Saturday, December 05, 2009
I am excited to try the things my doctor and I discussed. I went to the health market and got some vegan cheese can't live with out it in some form, but also going to do guacamole for a spread on anything. Taken the first pill its been about 45 minutes I can feel a little bit of the energy boost ie I have a little bit of a fuzzy head, they said that would happen when I started them. I don't necessarily know if it is suppressing my appetite at the moment but I think that will build. Just made up some super awesome chicken breasts for the week. Tonight for dinner or possibly Sunday I am having leg of lamb. I asked my friend Yvonne if I bought one would she make it. She was super awesome and came with me to go get the implant in my arm yesterday it turned out not to be a big deal but it was nice to have someone there for support and in case the numbing agent made me goofy. The whole thing was a good deal 3 years of birth control for free. The place I go has a grant for it if you have high deductible insurance or none. It may also help with my stubborn weight. I've got plenty of working out to do today. I have Army drill today which is why I am up so early, wanted to get stuff done before I came home tired and cranky. Plus I'm nervous about this weight loss drug and I'm stressed about losing weight in general and I wasn't sure where my hat and stuff was, I didn't go to last drill so I wasn't sure where I put all that stuff. There was a reason I went to bed at 8 I know I always get way stressed out before drill and don't sleep worth a crap. I do feel a nice little change in my energy right now although when I pulled the prescription out I was pretty sure I paid 32 dollars for a bottle of breath mints. Its amazing with all the weight related issues in this country that my insurance would not cover these, considering my BMI is 43 I would think they would be happy I am trying to take charge of my weight loss and help me from becoming my mother, whom the insurance company that they have has to have spent a couple million on her by now. I love my Mom I was talking to her about this stuff and we were discussing weight loss and something she saw on the Today show. I told her she needed to try it and we would lose the weight together I told her I loved her and I wanted her healthy and that I didn't want to go down her road. I hope she understands my tough love but the last 10 years with her and the heart problems etc have been hell. I only want her to take care of her new heart and her new lease on life. She understands I told her how much that medicine costs and she told me yes but it costs more to be overweight, ie all the heart problems diabetes etc. I'm nervous about getting my bloodwork back its been awhile since I have had cholesterol tested it was good last time but that was 3 years ago I think. My glucose gets checked once a year at my physical but I know I am fighting genetics hard core on the diabetes I really don't want to get it but I am prepared to control it if I do. I worry about my health a lot I really do want to lose the weight I really have been working on it this year I hope I can do it. I know I can do it it is just getting there that is killing me. The doctor was good and really listened yesterday which is one of my pet peeves with doctors I hate to go to them because I don't think they listen, but I had made a list of everything I have been doing and I stuck to my list and asked my questions and was my own health advocate. Hopefully in a month the tale of the tape will be a lot better.