Monday, October 24, 2011
Preface most of this is weekend recap skip to Sunday if you want to know what the title is talking about:
I have been battling the calories and I knew today was going to be a dinner for my boyfriend at his mom's house. It always turns into a calorie bomb because the food is so good. Thankfully I had distractions for the day to keep me out of grazing mode. We took Mike's .22 out and hit up the range, always a good romantic way to enjoy some time together. Then it was time to head out for a walk with his sister (we walk a 5 mile loop at the halfway point we meet her son at his bus stop and then he walks back with us) the first half we were making pretty good time, ended up getting a decent workout in. Then it was calorie bomb time, but to be honest I didn't bomb out as bad as I thought I was able to show some restraint in spite of the really good food.
Once again another busy day to keep me from mindless eating. We spent all day doing yard improvement projects stopping only to have a really late lunch that kind of ended up being dinner as we were too tired to cook by the time we were done so we ended up having a light snack before bed. I think calories out probably beat up on calories in, I felt good an exhausted from all the digging, weeding, and planting.
Today was "fun" day, but I woke up with a case of the "I really want to go back to beds" I read, napped, woke up from nap, Mike suggested a bike ride, another nap. To be honest I was so not feeling a bike ride, but I have a new bike, my sweetie wanted to go riding, so I finally got up and changed and told him I was ready to ride. I took me quite a while into the ride before I really started to enjoy it, it was windy, plus I wasn't feeling it to begin with, but then I started to really enjoy it and began to really get a good workout in. What started out as a me not wanting to do it turned into a really fun exhilirating ride. Later on I even went for another ride to the store to pick up a few grocery items, not a long ride but considering how the day started out...
Woke up with a purpose got some housework done while I waited for my ipod to charge (was thinking I would really need it today) and then I went for a decent run, I had been doing shorter maintenance runs but since I am doing a 10k on the 5th I figured I should train up a bit. All the hiking, biking, etc must be doing something cause I ran longer than I have in forever and felt great I am excited, I want to get focusing on my running again especially if I am thinking about another 26.2 next year. I also got a walk in today, can't beat a double!
Friday, October 21, 2011
I am frustrated with my lack of weight loss, my constant over eating, followed by feelings of guilt and then more overeating: sound familiar, I'm sure it does I'm guessing about 90% of us sparkers have been or are here. I have long struggled with my weight but it seems like I kept it remotely in check at least until 2005. Then it went up and up and up and up and up, and I lost the ability to control cravings, overeating etc. I feel frustrated because there has gotta be something to blame and there are at least 2 things that happened around November 2005, 1) my thyroid went kaput 2) I had just gotten home from a year long tour in Iraq. I often wonder if these are the "cause" of my weight problems. Thyroid well of course it does affect weight we know that. The tour in Iraq I mean it was stressful but 6-7 years of so stressful that I can't lose weight. Its easy to blame outside sources I think but I wonder how much blame these things deserve. Are they the reason I can't seem to put the brakes on my appetite at times or are they just a patsy that I have named because it is easier than admitting I am capable of controlling myself, but I am allowing myself to fail. Maybe it's a little of both.
Venting done. Action plan is this, I have been tracking my food for a solid 2 week period and quite diligently. I see my trigger foods that don't allow me to shut the hand to mouth off, it is now time for me to be mindful of it and by all means necessary I need to control myself and how much food I am putting in my mouth. There is no reason I can't do it. My thyroid doesn't make me eat a whole can of pringles, I wasn't so stressed in Iraq that I should eat a whole can of pringles. REPEAT I AM CAPABLE OF CONTROLLING MY EATING HABITS. Alright Whining/venting done.
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Pigman short course June
Pigman long course August
Indy Mini May
Sturgis Falls HM June
Chicago Maraton Oct 7th (I'm liking this because it is actually on my birthday)
Peregrine charities triathlon Olympic distance Sept
I haven't set anything in stone but these are things that I know I need to keep myself motivated for all winter and spring, as well as fall. I want to continue to lose weight so that a marathon will seem a lot easier than running it at 245
I would like to do a triathlon or 2 at a lighter weight than 245. The lightest I have run a race is 2010 Indy mini and that was 239, I would like to think I will recover better if I race closer to 180! This is my motivation, along with that coveted pair of Holy Grail Jeans!
Sunday, October 16, 2011
Yesterday I was the bomb (as in the good kind) today I was a bomb (but the dud kind). I don't know what it was but today I bought a can of pringles with the intention to enjoy a serving and I did, if a serving=a whole can. Story of my weight loss woes, I workout, I eat well one day, and I manage to calorie bomb the next. 720 calories in the blink of an eye. I am right back on it for tomorrow, I guess for the time being I just have to say no to any sort of temptation. I have a lot of work to do and I can't keep commiting the acts of self sabotage.
Monday will be a good fresh start for me, I am going backpacking in the woods and unless I missed something in Girl Scouts there are no wild cans of Pringles to be had plus backpacking for an hour burns like 1000 calories so at least the mistake of today will be rectified by the calorie burn of tomorrow.
Some facts of why I may struggle a bit for awhile, My BMR for my activity level shows that to maintain my current weight I could eat 2970 calories. So 1500 may be a struggle for awhile, I may have to up it to 1800 for a couple weeks while my body adjusts to these numbers.
Saturday, October 15, 2011
Today I am going to end up only 60 calories over 1500. I am working on doing 2-3 days of being right around 1500 and then 1 day of being closer to 1800. When I was really focusing hardcore on weight loss this worked really well for me and helped me not feel deprived. The nice thing about today's calorie count is it even allowed for an indulgence. I am making a super conscious effort going into winter so that I don't lose the hardwork I have been doing all summer, I don't want to be totally psycho about it either, just conscious. I have a very supportive boyfriend who is on board with my training and health efforts and of course all my terrific sparkfriends who are always supportive!
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