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WARNING: Whining Zone

Friday, October 21, 2011

I am frustrated with my lack of weight loss, my constant over eating, followed by feelings of guilt and then more overeating: sound familiar, I'm sure it does I'm guessing about 90% of us sparkers have been or are here. I have long struggled with my weight but it seems like I kept it remotely in check at least until 2005. Then it went up and up and up and up and up, and I lost the ability to control cravings, overeating etc. I feel frustrated because there has gotta be something to blame and there are at least 2 things that happened around November 2005, 1) my thyroid went kaput 2) I had just gotten home from a year long tour in Iraq. I often wonder if these are the "cause" of my weight problems. Thyroid well of course it does affect weight we know that. The tour in Iraq I mean it was stressful but 6-7 years of so stressful that I can't lose weight. Its easy to blame outside sources I think but I wonder how much blame these things deserve. Are they the reason I can't seem to put the brakes on my appetite at times or are they just a patsy that I have named because it is easier than admitting I am capable of controlling myself, but I am allowing myself to fail. Maybe it's a little of both.

Venting done. Action plan is this, I have been tracking my food for a solid 2 week period and quite diligently. I see my trigger foods that don't allow me to shut the hand to mouth off, it is now time for me to be mindful of it and by all means necessary I need to control myself and how much food I am putting in my mouth. There is no reason I can't do it. My thyroid doesn't make me eat a whole can of pringles, I wasn't so stressed in Iraq that I should eat a whole can of pringles. REPEAT I AM CAPABLE OF CONTROLLING MY EATING HABITS. Alright Whining/venting done.

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REMARAHAB 10/24/2011 1:15PM

    I know where you are, too! This time of year I always want to EAT... Trouble is, I don't want another piece of fruit or vegetable, I want meat, potatoes and CHOCOLATE! I can ignore meat and potatoes (take time to fix), so usually that takes care of craving out of meal time. Chocolate I limit not to one dark chocolate kiss but 6 (150 cal) that I eat about 3 hrs apart for planned snacks

Good luck on your plan!.

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ON2VICTORY 10/21/2011 3:48PM

    hey girl, im right on board with you. I have started doing this and it seems to help...

I cant control a crazy work schedule, I cant control the weather which can dictate if I am condemned to a boring indoor workout BUT I can control what I eat. Seeing as how I cannot outrun a crappy diet, I have made the decision that everytime I sit down to eat I am training.

truly I am because with every meal I am laying a foundation, I am making a choice whether I am going to feel the rush of crossing the finish line doing something really huge, or wallow in self pity and eat some more. so long as my desire to see another victory remains intact, it seems like the eating is not worth it.

this winter is not layoff time, it is more of a preparation time. on the other side in Spring I intend on being ready for a rocking season in 2012. I made up my mind that it all starts with not how I lift a dumbell but how I lift my fork.

as you can tell, i am getting a little of my zip back.

we can do this... frankly, you have already shown incredible focus and ability. harness it.

everytime you sit down to eat, you are training.

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EVER-HOPEFUL 10/21/2011 3:10AM

    would you believe i am in the middle of eating a big bowl of tacos while reading this and despite reading this iam still eating it,lol.i know exeactly where you are at i am there too.now if only i can do a plan of action as well.you can do this love you have done it before and you can do it again. emoticon

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Motivation, Potential 2012 races

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Pigman short course June
Pigman long course August
Indy Mini May
Sturgis Falls HM June
Chicago Maraton Oct 7th (I'm liking this because it is actually on my birthday)
Peregrine charities triathlon Olympic distance Sept

I haven't set anything in stone but these are things that I know I need to keep myself motivated for all winter and spring, as well as fall. I want to continue to lose weight so that a marathon will seem a lot easier than running it at 245
I would like to do a triathlon or 2 at a lighter weight than 245. The lightest I have run a race is 2010 Indy mini and that was 239, I would like to think I will recover better if I race closer to 180! This is my motivation, along with that coveted pair of Holy Grail Jeans!

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One small step toward Ironwoman, One giant leap into a can of Pringles

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Yesterday I was the bomb (as in the good kind) today I was a bomb (but the dud kind). I don't know what it was but today I bought a can of pringles with the intention to enjoy a serving and I did, if a serving=a whole can. Story of my weight loss woes, I workout, I eat well one day, and I manage to calorie bomb the next. 720 calories in the blink of an eye. I am right back on it for tomorrow, I guess for the time being I just have to say no to any sort of temptation. I have a lot of work to do and I can't keep commiting the acts of self sabotage.
Monday will be a good fresh start for me, I am going backpacking in the woods and unless I missed something in Girl Scouts there are no wild cans of Pringles to be had plus backpacking for an hour burns like 1000 calories so at least the mistake of today will be rectified by the calorie burn of tomorrow.

Some facts of why I may struggle a bit for awhile, My BMR for my activity level shows that to maintain my current weight I could eat 2970 calories. So 1500 may be a struggle for awhile, I may have to up it to 1800 for a couple weeks while my body adjusts to these numbers.

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EYES_ON_THEPRAZ 10/17/2011 7:33PM

    You're doing great -- love this blog title!

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REMARAHAB 10/17/2011 6:16PM

    I feel the urge to snack, too, after having a serving of baked Lay's Potato Chips. Which is odd because I don;t even like them! Must be the salt.

Two steps forward, one step back. Story of my life! It's still a movement to the positive!

Keep up the good work!

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KAREN_NY 10/17/2011 5:08PM

    Wild cans of Pringles! Hey, you never know. ;)
Rock the new day!

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KKINNEA 10/17/2011 1:08PM

    Your blog made me laugh esp. the comparison of bomb to bomb. You've got this - those are just tiny bumps in the road, future IronWoman!

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One step closer to Ironwoman

Saturday, October 15, 2011

Today I am going to end up only 60 calories over 1500. I am working on doing 2-3 days of being right around 1500 and then 1 day of being closer to 1800. When I was really focusing hardcore on weight loss this worked really well for me and helped me not feel deprived. The nice thing about today's calorie count is it even allowed for an indulgence. I am making a super conscious effort going into winter so that I don't lose the hardwork I have been doing all summer, I don't want to be totally psycho about it either, just conscious. I have a very supportive boyfriend who is on board with my training and health efforts and of course all my terrific sparkfriends who are always supportive!

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LIL_EZZY 10/16/2011 5:34AM

    Way to go. You can do it..

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TRUETOMOLLY 10/15/2011 9:21PM

    Awesome job and if it worked before it will work again! I'm glad you are so balanced about it and not stressing out over it. you worked so hard for where you are at and I agree by allowing this alottment you will in no way mess it up. Think about how much food you can eat that is healthy when you are consuming 1500-1800 calories of it! Great job today girl

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For those of you who feel your running lacks grace

Saturday, October 15, 2011

Some days go more like the top picture, for me most are like the bottom, but what matters is that I go out and do it no matter how pretty I look

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TRUETOMOLLY 10/15/2011 9:24PM

    Oh this is priceless and I love it! Good job!

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BLUE42DOWN 10/15/2011 7:35PM


Yep, I've felt like I looked like that ... and all I'm doing is walking.

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CARLAH528 10/15/2011 7:11PM

    LOL! I can't wait till I'm healthy enough TO run. I don't care what I look like. I'm getting there!

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