Saturday, January 19, 2013
Iíve been struggling with what my DECIDE will be for the BLC Just Do It challenge. I feel like it has to be something huge but thatís my own interpretation. Iíve decided Iím going to call it my procrastination with signing up for walks. I walked the Komen 5K 8 years ago and since then Iíve been saying Iím ďgoing toĒ sign up for this 5K, that race, etc., but I never actually do. Since about November Iíve been talking to some friends about the upcoming Colors in Motion 5K here in Houston next month. Yesterday I FINALLY started a team and registered DD and I for the race! My BFF at work is doing it with us with her oldest 2 boys, and all of a sudden there are about 6 others that are interested. I am happy that Iíve ďjust done itĒ and sparked interest in others at the same time!
Sunday, January 06, 2013
I do NOT set time-based weight loss goals. I know that my body will do what my body is going to do and I really can't control that. What I CAN control is what I eat, what goes on in my head, and how much I move, so my goals are based on those things.
I have a goal of a 100 day tracking streak. Yesterday was day 15. There are 84 days in 12 weeks so that means I will track my food every day. Even the 2 days in February I will be in Austin with the girls. That won't be pretty, but I'll track it.
I always eat a ton of fruits and veggies, so I will continue that. I will also continue to follow the Weight Watchers Simply Filling Technique. This focuses on eating healthy, actual food and minimizing processed, man-made stuff.
I will spend time each day engaging with like-minded people to help keep my positivity and motivation up. I will blog once a week. I will comment on the blogs of others. I will offer encouragement when I can. When my motivation wanes, I will remind myself that commitment is more important than motivation. I will take steps to show I am committed: I will go for a walk, blog, plan a meal, or go to a WW meeting.
I will schedule my workouts using the calendar on my ipad. I already scheduled the workouts for the coming week, looking at what we have going on as a family. I usually get up at 4:30 to do some positive brain work and have decided that i will do the cardio exercise during that time on days when I have cardio (Tues) and on days DD swims (Thurs). My strength training will need to be after work since I do ChaLEAN Extreme and don't think I can lift that heavy without eating first. I may try tomorrow. I can do cardio on an empty stomach but lifting as heavy as she wants me to, I think I need fuel.
I always set a monthly exercise minute goal, excluding the inflated Sparkpeople number that comes from my Fitbit. My January goal is 1300 minutes. I will get better about rewarding myself when I meet the monthly goal. I have no clue what my reward is for January. Probably a new piece of clothing, or some new workout shoes.
So, there is my plan!
Tuesday, January 01, 2013
I LOVE a clean slate!!!
My fitness goals for this coming year are:
1. Get to my goal weight!
2. Complete a set of 10 regular push ups. That means on my toes with my chest coming all the way down. There I wrote it!
How I will achieve my goals:
1. I will accept that I am not now, have never been, and will ever be perfect. I will have missteps and bad days. I will, at some point, make a less than ideal choice. When this happens I will see what I can learn, pick myself back up, and move on.
2. Tracking my food in some manner. I may use the WW online tracker, a WW paper tracker, or a tracker I design. The tracking methods may change, but I must track every day.
3. I will focus on eating foods that are as close to the way they are grown as possible. I will make a conscious effort to minimize processed foods from my diet and my house. This will have the sneaky side benefit of helping my family!
4. I will listen to my body's hunger cues. I will not eat past the "satisfied" stage.
5. I will exercise an average of 300 minutes each week. Some weeks are very busy, but I MUST make working out a priority.
6. My workouts will not be only cardio. I love strength training, especially my ChaLEAN Extreme videos, and I must accept that I will have to do those one weekend day and one day after work at the minimum. Once that is easier to manage, I will add an additional day so that I am doing strength training 3 days a week and cardio at least 3, preferably 5. I already stretch daily because of back issues, so I'm covered there.
7. I will engage in a community of like-minded, healthy people who believe that goals can be met and that people can achieve anything they put their minds to doing.
So, that looks like a lot of steps. Fortunately, I am already doing many of them. That's how I lost so much in the first place! All I need to do is use what I know works to get me to the weight I want to be.
I can do it!
Thursday, October 11, 2012
This is the ever-elusive key to lasting success for me in weight loss. I lost weight by beating "perfect" on Nutrisystem. Now, I'm trying to learn how to eat regular food in my calorie range. It's still just as hard now as it was 100+ pounds ago. I think the key might be to just to keep trying and not give up. I'm certainly not going to quit trying. I know where that will get me and I gave away all the clothes that are bigger than size 12. I will NOT buy bigger ones and thankfully I don't need to!
I need to find a way to get back on the healthy eating track after an indulgence and to stop obsessing about a food I've eaten that was unplanned. I need to find out how to do that. I'm open to suggestions!
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
One year ago today I weighed 266 pounds. I was desperate. I had joined NS in August 2010 because I had tried everything else and had failed to lose any significant weight. At 250+, you have significant weight to lose. I've weighed as much as 310 twice in my life and had gotten down to 250 or so on Weight Watchers, but never any lower. I joined Nutrisystem because I had never tried it. I lost 30 pounds from August 2010 to sometime in March when I gave up. I quit Nutrisystem. The food was good, it wasn't that, I had not really truly committed to a healthy lifestyle. Oh, I talked a good game, but at night I'd eat extra desserts, or drink my favorite wine, enough so that I'd want a snack or two....or three before bed. My husband once told me as I was eating my third or fourth snack after wine, "At Least you're still eating the food." I told him, "It's not magic food!" I KNEW it wasn't about the food. It was about what I was thinking and feeling and how I was choosing to react to those thoughts and feelings.
By July 10, 2011 I had regained 18 of the 30 pounds I lost and was feeling very low. My size 18-20 pants were getting tight and I had given away the bigger ones when I lost weight. That evening hubby and I were having some wine and talking. I was leafing through a magazine and saw an ad for Medifast. I told him maybe I'd try that. I didn't care how I got the weight off anymore and I'd worry about keeping it off later. I started texting a friend who I knew was doing Medifast. At some point he brought up Mutrisystem. He reminded me that I liked the food and had said the plan was easy to follow. That was true. I really didn't have to think much about it, just checked off the boxes in the planner. Then he told me how sad it made him to see me give up on myself. Those words cut through my inner BS.
I decided to start Nutrisystem again the next day since I still had food. This time I would actually follow the program 100%. I realized that wine was standing in my way so I decided to give it up, at least until I got to goal. The date was July 11, 2011. I weighed 266 pounds.
I followed the plan 100% through my daughter's birthday, my birthday, our wedding anniversary, my husband's birthday, Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Year's Eve, and Valentine's Day. Valentine's Day was, surprisingly, the most difficult holiday. About that time I started feeling resentful, even though it was around then that I got under 200 pounds for the first time since 5th or 6th grade. After being 100% since July I started having some slips in March or April. I was losing my identity as "the fat girl" and if I wasn't the fat girl who was I?
I worked through those feelings. I realized I'm still me, just different in some ways but not in all ways. I'm still kind, funny, a good friend, a great listener, etc. I also am now someone who enjoys, for the most part, exercise. I did not regain any weight during this time.
By the end of the school year, a difficult time for teachers, I was back to NS but having a hard time regaining the 100% streaks that had been easy for me before. I kept doing the best I could, moving forward when I'd choose to have something not on plan and not berating myself for weakness and failure. I wasn't weak and I hadn't failed if I chose to eat something off plan. My food choices do not determine my worth as a person. They determine my overall health and my weight, but NOT my worth. I never got that before. That's the key. That's the magic.
On June 1 I weighed 190.9. Today I weigh 179.4. I am currently on a 20+ day streak of 100% plan adherence. I have not had any alcohol since July 10, 2011. I don't know when it will be worth it for me to have a glass of wine. It may never be. I made it through every holiday without it, so why bother? I tend towards all or nothing thinking so one glass leaves me wanting more, like one cookie leaves me wanting more. Better for me to abstain from some things.
The last year has not been easy. At times it has been extremely difficult. The results of the last year have been so worth it I can't even find the words to express it. I am now wearing size 10 or 12 pants and a medium shirt. I wear a size 11 shoe instead of a 12. I am confident that I have learned a method to maintain the weight once I reach my goal. I'm confident that I will reach my goal.
If anyone has read this far and is thinking they can't ever lose weight and learn how to keep it off I want to tell you that you can. If I can, you can. I'm no stronger than anyone else. I just made a decision to commit and I took it one day, one moment, one bite at a time. When I made a choice to eat outside my plan, I moved forward. I learned new scripts to play in my head to help nurture myself instead of tearing myself down. It's not at all easy. But it so very worth it!
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