Friday, November 20, 2009
So this blog isn't about p90x or exercise or diet, but it is about health. It is important to remember who we are and what is important to us in life and what helps us get our spirit back. It is these things that help our success with our diet and exercise. For me I took a motorcycle ride today I haven't had the bike out much in 2 years because of the flood, and because I was in an unhealthy relationship (ie he wasn't into doing anything that didn't involve sitting in front of a television somewhere a bar or at home.) Before the break up and since the break up I have been reclaiming my life, vitality and fitness. I am getting more things done instead of blowing them off. I rode the motorcycle over to his house today he lives outside of town so it was nice glorious ride on this day. I saw him and he seemed to be a pathetic shell of the guy I used to date, he looked like he's gained 10 or 20 lbs he was completely drained of energy his house was in a state of disarray. I felt sorry for him, he's gotten what he wanted (single life) but he's realizing it is a lonely place. I didn't have feelings for him other than empathy, but I realized even though I have been struggling with the break up I have been taking care of myself through fitness and healthy eating. While I've had days where I've slept and cried and slept and wept, I get up the next day and do my workout eat healthy. He hasn't, he didn't look good and I just felt sorry for him, but I only cared about me I loved him but not the him he became and not the him he has become. In the end I hopped on my motorcycle told him good bye and smiled all the way home I may not be with him and I may not be thrilled with the pathetic state of my love life, but I'm happy with me and who I am working to become.