Tuesday, July 20, 2010
I was reading through a weight loss success story last night and the person featured had decided to get healthy by their 50th birthday. As I fell asleep I realized I will be 50 in a little over 2 years. I could likely reach my weight loss goal, once and for all, by that time if I committed.
I've written about commitment before. I am happily married, successful at my job, a good friend, and a hands-on, present parent. I have ALWAYS had a difficult time committing to myself. Stems from a crappy childhood, abandonment, feelings that I was unlovable, etc, but I've realized for many years that while my childhood was not my responsibility, my adulthood is. My neglectful, critical, cruel family was wrong. I've struggled with the "now what?"
This morning, I logged into SP and used the future date weight loss calculator to see just how far I can get by 50 if I lose, say 1 pound a week. The stunning result.....153. I do not recall weighing 153. If I lose .75 pound a week, I can be at 181. I don't recall being that weight, either. Even if I lose .5 pound a week I'll be at 210 by my 50th. I was 12 the last time I was 210.
So, I feel a tiny seed of commitment just may have been sown. By October 2, 2012, I can have my outside match my inside. It's truly possible. I just need to nurture it.
What if I CAN?????????