Monday, March 23, 2009
I have been a basket case all day. I just quit my job today and decided to move to NY where my family is from. This will be ending my 21 and a half year marriage. I have been planning this for months now but making the final decision and following thru has been the hardest thing i've ever had to do. It hurts so much.
sorry I have been MIA. Another crazy week. I love 1st shift, love it! so you will be shocked to know that I just quit my job today.
I have been planning to move to NY for many months now and I have just been putting it off, hoping my marriage problems would work out but they are only getting worse so I took the next step. i was going to work for a few more months but the more I thought about it, I figured why bother, I'm going to have a garage sale the weekend after next then packing for 1-2 weeks and then renting the U-haul and making it official.
needless to say, getting to this step has taken me a lot of soul searching and pain. I just can't go on like this anymore. My dad and one of my brothers owns several houses and trailers and I can basically have my pick of them and hopefully find one I like. I grew up in that area of upstate NY so I already know I like the area. And its country which I absolutely love. My dad still farms and I will be able to buy a couple horses in a year or 2. We had horses when I was a kid and I've really missed riding daily.
I've got a few job options also and I have some money saved up so i can just take my time and hopefully find something I enjoy.
so keep me in your prayers that I don't just melt into an emotional blob because that's what I am right now.
I ran yesterday with the dogs 4.5 miles. well most of it was running, I run intervals so I walk when I'm out of breath and run when I feel up to it. I haven't run in any races in a very long time but many years ago I ran in a 5k. I want to get back to that as I think the training for it will be very good for my waistline. And eventually I hope to run a half-marathon.
sorry I won't be on much but I will try to keep you posted in between packing, closing accts, etc.
I'm very close with my family so this is going to be a great move in the long run. getting thru the pain of ending my marriage is going to be the hardest thing I've ever done so bear with me. Hugs. kim