Thursday, January 12, 2012
This may sound rather familiar to some. Today I started out with best intentions, I have been on fire. And then a little stress set in, the time of the month arrived, and somewhere in my best intentions I ate like there was no tomorrow. I don't accept this as a good thing but I accept what happened. Instead of totally saying screw it, I exercised, I salvaged as best I could on calories, and I looked at the triggers. So the lesson learned is tomorrow this won't happen and maybe next go around maybe control will be taken sooner. I'm actually proud of myself because normally this would turn into a spiral of self loathing and saddness. Today it was "maybe I have been hitting it hard my body wanted to rebel, aunt flo is in town, and peanut butter isn't the worst food to eat ever and I still ate less calories than a binge a few years ago. Life will go on" My attitude is changing and I hope others can learn to allow slip ups, not every day of course but once in awhile.
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
I don't know what it is, maybe I have found peace with myself, maybe its cause I'm happy and in love, maybe because I finally stopped trying to lose weight and am focusing on being an athlete. Maybe because I am not so over focused that I am stressed out. All these maybes just are me saying I am losing weight slowly consistently and I am not stressed or "working" so hard that I hate losing weight. I think that this is finally the year I will find that golden ticket to onderland. I'm 37.7lbs away and I will get there come hell or high...wait careful what I wish for don't need another house flood... On to great news it is finally snowing in Iowa, I may get to use my cross country skis this year afterall. Oh and the Pigman forms are sent in woot!!
Monday, January 09, 2012
I recently hit that milestone and I thought I should reveal what spark has done for me. Okay yeah I have lost 60lbs since my ultimate breakdown day, that wasn't my first day on spark granted, I gained and lost for about 2-3 of these years. But since Sept 2009 it has been losing and mostly maintaining, some tears, some triumph, some wtf over days. Spark helped me have the courage to do a marathon and a triathlon. And all you wonderful spark people were there with me every step, every grueling step of my first marathon. If it weren't for my real friends that were there and my spark friends that I knew would be there finish or not I would not have made it through (I trashed my hamstring on mile 3 for those that may just be picking up on my saga). I have met real friends via spark, I have people I can call, text with support, need for support, or just a triumph, or sometimes just to say hey I'm here for you, you're here for me. I have met the most perfect man in my life through spark, although not completely directly ( my boyfriend is one of my friend's older brothers, I met her through spark, we started walking together and realized we were great friends, a couple years later after my crappy relationship and his crappy relationship she gave us a little push). I'm not always super active on the site, but I am always excited to keep up on accomplishments of others. I sometimes just log in for a short bit put in exercise look to see what's going on and log off sometimes with or without comment, but never worry friends I keep up on you even if I don't always have sage advice for you. I am still on my journey, I am moving from a weight loss mode to an athlete mode this year, while I still have 60lbs I want to lose I am not "focusing" on that I am focusing on strong and athletic. I want to thank all of you spark friends for being here and I hope you all continue to be here even after you hit your goals.
Saturday, January 07, 2012
May 19 MAF HM
June 3 Pigman Sprint Triathlon
August 19 Pigman Long Course
October 7 Chicago Marathon??(this is the only one yet to be decided)
Wednesday, January 04, 2012
I have been super focused since early November, mostly because that is when the idea of a half iron distance triathlon started to be a reality. I made it through the holidays and lost weight, I'm 3, now 4 days into January and I feel more focused and determined than I have in the past 5 years on Spark, I don't want this to fade, I think this is the year for me to finally see onederland again and to stay there!! I'm ready to be successful in my athletic goals and to just feel like an athlete again. I am starting to feel like that again, honestly one of my biggest tools for helping me feel athletic is playing raquetball a couple times a week, that little bit of competition and seeing my fitness put to function is really boosting my self image as an athlete. For some reason it makes me feel athletic to jump and run and hit the ball. Kettlebell training is helping me feel this functionality too, I feel like it trains me the way an athlete trains, not just a person trying to lose weight to fit into some jeans. My cycle trainer kicks my butt, but is also a nice reminder of the support system I have at home from my wonderful boyfriend (I gush about him so much but he really is great). On the treadmill I have been pushing myself to run faster intervals, I have a mental capacity of 2 miles at a pop on a mill so I really focus on quality intervals on the mill. I make a lot of sweat with each workout and that makes me feel like an athlete, I guess I had forgotten how much I liked being an athlete. While I am not a Iowa Hawkeye track athlete anymore I think I feel more like an athlete than I ever felt before.
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