Tuesday, December 13, 2011
So, I got weighed and measured today at Curves. I haven't weight myself there since August! The news was not good. I didn't expect good actually, but I didn't expect it to be as bad as this! 167.5 is right back where I started almost 2 years ago! And I swore to myself I wasn't going to do this again!!! Not Happy. And I can't pretend I don't know why.....the Prozac could perhaps be blamed, but if I'm going to be honest with myself-that isn't it.
My problem is weekends, vacations, and any kind of special occassion I can come up with. Why did I do this? I knew it would catch up with me!! Whine, whine whine, woe is me
Well, there is only one thing to do. No point in beating myself up. The holidays are coming, and feeling sorry for myself is a recipe for absolute disaster. I could put another 30 pounds on by the New Year if I try (don't scoff, I've done it before!).
Time to regroup, reset my goals yet again, and get back up. I've ridden this monster so many times..I can do it ONE MORE TIME. And when I hit my goal this time it will be the last time I will regain everything I've lost. I have the tools, I have the skills, I have the know-how, and I have an incentive. What more do I need?
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Changes in my routine cause havoc for me when it comes to sticking to my plan.
Monday I missed my workout because I was at the Doctor's office for too long. That's ok though, it was a first visit with a new doctor, and I liked him.
Tuesday, I didn't work out (I usually go on my lunch hour) because we were having a catered lunch at work. My reasoning? Why work out if I'm going to eat Panera? Makes no sense at all, does it. Then the rest of the day was shot, because I ate Panera and didn't work out, why not blow the rest of the day? And I blew it quite well, thank you!
Today, I am ready to get back on the wagon. Tried to talk myself out of exercise, but I won the battle. Headed to Curves for my normal 10:00am workout (that's when I take my lunch hour). They are closed!! Don't know why at this point-but no workout for me again today.
The sad thing is, as I was heading back to the office, my thoughts were...Oh good, now I can eat the left over Panera stuff from yesterday, and maybe finish off that chocolate that I just didn't have room for last night!! What????????? where is my head????
This is just WRONG HEADED THINKING. I'm not going to do it! Staying on track today and I'll figure out a way to fit in some other exercise later!!!! YES, I WILL!
Friday, October 14, 2011
Guess what? Just because I don't log into Spark People on the weekend doesn't mean I can eat all I want. Those calories still count, even if I don't log them.
Guess what? Logging into Spark People and getting at least 50 Spark points each weekday is NOT how you lose weight! You have to actually eat properly and exercise. Trivia, and Polls and Recipes and Message boards will get you points and trophies, but unless you actually adopt the lifestyle-NOTHING is going to happen.
No, I didn't just realize this. Of course I know this. It just hit me this morning on the way to work that I'm not going to get too far in my journey at the rate I'm going. One step forward and two steps back is not the goal.
That said, this weekend is going to be the start (again) of a new way of doing things. Eating healthy and exercising is just as important on the weekend as any other day. Tomorrow I will log my food and eat in a reasonably healthy manner, I promise myself!
Friday, March 25, 2011
Today is my first day on Prozac. I've admitted that I need some help to deal with my almost constant anger (seething rage is a good way to describe it), frequent crying, occasional crazy thoughts. Maybe it will help with the hot flashes too?
So I took my first dose this morning. I realize it takes some time to have any effect. How long before I notice changes? Or will I even notice? Hopefully my husband and co-workers will see a difference.
I'm kinda scared about this. In my 55 years, it had never occurred to me that I might end up needing this kind of help, but even I recognize that I am getting worse. I hate the thought of any kind of meds. Meds that effect my brain really worries me as do the possible side effects.
But if I can be happy and at peace again perhaps it will be worth it? At the very least it will make life more pleasant for my husband.
Just waiting to see how this goes.
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
I weighed myself today because we are starting a contest here at work. I have gained another 2 pounds!! I am going in the wrong direction!
I don't know why I pretend to be surprised. Every weekend since Christmas has been an orgy of eating. Eating until I am sick. Why do I think this won't catch up with me? How do I think I could lose weight like this??
It stops now. I've reset my goals to avoid the depression caused by failure. I'm done with my insanity as of now. No more excuses-I can make up thousands of themj!!
This contest at work sounds like fun and Money is involved. Hopefully that will motivate me to get back in "the zone" as my co-worker calls it.
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