Friday, November 13, 2009
Normally I don't blog 3 days at a time. Day 46 got off work in the morning enjoyed a yummy free Veteran's breakfast it still feels weird to me that I'm in that "club" I know I've served my time and went to war but when I see WW2 vets Vietnam and Korea, I think my tour of duty pales in comparison to the things they've seen and went through. Got a short nap in following breakfast and then my Dad came and we almost finished siding the front of the house just ran out of daylight. It is finally coming together. By the time that was all finished I had no go juice for yoga it was off to bed for a fabulouse 12 hours. Day 47 woke up with no motivation feeling depressed about the break up and the fact that I poured my feelings out to him in a letter and received no response. It made me feel really bad and while I didn't eat my weight in food I did manage to sleep an entire day on the couch except for the hour when I went shopping and got a new exercise band and some Christmas presents for my niece. Back to bed felt really blue. Woke up about 4 in the morning and I said to myself I gotta get it together this is stupid to waste my life away being upset...enter Day 48. Started by cleaning and organizing the kitchen followed it with some raking, followed that with yoga, followed yoga with Legs back and ab ripper, followed that with some shopping to fill up my clean refrigerator. Gonna take a short nap after doing this blog and then do Kenpo. Maybe I just needed that day to be sad, cry and sleep. It made me realize I shouldn't sacrifice my success being upset over his stupid ass. I'm pretty sure that I am meant to be alone but I am going to continue to plug away at being happy with it, besides I got my 2 dogs and my three legged little kitten to cuddle on the couch with me when I am sad it is true that pets make you a happier person. So while I fell off the wagon for one day I decided I want to continue to bring it.