Tuesday, May 10, 2011
It's been two years!
I weigh a solid 30 pounds less than when I found Spark People May 10 2009, down from 172 to 142 (or 141, with occasionally a glimmer of a "middle 3"!!). Still working on determining lowest sustainable weight . . .
That was recapturing and then sustaining an original loss from 230 pounds in 2001 to 150 pounds in 2002.
My new stability of weight maintenance in the low 14os resulted from my introduction to the Judith S. Beck 42 day program in cognitive psychology techniques for Thinking Like a Thin Person: thanks SLENDERELLA61 and the Beck Diet Solution team for support with this project, which I began earlier this year, blogging my way through the 42 days! It works!! And I was able to sustain it through a serious "cancer recurrence" scare in March.
I'm continuing to pretrack nutrition on the Spark Nutrition tracker: I'm continuing to sit down to eat, manage my environment, recognize that hunger is not an emergency, cope with sabotaging thoughts (including the primary sabotaging thought that pretracking takes too much time and is OCD!!).
Right now everything in my wardrobe fits (or is too big). Love that!! And after a winter of cross country skiing and regular gym attendance, I feel fit and strong.
Nothing feels better than feeling healthy.
Thanks, Spark People. Included in that thanks: Chris Downie and staff, the site itself (free, free, free!!), all the resources and links and articles, and most especially all of the wonderful Spark friends I've made right here.
This is an absolutely amazing community and I continue to be grateful for all of the support and good ideas and shared values I've found right here, every day.
Thank you, all!!
Thursday, May 05, 2011
I've been counting calories -- using the nutrition tracker, pre-planning my meals, following the Beck cognitive strategies to "learn to think like a thin person". I've got Beck cards to review which remind me to arrange my environment to eliminate temptations: that hunger is not an emergency; that I should sit down to eat; and that I can identify and cope with "sabotaging thoughts" -- including, that the process of tracking nutrition so closely is anal retentive and takes way too much time!!
And for me: it's been working.
Instead of yo-yoing 10 pounds up and down, I've been pretty stable.
And: I've been stable at a lower weight than I'd achieved before. I seem to be at a lower sustainable weight. So of course, I like that.
I particularly like it because staying lean reduces my chance of breast cancer recurrence significantly.
But today in the Toronto Globe and Mail on line edition there is a discussion with a psychologist who suggests that tracking calories can be the precursor of an eating disorder.
My family gets it. Nobody at home is pressuring me to eat more, or to stop tracking my food. They do understand. Completely.
But I certainly know that I've got social friends and acquaintances who would like to pressure me to eat more like they do -- more spontaneously, and more "binge" type high calorie foods on "celebratory" occasions. Whereas I'm trying to think of other ways to be social, and other ways to celebrate that don't involve overeating. Because life is to be celebrated much more often than I can "afford" the calories to overeat!!
I don't believe that I have any of the indicators of a future eating disorder, and I do believe that the Beck method is superb. It reduces the need to make eating decisions every day: NO CHOICE (or, I already made that choice, and it was MY CHOICE to do so. Yesterday. When I pre-planned.)
Whaddya think for your own selves: if you're tracking, do you think you're getting obsessive? Are you worried you may trigger an eating disorder??
Here's the link:
Wednesday, May 04, 2011
An article in the Toronto Globe and Mail says that liposuction isn't permanent. The fat comes back -- just not necessarily in the same place. So if you have fat liposuctioned off your tummy, it's back within a year but maybe in your upper abdomen, or back, or even your triceps.
Here's the link: http://www.theglobeandmail.com/life/the-ho
And the interesting thing is . . .even when people were informed about this research, many still opted to have the liposuction done!!
OK, I've fantasized about liposuction from time to time but . . . really? Worth the discomfort? The cost? And the wondering: where's it gonna reappear??
Saturday, April 30, 2011
I'm feeling very lucky that my slight indulgence over a birthday dinner for DH yesterday did not push the scale up -- or at least not yet! I'm holding at 142 for now, got to the gym today for cardio and upper body weights plus abs and stretching, we'll be heading out to the golf course tomorrow if weather permits! (And quite possibly, even if it does not!).
This is such a wonderful time of the year, I'm in a continuous state of barely-suppressed euphoria. I noticed that the big sticky buds on our chestnut trees are just beginning to split open. After a winter's worth of hyacinths blooming inside, I now smell hyacinths when I step out into the garden! In just a couple of days, all of the trees will be covered with that sharp acid green of first leaves. I may just have to take a day or two off work to get the full benefit of the spring joyousness, that "leaping greenly spirits of trees".
The first fuzzy green each spring always coincides within 24 hours or so with my son's birthday, and always reminds me of of his birth -- a difficult one by C-section, scheduled so that he would have his "own" birthday and not have to share with his dad . . . although as it happens they are so very close that neither would have minded . . . . and that first walk to the window after his birth, looking out from the hospital over the park across the street with all of the magnificent old maple trees just coming into leaf, as if the whole world was celebrating with a burst of renewal. (Oh, yes: he was worth it! Absolutely!! And continues to be . . . a very sweet young man! )
So here's the poem, which many of you will already know is one of my absolute favourites, and which never fails to give me pleasure:
i thank You God for most this amazing
by e. e. cummings
i thank You God for most this amazing
day: for the leaping greenly spirits of trees
and a blue true dream of sky; and for everything
which is natural which is infinite which is yes
(i who have died am alive again today,
and this is the sun's birthday; this is the birth
day of life and of love and wings: and of the gay
great happening illimitably earth)
how should tasting touching hearing seeing
breathing any--lifted from the no
of all nothing--human merely being
doubt unimaginable You?
(now the ears of my ears awake and
now the eyes of my eyes are opened)
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