Friday, October 21, 2011
I am frustrated with my lack of weight loss, my constant over eating, followed by feelings of guilt and then more overeating: sound familiar, I'm sure it does I'm guessing about 90% of us sparkers have been or are here. I have long struggled with my weight but it seems like I kept it remotely in check at least until 2005. Then it went up and up and up and up and up, and I lost the ability to control cravings, overeating etc. I feel frustrated because there has gotta be something to blame and there are at least 2 things that happened around November 2005, 1) my thyroid went kaput 2) I had just gotten home from a year long tour in Iraq. I often wonder if these are the "cause" of my weight problems. Thyroid well of course it does affect weight we know that. The tour in Iraq I mean it was stressful but 6-7 years of so stressful that I can't lose weight. Its easy to blame outside sources I think but I wonder how much blame these things deserve. Are they the reason I can't seem to put the brakes on my appetite at times or are they just a patsy that I have named because it is easier than admitting I am capable of controlling myself, but I am allowing myself to fail. Maybe it's a little of both.
Venting done. Action plan is this, I have been tracking my food for a solid 2 week period and quite diligently. I see my trigger foods that don't allow me to shut the hand to mouth off, it is now time for me to be mindful of it and by all means necessary I need to control myself and how much food I am putting in my mouth. There is no reason I can't do it. My thyroid doesn't make me eat a whole can of pringles, I wasn't so stressed in Iraq that I should eat a whole can of pringles. REPEAT I AM CAPABLE OF CONTROLLING MY EATING HABITS. Alright Whining/venting done.