So Far Today So Good

Sunday, November 08, 2009

Yes I am blogging again because it helps me. I just ate a lean cuisine and drank a ton of water and feel full so I'm not hungry. I know its just a little thing but i feel better. I am also going to fix my ticker to show my real weight where I messed up so I can hold myself accountable for each pound lost.

I think I can hold the castle for now. WW.

  

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MARTINBS 11/8/2009 10:24AM

I know how you feel. I've been bing free for almost 7 days! Thats never happened before. Our commitment will pay off. Have a great day! Report Inappropriate Comment

I. Want. To. SCREAMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, November 08, 2009

I can't believe this. I have started over and over and OVER again andjust can't seem to get this. I want to give up. Maybe it was meant for me to be fat and jiggly and just accept it. I hate myself.

I can't stop binging. I start off the days SO good and SO right. Then, half way through the day I start gorging and can't stop. It doesn't make sense. WHY can't I do this like other sparkers i read about??????

Okay maybe I'm whining. I did work out today after seeing the scale number but I'm not putting my faith in myself to make it. WW.

  

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CHICAGOMIKE 11/8/2009 1:18PM

I encounter this problem sometimes too, where I eat a healthy breakfast & lunch, and then get hungry later in the day. So you're not the only person to run into this. But it does get easier, so just keep focusing on trying to eat healthy all day long. Report Inappropriate Comment

VALI_T 11/8/2009 1:04PM

Don't be so hard on yourself. You have an entire lifestyle to change and that's not going to happen quickly or easily for all of us. Try to make one change at a time. If you continue doing the same thing for (I think) 4 weeks it becomes a habit, so make one small change at a time....and before you know it you'll have a whole new lifestyle, one that's happy and healthy. Report Inappropriate Comment

CATHYT40 11/8/2009 10:54AM

Honey it took me five years to graduate with my Associate, had 2 go part-time. In other words, it something easy then everyone would do it but when you have to work long and hard for something then you really appreciate it...In the end, all your hard work will pay off so Screammmm honey let it out and keep moving forward in the right directions....Remember your a Warrior meaning your not afaird to fight for what you really want... Comment edited on: 11/8/2009 10:56:39 AM Report Inappropriate Comment

FIKILEDM 11/8/2009 10:54AM

Warrior, just a couple thoughts. One is that pronouncing "I will not fail" sets us up for failure because we all do and will fail ... expecting ourselves to be completely free of failure even in one important area of our lives is self-defeating. Another thought, perhaps already mentioned here or elsewhere by others, is to focus on making sure you enter all the food you're eating in your nutrition tracker, rather than focusing on what you are or are not eating. That helped me a lot in the beginning. Once you are consistently tracking what you eat, you may be able to find tiny ways of playing a game with yourself or modifying your habits. Perhaps you're already doing these things, so only take the suggestions if they're useful to you. Debbie Report Inappropriate Comment

JAZZWOMAN1266 11/8/2009 10:26AM

We all have to find what works for us. Try different things that are on this site or recommendations from others on this site. We all are different and what works for one does not always work for others. I always tried the newest diet fad and realized finally that there are no diets that work. You have to change your atitude towards food and realize that it is need for life, not to help us deal with stress and emotions. It takes a lot of work to find out what will work, but keep trying and you will find your way. Look at the success stories and you will find a common thread of eating healthy and exercise. No excuses! Good luck! Report Inappropriate Comment

4BROOMES 11/8/2009 10:26AM

I agree with CLAYSGAL - take little steps. Make a chart marking off the hours you have problems. Buy some fun stickers. Give yourself a sticker for each hour that you resist. Aim for sticking to your plan 1 hour longer than usual. Give yourself a sticker! If you then fall off the wagon - don't beat yourself up, you made it 1 hour longer than usual. Put your chart up somewhere you can always see it (fridge door works well). Keep it up until you break that cycle. Remember - little steps! Report Inappropriate Comment

RIPPEDPAUL1 11/8/2009 10:18AM

I found an acronym from a 12 step program HALTs. Avoid allowing yourself or be especially careful when your are Hungry. Angry, Lonely, Tired, and I added Sad. I found eating regularly, more whole and high fiber foods helped. I wish you the best! Don't quit! Report Inappropriate Comment

ALEXSGIRL1 11/8/2009 9:09AM

please make sure that you are eating enough in the morning and afternoon. good food with protein like eggs for breakfast. yogurt for a snack a chicken turkey or tuna sandwich for lunch with a piece of fruit. at night get a good book to read have tea. go out with friends go for a walk at night. i find a direct problem with me when i watch tv or don't eat enough during the day. i hope this helps.fruit vegs and fiber help fill you up. Report Inappropriate Comment

MOM195 11/8/2009 9:06AM

Try diced celery and sliced cucumbers and use these for binging. These veggies help take away hunger..it works for me and my hubby. You can do this, don't give up! I understand how you feel cuz I feel the same way of giving up but I give myself a pep talk and i refuse to give up. Report Inappropriate Comment

RENA1965 11/8/2009 8:58AM

Put up your nutrition page perhaps friends will look at it a see a pattern what sets it off. If you have a breakout note what you eat and retry it, something triggers these binges. Study your food, also keep the structure true to how sparks maps the daily menus. Make sure your getting all the nutrition to each meal they recommend. If you can't eat the menu take similar items from the same family and replace stuff you don't like but keep the structure true... Report Inappropriate Comment

LOVESLIFE13 11/8/2009 8:55AM

I was in the exact same boat as you. I'm not lying, I was. It took me about 3 months to change my habits. Your exercising, that's great! Keep that up! Start out be eating more fruits and veggies, (the veggie part is still hard for me some days). Keep track of your calories, this helped me a lot. It showed me how many calories I was eating and I was shocked!! Then I started making healthier choices. Please, don't give up! It takes a while to break years and years of unhealthy eating! DON'T GIVE UP!! STICK TO IT!! Report Inappropriate Comment

CLAYSGAL 11/8/2009 8:37AM

Try smaller steps. Instead of trying to go a day without bingeing, try 1 hour, tommarrow make it an hour an a half an so on, it takes awhile but you will win.I know you can do this, I have faith in you! Report Inappropriate Comment

MARYMOO39 11/8/2009 8:25AM

I know where you are coming from. This was my story last week. You can do this. Hang in there. :) Report Inappropriate Comment

A Day Towards "Better"

Saturday, November 07, 2009

I had a terrible binge session for nearly three days straight. I refuse to weigh myself today. So I set my clock and by five thirty while everyone was asleep got up and did Denise Austin's Cardio Bootcamp,70 crunches,and lifted my free weights.

It felt soooo good to do something good for me instead of bad for me. I guess you could say I "fell off the wagon" but I'm back on now. I"m sitting here sipping my ice water and not eating so that's a good start for the day and I'm not hungry.

Of course now I went shopping and filled the fridge with more fruits and veggies and lean meats so this week should be a better week. If I can make it a better week on the eating and working out scale I will feel better than what's ON the scale.

I would looooove to go vegan but I'm scared of not eating enough protein and more of my hair falling out. I guess turkey and lean deli beef will be my two best friends..haha.

Everyone have a fantastic weekend. Peacelove. WW.

  

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LESLIEMARTINA 11/7/2009 7:42AM

This week WILL be better! And cheers to getting right back on track! :) Report Inappropriate Comment

Love Those Endorphins!!!!!!!

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

My bf came over last night with donuts and left them at my house. You can only guess what happened. So I'm starting today with day 1 of no binging. I prayed about it to just for today to get through it without giving in to temptation.

On the flip side,I had a GREAT Tae Bo workout. It made me feel better and was 40 minutes long and I did 90 good crunches. I'm getting better at them so I can feel the muscles working in my abs. So that's a good little progress I'm proud of.

There is simply no use in beating yourself up no matter how many times you slip up. you can't lay down and give up. you HAVE to get up and keep trying. I don't care if this takes me another year. I'll join twenty support spark teams if i have to to get through this control on my appetite.

I LOVE Tae Bo. It's like a medicine. And I remember when I was healthy and skinnier and in my size 6s that I looked like I worked out in a gym that's how I looked like. I'm going to start alternating my tae bo workouts daily and see where it takes me to do something new and different maybe I will get that scale to go down yet.

Peacelove to all. WW.

  

Day Two and Binge Free!

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

I haven't binged in two whole days and am really proud of myself. l lost the four pound water weight from TOM so I feel better about that too. I worked out good today and I tell you,if I miss a workout it's like missing one of my psych drug doses.

I joined a great group to help with binging and it's nice to see others that they struggle with the same thing. I joined a 21 day binge free challenge and have made it two days really well.

I'm really enjoying my vacation. Haven't done a whole lot. But it'snice because when I go back they have upped my hours at work. Just in time for Christmas.

That's all today. WW.

  

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TWOCANS 11/3/2009 10:08AM

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JAZZWOMAN1266 11/3/2009 8:56AM

Realize that you are worth not binge eating. Find a hobby to keep you busy and you can do anything! Report Inappropriate Comment

MANYPOUNDSTOGO 11/3/2009 8:47AM

I am so proud of you! It can be hard not to binge. Report Inappropriate Comment

RITAROSE 11/3/2009 8:31AM

Keep up the good work! I have finally realized that those binges only bring regret and depression. Always keep in mind the joy that being true to your program brings along with positive results! Congrats to you!! Report Inappropriate Comment

SMASHKIWI 11/3/2009 8:29AM

You can do it!!! Report Inappropriate Comment