabbing it with both hands:)

Thanks goodness he took the chance!


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CBEVNOW 2/19/2011 4:45PM

    God, is soooooooo good. What a great Dr. you have, and God guided his hands. You sound better today. We all have our days and i have had 3. A old neck injury, from a car accident years ago, Herniated disk in my neck, causing me pain in my neck and head.
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CTEMPLE 2/18/2011 6:13PM

    Yes Wendy it makes it all worth it the fact that he took a chance, and put the effort into saving you!
Life is good!

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RUFFESS47 2/18/2011 6:11PM

That is a beautiful story and it continues to prove to us that God will always work through people and in mysterious ways.

You are also continuing the lease of life your surgeon and God gave you by looking after you health.

We salute his and your great work


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TAMI1691 2/18/2011 5:51PM

    What a wonderful gift you have been given.
Use this as your motivation, and keep up the great work that you have already done,

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JILL313 2/18/2011 12:08PM

    What a beautiful story that tells of your courage and faith in this wonderful Dr. I am so happy that you've recovered from that surgery and are doing so much better. God was definitely watching over you and the Dr. and gave you a new chance of life. emoticon emoticon

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WENWIN 2/18/2011 8:14AM

    Wow. What a feeling you must have had when he told you that. I certainly think you have so much to be thankful for and you have so much to get healthier for.

Congrats on such wonderful news.

Have a splendid weekend.

Wendy emoticon

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OPALMOON 2/18/2011 7:48AM

    Hi Wendy,

I am so happy for you that you had such good news that you should be trouble-free now. Thank goodness your neurosurgeon decided to do that operation and literally saved your life! I am sure with your determination that you will continue to see the scales heading in the right direction!

Have a wonderful weekend.



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kidney news

Friday, January 14, 2011

saw the Nephrologist today good news and bad news. Had a good talk.

Firstly I have to go to Adelaide to have a access point put into my arm, in approximately 3 months time. In Australia they like them put in at least 12 months before it is needed.

But first I have to see another specialist about this and at this time I have to have an iron infusion and start on EPO when I am in Adelaide, this will be in about 6 weeks time.

The good news he is HAPPY about the amount of weight I have lost.

He has changed my blood pressure tablets. By changing these tablets and the other things mentioned he still thinks he can get up to 18 months before dialysis, which is fantastic.

I told him about diet and exercises and did ask if if I am doing the right thing by doing this and the answer was yes and why. I stated last doctor told me off when I told him I was doing exercises. He just sat there and shook his head and said "old man" . Which this other doctor was.

He also stated that if I can lose another 40kg in the next 3-4 years I will go on the transplant list. This again is fantastic news.

So I hoping that I can lose that much in that time.


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WILSLM70 1/18/2011 5:53PM

    So Glad your visit went well. Your doing so well with your weight loss, keep up all your fantastic efforts.

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I.M.MAGIC 1/16/2011 12:21PM

    It can be a bit scary, huh. But...

I'm SO pleased for you, you're making such good progress! and there's still time to do more...

Keep up the good work!

Kathy emoticon

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I.M.MAGIC 1/16/2011 11:57AM

    It can be pretty scary... I'm team leader for ESRD, and I hear a lot of this kind of thing. I have to tell you, I am so PROUD of you, and so happy for you that you're making such good progress!

I don't know what kind of diet information is available to you in Australia, but we talk about it all the time on our team... and the hardest part is always portion control--sounds like you've got that part down! LOL

Keep it up, lady, you're doing GREAT!

Kathy emoticon

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OPALMOON 1/15/2011 4:33AM

    This sounds like good progress, Wendy! Hope all goes well with the new BP tablets. I am glad you got some good news!

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DAVIDPRESCOTT 1/15/2011 1:06AM

    We are here with you every step of the way lovely. Wow - you have a lot going on and much to think about. Keep it up - before you know you will be a supermodel with a new kidney:) Thinking of you.

And nice one on the swimming for an hour - thats AWESOME!

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CHINAGAL 1/14/2011 3:34PM

    OK, I'm seeing more good news than bad here - right? I know that the future is still scary, but it sounds like a better scenario than your last update. Keep on doing what you're doing, friend!

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DOTTIEJANE1 1/14/2011 8:46AM

    Glad for the good new and 40kg hay it's one step forward and two steps to the side add a back kick and by by kg's.Keep talking to us as you have a whole team to support you ,we are all around you.

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JACKSMIMI2 1/14/2011 8:33AM

    I'm glad your visit went well...and that your doc is pleased with your progress...As for the weight loss over the 3-4 year period, maybe just look at it one day at a time... not 40kg... it won't be so overwhelming that way...and remember - there's an entire 'team' behind you :)

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NOMIS1 1/14/2011 8:31AM

    Good luck to you. My heart goes out. A few months ago my niece had a kidne/pancreas transplant. Very scary but she is doing very well.

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a copy of a email I received and thought appropriate

Friday, December 17, 2010

I thought this was awesome.. You might have seen it before.

Read this

John is the kind of guy you love to hate. He is always in a good mood and always has something positive to say. When someone would ask him how he was doing, he would reply, 'If I were any better, I would be twins!'

He was a natural motivator.

If an employee was having a bad day, John was there telling the employee how to look on the positive side of the situation.

Seeing this style really made me curious, so one day I went up and asked him, 'I don't get it!'

'You can't be a positive person all of the time. How do you do it?'
He replied, 'Each morning I wake up and say to myself, you have two choices today. You can choose to be in a good mood or...you can choose to be in a bad mood

I choose to be in a good mood.'

Each time something bad happens, I can choose to be a victim or...I can choose to learn from it. I choose to learn from it..

Every time someone comes to me complaining, I can choose to accept their complaining or...I can point out the positive side of life. I choose the positive side of life.

'Yeah, right, it's not that easy,' I protested.

'Yes, it is,' he said. 'Life is all about choices. When you cut away all the junk, every situation is a choic e. You choose how you react to situations. You choose how people affect your mood....

You choose to be in a good mood or bad mood. The bottom line: It's your choice how you live your life.'

I reflected on what he said. Soon hereafter, I left the Tower Industry to start my own business. We lost touch, but I often thought about him when I made a choice about life instead of reacting to it.

Several years later, I heard that he was involved i n a serious accident, falling some 60 feet from a communications tower.

After 18 hours of surgery and weeks of intensive care, he was released from the hospital with rods placed in his back.

I saw him about six months after the accident.

When I asked him how he was, he replied, 'If I were any better, I'd be twins....Wanna see my scars?'

I declined to see his wounds, but I did ask him what had gone through his mind as the accident took place.

'The first thing that went through my mind was the well-being of my soon-to-be born daughter,' he replied. 'Then, as I lay on the ground, I remembered that I had two choices: I could choose to live or......I could choose to die. I chose to live.'

'Weren't you scared? Did you lose consciousness?' I asked.

He continued, '...the paramedics were great.

They kept telling me I was going to be fine. But when they wheeled me into the ER and I saw the expressions on the faces of the doctors and nurses, I got really scared. In their eyes, I read 'he's a dead man'. I knew I needed to take action.'

'What did you do?' I asked.

'Well, there was a big burly nurse shouting questions at me,' said John. 'She asked if I was allergic to anything 'Yes, I replied.' The doctors and nurses stopped working as they waited for my reply. I took a deep breath and yelled, 'Gravity''

Over their laughter, I told them, 'I am choosing to live. Operate on me as if I am alive, not dead.'

He lived, thanks to the skill of his doctors, but also because of his amazing attitude....I learned from him that every day we have the choice to live fully..

Attitude, after all, is everything.

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.' Matthew 6:34

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WILSLM70 12/19/2010 7:47PM

    So true life is all about choices. Thanks for sharing

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CHINAGAL 12/17/2010 8:34AM

    Thanks for the inspirational story!

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IMEMINE1 12/17/2010 5:07AM

    This is beautiful.
What a way to live.I am going to try it.

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