TRYING TO REMAIN CALM

Sunday, November 25, 2007

Went back to exercise class after having to leave early on Friday - I had a severe burning on the left side of my chest , back and down my left arm.Spent the remainder of the day in the ER - testing for caridac problems - my cardiologist stated that there was nothing wrong w/ my heart but a cycst was found on my on my pancrease. Of course I am now panicked - I did reasearch on the web and the first thing I found were pancreatic cysts that were cancerous -I am trying to remain positive until my f/u visit this week - regardless of what the docs say I want the cycst biopsied and I want to know why I keep having these incidencies of inflammation and muscular/skeletal pain! I have had these episodes for about the last 5 yrs and all I am told is that this is "unexplained" pain. Not good enough guys, I feel like I am being dismissed by the medical profession - so my search will continue.

  

HAPPY SUNDAY!!!

Sunday, November 18, 2007

Exercised Sat and Sun and stayed w/in my calories!!! I feel pretty good both physically and mentally. A little apprehensive about Thanksgiving..but I do have a plan - I will stay w/in my caloric intake everyday , except on Thursday and I will go to my exercise class on Mon, Tues, Wed, Fri and Sat.Thanksgiving day , I plan on walking 6 miles and since I am cooking I plan on making a lot of healthy subsitutions in the food prep! I definitely plan on having canidied yams and dessert but I will not eat to the point of being stuffed. AND I will weigh-in on Wed 11/21 - and again on 11/28. No stepping on the scale after turkery day - no need to get depressed over a temporary weight gain.
It feels soooo good being able to have some control - usually by now I would have startedmy annual downward spiral towards gaining weight - I start would start the week before Halloween eating 5 bags of Reese's and continuing to New Year's - by that time I would be depressed , fatter and lethargic. Not the case this yr - I feel darned healthy and in control. Yeah me ! 52 is rockin' for me

  

Feeling good !!

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

So far I am down 2#'s and that is fine w/ me . My goal for next week will be to weigh-in @ 214 :-). I am trying to control what I eat and to exercise daily ...but it is soooo hard for me this time of the yr. For the past 18 yrs or so(since I had children ) I would eat w/o restriction from Halloween through New Yrs and then cry the whole month of Jan - THEN try to undo the damage from Feb through July..just in time to start all over again!!!! The cycle is hard to break..although I am determined this yr not to fall in this trap. I can DO this!!! I am paying for 3 months of exercise class in advance -b/c if I am anything I am cheap :-) so I know that I will continue to go to class if I have paid for them. I have started to put chopped ingredients for a salad in my fridge so that I can have a salad when I come home from work - instead of eating something filled w/ calories - that will curb my hunger until dinner time.

  

Saw an old photo of myself

Monday, November 05, 2007

Oh boy - my mother mailed a picture of me from my 50th birthday party which was 2 yrs ago. Have I changed!!! I looked HUGE!!!!!! In every picture when I smiled my cheeks were so full that my eyes disappeared. I know that a lot of the puffiness was because I was severely hypothyroid..but I felt so sad looking at those photos. I remember the frustration and depression from lsoing 5 pounds and the next week gaining 7! Granted I still have more weight to lose , but I have come so far in my journey in the past 2 yrs . This really has become a lifestyle change for me - which is why it is taking so long as opposed to the fad diets that I have tried in the past.

  

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FROGGIEBEAR 11/5/2007 2:20PM

I keep an old photo of myself at about 25lbs heavier. It reminds me of what can happen if I don't watch what I eat, what I am capable of doing if I put my mind to it. People tell me that I don't look like that girl anymore, I tell them that every once in a while she tries to come out and I just have to tell her to get lost! Report Inappropriate Comment

Plateau

Sunday, October 14, 2007

I have hit a plateau!! I have been 218 for heavens knows how long!!! Rather than giving in ... I have a plan- today I added the risers to my step in step class which upped my heart rate and made my workout more challenging. During lunch I will take a 30 minute walk and add a short walk after work on Friday. Hopefully this plan plus making sure I have 8 glasses of water each day will get the scale moving again.

  

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CRAZY_CAROLLYNN 10/24/2007 11:51AM

I hate plateaus! I too have been on one,...feels like ten months. When I started I was loosing 2 + lbs a week till I lost like 45 pounds. But in the last ten months Ive only lost 25 more. Dont get me wrong Im thrilled to loose almost 70 pounds in total. I just hate plateaus. lol If you can't modify some of your food choices to be a more healthy variety, smaller portions eaten more often....then YES up your exercise a wee bit here and there. Thats a great plan and Im sure you will beat it!! I keep telling myself that inches are better than pounds. Report Inappropriate Comment

REDVELVET21 10/14/2007 9:00PM

You can do it !!! Plateaus are ugly but you show them the door!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

SMILINGEYES2 10/14/2007 7:08PM

The plan sounds like a winner. It is so tempting when at a plateau and give up. You have come up with a plan that should be helpful in seeing that dial move. Report Inappropriate Comment