Friday, May 30, 2014
Gah!! I have decided that I have been a "all talk, no action" kind of gal, when it comes to getting fit and losing weight. I know what I need to do. I know WHY I need to do it. I WANT to do it. But I just don't. Like, right now, at 7:30 AM, DH has just finished his workout, and I am enjoying my coffee and some quiet time. If I were the "action" person I aspire to be, I'd be doing a workout, too. I'd be going for that walk sometime during the day, waving and swatting mosquitoes, sweat rolling into my eyes, breathing hard and feeling good about all that at the end of the day.
Instead, I tried on clothes that don't fit, looked at my goal dress, (which, I have nowhere to ever even wear it) and felt my spirits go down, down, down.
I think about what I HAVE done right, over the months and years, and don't see any results. Then I remind myself that I am not consistent. I fall off the wagon so many times, I feel unable to get back on. Oh, I wish my SP and ASKer friends were here to help! I know they'd reach out and boost me up. One would give me a gentle talking to, with a not-so-gentle message. One would give me recipes and menus that assist with the cause. One would just smile with an all-knowing smile; she's been there. One would just hug me. NO, ALL of them would hug me. We'd go for a walk, then have a glass of wine.
Now, I am an intelligent woman. I have the knowledge, I have tools at my disposal. I have the time. I don't have the energy, but I know that will come with some effort put forth. I know I am not a quitter.