Saturday, March 27, 2010
As I mentioned yesterday, I had a big test of my fitness planned for last night. My husband got home from work around 5PM and I started stretching. It took everything in me to get myself out the door. The weather wasn't good. We had 25 MPH wind. I was having a lot of self-doubt. But hey, I'd put it out there on my spark page that I was attempting a 4 mile run so DANGIT, I'm going to do this run.
The first 2 miles I ran into the wind--NOT FUN. I wasn't even down the block when my headphones were blown off my head. That was the first moment that I started thinking "maybe I shouldn't do this...it's too windy." But again, I thought of my spark friends and how they already knew I was going to be attempting this. I didn't want to wimp out behind the excuse that it was too windy.
I did look at my watch about a mile in and thought, "Oh my goodness...I've ONLY gone 1 MILE!" I can't do this...you should have heard my inner monologue. The OLD JESS was there trying to sabotage, but lucky for me the NEW JESS had a comeback for every excuse that was rattling around in my head. It went something like this:
"Wow this is hard, I should just walk for a little bit"
-----NO, just keep moving, if you can push through this first part the rest will be a cakewalk
"I'm TOO FAT to be doing this, I was nuts to think I could run 4 miles straight"
-----WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT? You've lost 30+ pounds, just keep moving.
"No one will know if you walk for a little bit"
-----WRONG! You'll know, and you'll be mad at yourself when you get home
"This is TOO HARD, I Can't do it"
-----WRONG! You've done things that are much harder, FOCUS! You can do this
Pretty soon I came to the part in the loop where I was going to turn and the wind was at my back. All of a sudden I felt like a million bucks. Suddenly I felt like I had a burst of energy. I picked up my pace a little. I didn't look at the distance I had gone, I just kept concentrating on putting one foot in front of the other.
Before I knew it I was coming down the street where our house was. I'm pretty sure I had perma-grin. 49 minutes and 15 seconds was what it took for me to complete 4.3 miles--all running--NO WALKING!!!!
I did have to slow-up twice to cross some intersections, but I don't count that because I didn't walk. I had no choice unless I planned to get run-over!
THANK YOU to all of my spark friends that took the time to encourage me yesterday ! I'm still in a little bit of shock! 4.3 MILES!!!!! WOO HOO!!!!!