Sunday, March 18, 2012
September 25th, 2009 I stepped on the scale and was horrified at the sight, I wanted my scale to be broke/wrong so badly but it was not it was giving me the horrifying truth of how bad I had let myself get. 310lbs, my clothes were bursting at the seams I couldn't seem to buy a large enough size, in short I had hit the bottom and the breaking point. The next day I asked a guy at work to borrow his copy of P90x and started on the 27th. It probably goes without saying there have been a lot of ups and downs, struggling, maybe a tear or 2 or 10 but as of today I stepped on the scale and finally broke a month long plateau to hit the lightest weight I have been at in 7 years, all weight loss beyond this is going to be the lightest of course, but this was kind of a magic number I needed to hit, it was light at the end of the tunnel if you will. Something today was very magical about hitting 229.4lbs. For some reason my goal of 180 seems much closer. May because in 2010 I hit 236 then gained back 30lbs through the end of 2010 early 2011. Then I battled and got stuck in the 250s, then the 240s and then the 230s and I for some reason felt if I could get out of the 230s I would feel some magical energy and I did. Today I ate perfect, I rode my bike 14.15 miles to work and it seems like 219 will be just around the corner I know it's still a lot of work ahead but it just felt so encouraging. And Non Scale Victory of the day (NSV) wore my cute "skinny" girl shorts while more snug than they used to be I wore them, I pulled them out of the bottom of the hope drawer.
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
My work schedule provides plenty of days off, but it's the days that I work that are killing me. I work 545pm-6am, I have to leave the house by 5-510 and I get home around 630. 630-7ish is unwind time and I am usually asleep around 730. If I get the recommended 8 hours that is 330pm That gives me about an hour to fit in exercise and making dinner. Previously I had success making mass quantities of food on days I am off work then just being able to have that hour for fitness. But now I have a boyfriend who and I very rarely have leftovers anymore. So I am finding myself making a meal daily. So the reality of my schedule is I get up around 1 or2 which is 6-7 hours of sleep, it then takes me longer to get functional which seems to put me at around 3 by the time I am functional anyway and all I have really bought myself is an extra half an hour. So I guess I am looking to see what you crazy busy folk out there do
Friday, March 09, 2012
My only goal for this weekend is to behave myself and finally drop below 230 I have finally taken down 235 and I am sitting at 230 but my body is fighting to stay at 230 or above, grr always frustrating. While I am happy with my progress and my inches lost and all are awesome, it is just mentally a huge victory to go past a certain number. I'm super happy because at one point the magic number was 270 right now being below 230 would just really give me that burst of motivation.I know I will reach my goal weight and size etc this year its just a fact it's going to happen, but I am getting impatient with 230 land and and want to be in 220 land. Oh how good it will feel, I need this, so I must behave this weekend I must stay focused and I must get myself over this hump and find that extra little motivation that comes with seeing a significant number on the scale.
Sunday, March 04, 2012
I am very happy with my weight loss this year so far, I am happy with how I feel, and the scale has even been mostly kind, but the victories that are really making a difference right now are: My Dad has commented on my weight loss (Mom too) my Dad isn't one of those dad's or anything but it was just really cool that he noticed and even seemed to have some admiration for my success. I am wearing my smaller sized work pants and I can actually get the next size down on, just need to get to being able to button them. I fit into the smallest size jeans in the past 5 years, still shooting for getting into my size 10s but right now the jeans I am in make me super happy. I dug out some of my cute Express tops and the tank tops fit, I still have enough squish that they will only be undershirts right now but hey they go on. My leather jacket fits, when you spend that much on a coat you hate to see it sitting in the back of the closet. And last but not least I bought a new workout shirt that is a size large, I could actually put a Medium on if I wanted but I'm still self conscious. I think wearing smaller clothes helps motivate me, and if I notice the stuff getting tight, I will know for sure I am going in the wrong direction no matter what the scale says.
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