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Positive Attitude Today For Once

Sunday, September 20, 2009

I'm up at dawn and doing thirty minutes of Denise Austin's Bootcamp and interval training. Fantastic! Then,on my brief energy streak I cleaned the kitchen and did the dishes.

I looked at the scale today,thinking I had gained but I was WRONG! I lost one pound. Now,that doesn't sound like a lot at all to some people,far from it for me. I felt hope in just that one little pound. It was what gave me the energy to joyfully workout today so early. I mean,it was SOMETHING.

Funny how one little thing sometimes can make or break your day. I prefer to make my day today. I CHOOSE to make my day today. Two more pounds and I am back into the 160's. That would sure make another day!...M.

  
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PRIMALMICHAEL 9/20/2009 12:58PM

    Hey that's good. One pound is actually quite a bit.

Do you use real butter? Look at a pound of butter. It takes 4 of those large sticks to make a pound. If you use real butter, take one of those sticks in your hand and really look at it. Hold it up to your leg, or your stomach, and compare. You managed to remove the equivalent of 4 sticks of butter from your body!

WOW! A pound is really a lot!
You should feel really awesome!

Also keep in mind that you are benefiting in ways that can't be measured right now. That exercise made your heart, lungs, and muscles more healthy! Great job!

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MESTEESOY6979 9/20/2009 6:44AM

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Starting From The Beginning...

Friday, September 18, 2009

Today I got in 30 minutes of cardio and lifted my free weights. That's a really good fresh new start. I had really gotten to where this has just been a nightmare. Not losing at all no matter how hard I was working out but I have to admit to myself now my eating habits were off the charts...just awfully!

I HATE logging what I eat into the tracker. It is SO much dang time and trouble. So I will set a goal to do it at least three times a week. Just to see how I'm doing. Today is today and I WILL do great if just for today. It's all I have.

A lot of these meltdowns I have been having is that I haven't yet found the right medicine for my depression. It's like living in a dark,dark,corner and no one can see you,hear you,or care about you. I don't like feeling crazy. There has to be an answer somewhere.

So that's all for today. At least it isnt a blog meltdown like my other ones have been. Peacelove to all. M.

  


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Wednesday, September 16, 2009

I hate meltdowns. M.

  
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GIANT-STEPS 9/16/2009 10:42AM

  Neither Wicca nor Christianity is going to help you loose weight.

Sorry you had a rough childhood. All of us are a product of our past but you can also turn the page and start a new chapter in your life. People like your sister who outwardly seem to have it made often have their own problems. I know people who are good looking, successful, athletic, in stable long term marriages and miserable. They have to work so hard to maintain the veneer of a good life that under the surface they are miserable. Thoreau observed that the mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation. They don't complain or make waves but they aren't happy either.

Joseph Campbell advised us to follow our bliss. Whatever makes us happy is what we should concentrate on. He goes on to say that when you do follow your bliss that things in your life start going your way as if the universe opens for you. I know that this seems to be the way my life has played out. When I followed my bliss everything seemed to work out and even my mistakes seemed to be productive. When you go through life doing what everyone else wants you to you are just going through the motions at best.

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DESERTDREAMERS 9/16/2009 8:56AM

    Chip, chip, chip. Stay on the path, and eventually, you'll see progress. It's hard, damn hard, to keep going when we don't see progress. I'm losing weight like a leaf caught in a breeze - down a bit, back up a little, drop several inches (pounds), flutter around some more. Sigh. I look at those skinny-minis who stuff their faces and never gain a pound, those graced with beauty, brains, charisma ... just want to scream sometimes. They must have done something right in a previous existance.

Goddess bless

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JLEWIS2201 9/16/2009 8:56AM

    I wish I had an answer as to why you can work so hard and see so little in terms of results. I know there are articles about that on the site. Please seek them out.

That's why I like the SP site so much. It's grounded in good science and common sense. No false guarantees or quick fixes. I personally don't think praying for divine intervention is the answer. Be your own person. Rely on true friends and the support system that this site offers.

You aren't a hamster. There is no cage. There is only your life and how you choose to live it.

You've had it rougher than most, and I'm sorry about that. The question is, what are you going to do about it?

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Well,Well,Well....

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Well,well,well. The scale went down a pound and a half. Whoopee. I swear I'm gonna put that thing through a wood chipper. Well,it's a start.

I did Denise Austin's Blast Away Ten Pounds kickboxing video and I always have pretty fast results with that one. Then I did the ten minute segment of kickboxing on her mix and match set. That adds up to a 30 minute cardio workout.

I think it moved because I tried to be more careful what I put in my mouth yesterday. When I come home from that rathole I call work,I'm pretty starved. I am only going to let myself have ONE small healthy snack when I get home. Period.

I try to remember how I was when I first came to North Carolina. I had to leave because my baby's *donor* I call him,was on drugs,in jail,and threatened one night to kill us so I moved in with Dad in this goshforsaken state. I remember being bored one day,going through my boxes and finding a kickboxing video by of course,Denise Austin.

I put it in and could only do ten minutes. I was proud of that ten minutes though. I did it every day till one day I made the whole twenty minutes. It took a week and a half and I had lost over six pounds. I was amazed. That started my journey to get fit. And I did. Over a year I lost 35 pounds,was healthy and happy and looked GOOD.

I have to remember back where I started. That drive,that determination. That NEVER EVER GIVE UP attitude I had. There was no doubt in my mind I would make it to 135. None whatsoever. Maybe that had a lot to do with my success back then.

I want that back. M.

  
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CNIKKI33 9/15/2009 9:33AM

    First off, congrats on not having to demolish your scale.
I did the same thing with my Tae-bo video a year and a half ago. I could only hang for 10 min before collapsing on the couch. Eventually I made it through the whole thing. It is still tough but man what a great feeling!
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I'm SO F***ING MAD!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, September 14, 2009

I have been working out CONSISTENLY for TWO DAMN MONTHS AND HAVEN'T LOST ONE DAMN OUNCE!!! NOT ONE!!!! I HATE THIS CRAP!!!!!

Yes,I am having a meltdown. Usually with this crap I am a patient person, I say ignore the scale...yadda FREAKIN ASS yadda...but today I am P****D!!!!!!!!!

You'd think I'd lose at the very LEAST two or three pounds but my body is holding on to it's disgusting shape like it's taunting me. Like I'm going to look this way FOREVER!!!! I'd rather eat grass everyday till my hair fell out from lack of protein and I got skinny then rather go through this crap!

And before someone asks for the HUNDRETH time NO it is NOT MY THYROID! I've been checked TWICE and it's normal.

I'm just a big fat cow that wants to punch the wall and or someone else.

Crap. M. emoticon

  
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JILLIBEANIE 9/15/2009 8:22AM

    Maybe you need to switch up your workouts if you're doing the same thing every time you work out. Try switching up cardio one day for strength training or pilates-like exercises the next day. You have to surprise your muscles, maybe they're just used to what you're doing so it seems like no progress is being made. I had this problem too until I started seeing a trainer every 2 weeks who tried to change up my workout when I wasn't with her.

Be strong though, I'm currently plateauing too. emoticon

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NANABARTLEY 9/14/2009 10:39AM

  I know what you mean. I have gained 19lb.sence being laid off in Nov. I don't stop working out. I just wasn't working as hard and eating a little more. So a month ago I realized what I was doing and started back on my diet and my Workout of 2 to 3 hrs a day. I'm not losing and I know I'm not building muscle. I already had that. I've about stop eating I'm getting so desperate.

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810TONYA 9/14/2009 10:10AM

  I've run a couple marathons and actually gained weight while training. Try doing some completely different activity than what you normally do, sometimes you just have to shock your body. I am trying to run less and do some group fitness and spinning classes just to mix it up.

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PRIMALMICHAEL 9/14/2009 9:53AM

    Dang, I see what you mean. Having that sort of time pass will absolutely wear on you. I was in the 230s for over 6 months. I actually spent over 6 months flucuating between 239 and 237.

Venting about it is good. Externalize that frustration instead of internalizing where it can do damage to your health and your efforts. You don't want to hold that sort of negativity in. Get it all out there. It's one of the reasons you have a blog!

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CROBINGO 9/14/2009 9:43AM

    Well said!!! I swear sometimes we have to put on the muscle BEFORE we lose that fat and that S_CKS!!!

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BENCHED 9/14/2009 8:27AM

    I suffered a 4 month plateau once. It is SO maddening, I know!
It's worth the good fight though, trust me!

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REDGRANITEWIS 9/14/2009 8:24AM

    It can be frustrating at times...... I hear ya :0) But keep up the good fight. It will happen. For me I couldn't make progress until I became more physically active. Is there a local group you can join for support?

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ME2448 9/14/2009 8:21AM

    Log your food but keep at it.
It will come off.
Do something to jump start it.

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