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Fat All The Time

Saturday, February 11, 2012

. . . . a follow-up blog to Hungry All The Time.

When I respond to feeling hungry all the time by eating all the time, I do get to be fat all the time. And that really would be fat ALL the time. Twenty-four seven. From morning to night. And while I'm sleeping too.

Been there, done that. Two hundred and thirty pounds. I did eat all the time. I was fat all the time. And even though I was eating all the time, I was still hungry.

And yeah. I'd rather tolerate being hungry. Not eating all the time. And being thinner.

Thinner all the time. Twenty-four seven. One hundred and forty pounds.

Always fitting into everything in my closet. Moving comfortably. Feeling good. Healthy. Looking as good as is possible.

Hunger is NOT AN EMERGENCY. I can tolerate it. Because the benefits of doing so outweigh (yeah, OUTWEIGH) the costs.

*Sorry about the caps. I'm having to speak to myself kinda loudly.*

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 2/12/2012 9:01AM

    Dude, for me it ain't even hunger. It's plain greed.

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NANCY- 2/12/2012 7:59AM

    Don't apologize, your thoughts are your thoughts. I think you are awesome, focused and determined.

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TRYINGHARD1948 2/12/2012 4:52AM

    You are so right. Hunger is probably how most of the human race feel most of the time, even today!

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FROGGGY13 2/12/2012 2:40AM

    That's exactly what I keep telling myself. Yes, sometimes I'm hungry, for half an hour or so before lunch or dinner. And that is normal! Only very recently in evolutionary history have we ben able to afford satisfying hunger whenever it happens. Before then, most people were thin and at least occasionally hungry. It is normal, that's the kind of eating we evolved for.

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PUDLECRAZY 2/11/2012 9:24PM

    Caps good, sentiment great.


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CARRAND 2/11/2012 8:56PM

    So true.

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DDOORN 2/11/2012 8:53PM

    Hoping to make this my new mantra!

Thx so much for repeating and driving home such an important point!


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KIM--POSSIBLE 2/11/2012 8:15PM

    Everything in moderation! If we eat every time we think we are hungry, we will regain all that we have worked so hard to lose!

Way to go on your weight loss!!

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BEATLETOT 2/11/2012 8:08PM

    You are so right! I'm clicking "I Liked This."

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DONNACFIT 2/11/2012 7:49PM

    Great blog..I need to learn to set limits and boundaries and learn hunger is not an emergency!! Thanks..I needed that since my eating has been out of control lately..all these road trips to please hubby... emoticon

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_LINDA 2/11/2012 4:18PM

    Having some real tests going on are we? You made it down that far. You know what to do! You CAN DO IT!! I would be interested in knowing if the lemon or peppermint oil would work..
All the best with Beck!! Have a wonderful wellness, good eating and exercising weekend!!

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ROSEWAND 2/11/2012 3:51PM

    If you are only hungry an hour or less before your
meals, that is normal hunger. It means your ghrelin
and leptin hormones are balanced and working properly.
You have reset them by losing weight. They tend to
be out whack when we are overweight.

If you are truly hungry all the time, your hormones may
still be out of balance. The best way to keep those
appetite hormones working well is to eat three times a
day, avoid highly processed carbs and get enough protein.

A small tip for helping with hunger: use peppermint oil
or lemon oil. Just smell it. It signals satiety to your brain
in way that can delay your need to eat.

Comment edited on: 2/11/2012 3:52:54 PM

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TBANMAN 2/11/2012 2:19PM

    Agreed. I find that even after a couple of undisciplined days I find myself sliding back into old habits. Read - eating all the time, ridiculous portion sizes, etc.

I'd rather be fit and hungry than fat and hungry.

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TRAVELGRRL 2/11/2012 1:42PM

    In order to be thin we have to be mature enough to know we can't have everything we want WHEN we want it.

Hunger ISN'T an emergency, especially when it is for french fries or cake!!

You have made the mature choice, the healthy choice.

You are doing exactly what the Beck Diet Solution suggests, keeping your reasons for being thin close to your heart.

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FROSTIERACES 2/11/2012 12:11PM

    I think I'm hungry all the time too Ellen! I WISH - like if I could add SUPER CAPS to I WISH!!::: I WISH I WAS 140 pounds! like you! I'll get there... :) Thank your for maintaining and showing me that not everyone yoyo's like ME! Love your blogs! GLAD I'm caught up!(SUPER CAPS) on THAT TOO! :)

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CRYSTALJEM 2/11/2012 11:52AM

    Totally correct, love it! I'm having to turn up the volume for myself a bit too lately. Hunger may not be an emergency, but it can become a downer when it's talking to you constantly. Hope it gives you a break soon. Have a great day! CJ

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DBCLARINET 2/11/2012 10:52AM

    I agree, hunger is not an emergency! I like the feeling of hunger -- it's my body's way of telling me yes, it's time for fuel. Then I enjoy it so much more!

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AMBUDMAN 2/11/2012 10:42AM

    Yep!!! I agree.

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Hungry All the Time . . .

Friday, February 10, 2012

. . . and I'm OK with that.

I was hungry all the time at 230 pounds.

And yeah, I sometimes think I'm hungry all the time at 140 pounds.

Actually, the hunger lasts about 30 minutes. Or less, if I distract myself. And I'm learning to think about it as "keen anticipation of my next meal".

But the point is: I'm not any hungrier thin than I was . . . um . . . not so thin. And I prefer being thin.

Also: I'm not sure there's any amount of food that would stop me feeling hungry.

Hunger is not an emergency. I can tolerate it.

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 2/12/2012 9:00AM

    Don't they say the average guy thinks about sex about every 8 seconds or something?

It's like that with me and food. *sigh*

(Turns out the sex thoughts thing is a myth: www.snopes.com/science/stats/thinks
ex.asp But I assure you I still think about food that often. LOL)

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TRYINGHARD1948 2/12/2012 4:49AM

    You are so strong

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DDOORN 2/11/2012 8:50PM

    True enough...have to remember that! Pain can be sorta like that too. For instance, oh, I got a cut, it hurts, I'm tending it. I can stay focused on the hurt or I can let it go...just like hunger! Sometimes it can drive me to distraction though!


d I get outta your blog notifications loop?!?!

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DBCLARINET 2/11/2012 10:54AM

    My problem is that sometimes I do take "Hungry All The Time" to an extreme. Yep, it lasts about 30 minutes or less if I distract myself, but sometimes I get cranky or really low on energy, and then I have to admit that no, it's time to feed myself. When I become a first-class b****, it's time to eat something.

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PENNYAN45 2/11/2012 9:46AM

    A few years ago, when I was at my highest weight, I remember having the realization one day that I was craving foods and tastes - even after I had just eaten.

It occurred to me then that I could eat and eat and still want more. This was particularly true with sweets.
That is when I understood how easy it would be for me to just lose control completely when it came to some food.

I don't want to label that craving as hunger (even though at the time I could have been convinced that it was).

I still can crave some foods - whether I'm hungry or not - and I just have to talk to myself about it.

Perhaps I will always feel that way.

I agree with you, though, that I would rather have the feelings at my lower weight.

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FROSTIERACES 2/11/2012 8:31AM

    It's such a mind game trying to dodge cravings vs hunger. If I think through my cravings..I do great! My hunger tho is...tricky because I hate feeling deprived and it can mask itself as a craving for something deliciously unhealthy. Yesterday we went to the beach...wasn't hungry at all, all day long. Didn't eat much except nuts and tomato juice I brought from home. The sunshine, ocean and watching fit surfers helps the cravings too!

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NANCY- 2/11/2012 8:01AM

    There are so many kinds of hunger. Beck is right we do not have to act on it. Perhaps increasing your fiber might help sustain you to your next meal.

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SALSIFY 2/11/2012 5:05AM

    It's true - I was hungry all the time & acted on it which is why I got to 230 pounds as well. So now I try to choose not to act on it all the time.

Thanks for the reminder!

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SCOOTERGIRLOZ 2/11/2012 12:03AM

    Hmmm, deep down I thought when a healthy weight is reached, the body adapts and the hunger goes away. For me, hungry all the time while thin is going to be very tough to embrace. Besides water, what else can be done to delay the hunger?

Scootergirl in Oz

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JUDI_CUTIE 2/10/2012 11:23PM

    I love this! You are so wise!!!

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KIM--POSSIBLE 2/10/2012 9:43PM

    Thank you for this blog! I am hungry all the time, though I wasn't before. But it is because of my job, school, and family demands not due to eating less, trying to lose, etc.

I have found that if I limit carbs and bump up the protein and fat, I am not as hungry. If my carbs are high, or protein is low in the morning, I am starving all evening. I love fruit, so this has been difficult for me, but it has worked to reduce hunger.

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SLENDERELLA61 2/10/2012 9:14PM

    Profound. I agree. I was at least as hungry at 212 pounds as I am at 126. I prefer to be 126. I was seriously thinking of doing Beck again, too. Thinking about buying the new book, although I understand there isn't a whole lot of difference other than the food plan that I probably don't need.

Take care. Thanks for your support. I am fine, just not going to replace my computer for a few months. I just had a a big car repair bill and a big dental bill, both unanticipated. If I'm going to meet my financial goals for the year, I just need to wait on the computer. I'm still not sorry I retired early to care for the grandkids.

Oh, and thanks for those exercises for my back. Actually, I overdid it the first time I tried them, but think I've got the right intensity now. Time will tell if they solve the problem, but definitely worth the try. Thanks.

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MEADSBAY 2/10/2012 9:03PM

    That's one of the first things I learned from the Beck books.
Hunger is just a sensation.
It goes away.
It's not an emergency.


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PHEBESS 2/10/2012 9:01PM

    I'll add it for you:

"oh well."

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_LINDA 2/10/2012 9:00PM

    Good for you not giving in to hunger!! But that is unusual to be feeling that way all the time really. Are you being faithful to getting enough water? That makes a difference. I have to get more then eight cups a day, partly because of all the cardio I do, but if I don't get it, I feel it and yes, hunger too. Maybe you too, need more than the standard eight...
And like I put in the friend feed, well rounded meals is a must..Or perhaps you would be better off with small mini meals throughout the day -that works better for some people too. Maybe for some reason, your blood sugar levels spike a lot..
Hope you have a wonderful weekend!!
Keep up the great work!!
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    Thank you! This fear of being hungry is something I'm working my way through veeeerrrryyy slowly. I can't believe how much emotion is attached to it!

Great line for me to take away: "Hunger is not an emergency".


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Very Moving!

Sunday, February 05, 2012

Saturday I was at my office at 8 a.m. to meet with a carpet installer doing some finishing touches . . . (nice of him to be willing to work on the weekend) . . . . And did not get home again until after 10 p.m. having worked all day with DH on moving and reorganizing my office.

Sourcing a new table, carrying it in . . . fantastic find at our local antiques mall (solid oak, central pedestal . . . $60!!)

Purchasing and then installing a new computer keyboard shelf (turned out to be waaaaaay more complicated than we had anticipated). DH is a hero: so fiddly, so exasperating. And he patiently persisted until he got it functioning just right.

Multiple trips upstairs with super heavy boxes: books, files, all kinds of stuff! (DD a big help here).

And then sorting it all out . . . throwing a whack of stuff out . . . getting myself functional for the work week.

All done yet? No -- still need to hang stuff on the walls etc. etc. Some plants would be nice. A new desk lamp? Finishing touches to "make it mine".

But: computer is humming, everything seems to be in hand. I will be able to put in a full week at work.

Speaking of full . . . . . hmmmm. Tracked yesterday and did very very poorly nutrition-wise.

Started the day with a hearty breakfast of DH's special scrambled eggs. His are THE. BEST. Creamy. Made slowly in a double boiler over barely simmering water. With a whack of grated cheese. And we each had two pieces of wholewheat toast, buttered. My second piece with gorgeous raspberry jam.

Lunch was pretty healthy: soup of the week (chicken chili) with Greek yogourt and berries. But a Coffee Crisp chocolate bar made an appearance.

Dinner: microwave chicken pie (horrendous calorie count) during a short moving break at the office. A glass of Chilean white!! Some veggies though; baby carrots, sugar snap peas. A fresh apple.

And: PC vanilla ice cream when I got home, plus hot chocolate.

Total calorie count in excess of 2000. (I'm usually 1200-1500 tops). But: total calories burned (conservatively estimated using the fitness tracker for "moving" and crediting only 5 hours of a 14 hour day) : also in excess of 2000. And no food hangover, none at all. So I'm pretty sure I really did burn it all off.

Feeling lean. But also achy all over: a hot hot soak in my claw foot bath really helped. Looking out the window, listening to the birds also really helped. Definitely some spring sounds out there.

OK: gotta get through the rest of the chores today. There aren't any groceries!!

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TRAVELGRRL 2/9/2012 7:29PM

    Hey, glad to hear you are usually eating 1200-1500 calories. I've always been told that's "too low". See what they know?

Your office space sounds totally wonderful! Enjoy!!

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TRYINGHARD1948 2/9/2012 7:13AM

    Moving upstairs Ellen, that will keep you on your toes. By now you will be well ensconced in your new office and only minor additions needed.

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CRYSTALJEM 2/8/2012 10:54PM

    Your office space sounds wonderful. Hope you find your time their productive and satisfying.

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BRIGHTSPARK7 2/7/2012 1:19AM

    Moving into a new office is so exciting and I'm glad you had lots of help.

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FROSTIERACES 2/6/2012 5:46PM

    Hi Ellen! I'm sorry you're feeling achy...so am I. ugh. I dread it. Why so many aches as we get older? I mean really is it that necessary???!! :) I'm here catching up on blogs...

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PENNYAN45 2/6/2012 2:57PM

    Moving upstairs to a new office, with extra room for a newly acquired antique pedestal table, sounds like it might be a promotion.
And your husband sounds like a real gem - helping you with the move and with the setting up of your new office.


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KALIGIRL 2/6/2012 1:36PM

    Sorry for the achy - but emoticon on the calories in/out!

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NANCY- 2/6/2012 12:25PM

    What a productive day! Being so busy, yet being aware of what you were consuming. Being mindful of your actions helps keep you living the healthy lifestyle. Is 80/20 or 90/10? It is what we do the bulk of the time that matters most.

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DBCLARINET 2/6/2012 10:04AM

    Sounds like a busy, busy day! There must have been something in the air -- my husband and I had a similarly productive weekend purchasing furniture to organize our CD collection and practice area, including all those things to help make a place special.

We also overdid it on calories that day. I'm not tracking, but we did have two burgers each on our burger salad, not just one, so I know the kind of damage I did! Ah well, that just means it's time for a lighter day!

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DONNACFIT 2/5/2012 11:05PM

    Loved hearing about your move..the new office sounds great!!

We've had "almost spring" all winter and I'm sure we are going to pay for it during calving..it's not unusual to have winter well into April here..so who knows?

Maybe I'll get some snowshoeing in yet :)

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FREELADY 2/5/2012 4:44PM

    Your blogs are like relaxing with a favorite author's story. What a gift for description . . . I feel like I "watched" your day unfold. It also brings a smile to hear the resilience and teamwork you guys have. Yes, each day is a new adventure. And oh my, I certainly believe you worked off that bit of extra fuel. (And those were moderate choices under the circumstances anyway)

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MEADSBAY 2/5/2012 3:41PM

    I think you ate purty darned well for a moving day!
Besides. our bodies like us to change it up once in a while.
I was up 3 lbs and down 3 lbs this week for no apparent reason- didn't even bother changing my tracker.


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PHEBESS 2/5/2012 2:43PM

    New office sounds wonderful - and YAY for burning all those calories!!!! I love fitness that happens while doing something - painting a room, moving an office, gardening, whatever. It just feels so much better than a treadmill in front of a TV!!!!!

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CARRAND 2/5/2012 12:21PM

    Your office sounds great. I love the description of your new desk. One of my life goals is to own a claw footed tub! I'd say your food and exercise balanced out pretty well.

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_LINDA 2/5/2012 12:19PM

    A hard, but satisfying day from the sounds of it! How wonderful to get an office makeover! Great deal on the desk!! That sure seems a fussy way to scramble some eggs..but they sound great!
Enjoy your day of rest now!

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VALERIEMAHA 2/5/2012 11:56AM

    I kept waiting for the "moving experience"...all the while reading about your moving...let's hear a big DOH! for me!

What a great family! And sounds like great things accomplished as well. Refurbished digs...what a treat! No guilt on the consumption...you worked damned hard, as your exercise points confirm!!!

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DDOORN 2/5/2012 11:42AM

    Although moving can be quite the challenge there is much to be said for clearing the decks and re-thinking your environment! I'm sure your efforts will pay off for a long time!


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MSSNOWY 2/5/2012 11:02AM

    Love those days when you get all that exercise in aid of doing something useful and realize you actually burned off all the food. Congrats. And congrats on the new office as well. It sounds marvelous. Enjoy!

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TEENY_BIKINI 2/5/2012 10:36AM

    Sounds like you earned that hot soak. I feel like spring is right around the corner as well.

Enjoy the new office.


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Busy Day Coming Up . . . .

Friday, February 03, 2012

. . . but an interesting day too.

And then (ahhhhhh) weekend. With laundry, soup making, gym, skiing: and I hope some office decor decisions too . . .

It's a full life, certainly!

And I'm working hard on getting back to middle 3 by rereading Beck.

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ERIKO1908 2/4/2012 4:30PM

    sounds like it will be a very productive weekend!!

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TRYINGHARD1948 2/4/2012 3:55AM

    Sounds like a great weekend is beginning. emoticon

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DBCLARINET 2/3/2012 8:29PM

    Yep, listening to your body is really hard! Sometimes I feel like, well, what if I am full, I want more of that delicious *fill in the blank.* Obviously I got myself into trouble because I decided that more exercise was better, even if my body was saying no, I need to rest or change it up.

Sigh, skiing. The one thing that has me really kicking myself is that now I have to sit out all the awesome winter sports, and that was a huge part of why I was so excited to get located in the Northeast. Lesson learned.

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TRAVELGRRL 2/3/2012 2:46PM

    ANYTHING is fun when it is done leisurely on the weekend...enjoy!!

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_LINDA 2/3/2012 12:57PM

    A nice balance of work, fun, exercise and creativity -got to love deciding decor :) Good luck with the Beck, a refresher never hurt anybody -you can do it!
Have a fabulous weekend!!

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MEADSBAY 2/3/2012 12:23PM

    Life is gooooooooooooood!

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NANCY- 2/3/2012 10:56AM

    Sounds like a fun filled weekend. One thing I liked about rereading Beck is being able to refine and hone my skills.

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PHEBESS 2/3/2012 10:01AM

    Busy days are good - keeps your mind active, your body moving, and there often isn't time to get hungry! All in all, a healthy kind of day!

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DDOORN 2/3/2012 9:22AM

    Can't wait here either...tomorrow is Spinning and re-connecting on with colleagues from the psych hospital where I worked for 24 years up until 2006.

I plan to make up a super healthy, yummy pot of chili for SuperBowl with TVP instead of meat. And of course LOTS of beans, tomatoes and other yummy veggies!

Sounds like a great weekend ahead for you too!

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DONNACFIT 2/3/2012 8:31AM

    Enjoy your busy day and your weekend. Thanks for the flower info..more than one person has said its hard to get them to rebloom..

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IPA-RAY 2/3/2012 7:55AM

    A full life is the way to live!

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SLENDERELLA61 2/3/2012 7:46AM

    Best wishes on your new Beck venture! Hope to be back soon.

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A guy what takes his time . . .

Monday, January 30, 2012

That's what Mae West preferred:


And: nothing wrong with a square of Lindt 85% chocolate that takes its time either!!

One 17 g square is just 30 calories.

How slowly can I eat it?

Verrrrrry verrrrry slowly. Little nibbles. Big flavour.

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TRYINGHARD1948 2/1/2012 4:31PM

    emoticon such a saliva inducing blog Ellen. emoticon

Oh dear, I can almost taste that Lindt, now where did I hide it?

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DONNACFIT 1/31/2012 9:30PM

    February thoughts always turn to chocolate... emoticon

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PENNYAN45 1/31/2012 8:36PM

    Leisurely luxuriating.... mmmmm


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NANCY- 1/31/2012 2:23PM

    Oh my! Dangerous territory for me. :)
(Gee mae looks so much younger to me now that I am older. )

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PHEBESS 1/31/2012 11:27AM

    I've "graduated" to Lindt 99% - six squares = about 60 cals, and takes forever to let melt in your mouth, 1 square at a time!

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KALIGIRL 1/31/2012 9:46AM

    Add a glass of cabernet and I'm in heaven!
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DDOORN 1/31/2012 9:01AM

    Hmm...mebbe I should consider trying this. I don't trust myself, however to set those limits...perhaps DW, who has more willpower can be the keeper of the 85%! :-)


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_LINDA 1/31/2012 12:35AM

    Wow! That goes back a few years!!
Yes nothing like Lindt 90% chocolate. Getting on to dark chocolate made me actually crave chocolate less it was so satisfying. I can no longer stand the milk chocolate I used to pig out on. Times and taste change and I am sooo glad I discovered the joys of dark chocolate :))
Thanks for the nostalgia!

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MEADSBAY 1/30/2012 9:27PM

    Is that from Chicago?
Did Christine Aguillera do a version, too?

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