Sunday, December 07, 2014
I'm still here.
I'm still on the journey.
I hardly know where to start, or what to say; it has been so long since I've blogged . . .
My back is much improved. Not 100%, but manageable. I'm seeing the chiropractor every 3 weeks now, down from twice a week. I fell yesterday, and my back feels like it has been set back about 3 treatments; and I'm mighty sore, but don't think I am injured. Bruised, but not broken.
Bruised, but not broken - that would have been a good blog title . . . and it is somewhat how I feel overall.
After consulting with my doctor and my chiropractor, with both of their recommendations, I again started taking an anti-depressant and anti-anxiety medication. The fact that my chiropractor recommended it was a surprise to me, and the catalyst I needed to think in a positive way about trying this again. Although my circumstances have not changed, the medication has allowed me to think more clearly and respond in a positive way. This was not something that I wanted to do, I had to move past the stigma. I was in a very bad place; this offered me a lifeline that I needed.
This also cleared my mind to think more rationally about this journey and not feel so hopeless. My doctor's concern about my triglycerides and her request to cut back my refined carbs was a bit of a kick in the pants - one that I needed. I'm not setting any world records, but I am dropping a few pounds here and there. I have determined that for right now, the intuitive eating is just not going to work for me. I am back to tracking my food two to three days a week. I know every day would be better, but time is a factor. I now own a smartphone and the SparkPeople app leaves me no excuse not to track my food at least several times a week. I slacked a bit the week of Thanksgiving - I think I forgot that my birthday and Thanksgiving are only 2 days . . . not all week.
I've also started taking red krill oil for my cholesterol and triglycerides and have been very faithful in taking my multi-vitamin as well as my OTC allergy medication. All combine to help me feel better physically and emotionally.
I am still exercising at least 60 minutes a week - usually at least 10 minutes per day, but sometimes the weather or demands on my schedule have not cooperated for the 10 minutes every day. But I count myself still on track.
Overall, since April, I've lost 15 pounds of the 24 that I gained in 2013. Not where I want to be, but better than where I was. Proof that I haven't given up on the journey.
Thanks for being here for me, and for those of you that have checked in on me during my silent times.
Here's to share the lovely snow we had several weeks ago. I'm not a snow advocate, but this was lovely when you could stay inside and look out.