Tuesday, March 16, 2010
I have decided the person that bothers me is not worth my effort in negative energy and I even made an effort to get along with this person tonight. I am really focusing in on my healthy eating again now that I have given up the stress of this person. I am also super focused on my training and how it makes me feel when I run the weight of the world is gone when I do Insanity I feel strong and fit, when I eat healthy I feel like I am invincible. If I focus on all of this, all of the other stuff in the world seems to disappear. I can have true happiness if I focus on myself and what my goals mean to me. The person that was affecting my life is my ex but I realized today that he means nothing and all the hurtful things that he did are his problem not mine, they are his issue and a result of his issues. He is not worth the energy that I was spending on anger and irritation and the apology that I was hoping for will never come because he is selfish, immature, and a negative person who desires to bring people down to his level of self esteem. So tonight for the first time in months I really truly am at peace and feel nothing when it comes to him, not love, hate, anger, irritation, happiness or sadness he is nothing and toward him I feel nothing.