Saturday, June 16, 2012
I can't believe I almost forgot a blog entry for last week! I weigh-in again in three days, lol!
Mike asked if I was "Still doing that Spark thing- blogging?" and I was like OF COURSE! And that's when I realized I hadn't remembered to post for the first time in 22 weeks!
I'm sorry to write that I have been struggling a bit. Nothing tragic, but I'm feeling lazy and less in control of my eating in the last week plus. Yesterday and the day before I ate what can be called "midnight snacks," although last night's might more fairly be called "second dinner." I'm just feeling very hungry (yes, TOM is coming in a week, but also I'm still not eating enough).
To combat this crappy behavior, I went for a nice walk yesterday (only 30 minutes, but it made me feel pretty good) and yesterday and today I completed my calisthenics (still trying to get Michelle Obama arms for my friend's wedding) early in the day, rather than waiting until I'm lazy and over it in the evening. I am two weeks away from the move to Hawaii, so I just want to stay afloat until then- eat cleanly, continue being active, and maintain... Here's a pic Mike sent of the view from our Lanai:
Last weekend, I went to my first library conference (actually billed as an unconference- a casual roundtable type thing) and I blogged about it here:
Feel free to read a short dry blog if you aren't blogged-out after reading this! It was all about professional preparations, so I shared a lot of what I have been going through- seeking jobs, applying, and interviewing. And then on Tuesday, I was offered my #1 pick- a job managing circulation and staffing/developing the student volunteer program at a community college on Oahu. I still can't believe it. I have run elementary libraries for three years, but with the budget crisis, it has practically been a volunteer position (read: paid peanuts). This is a real job with real pay and real benefits. I am elated.
I think I'll end there on that very positive note. I hope all of you are doing well and continuing to fight for your health and happiness. I think the hardest part of the fight goes on in our heads, not what we do to or put in our bodies. I'm forever working on that, but having my Sparkles' support makes this achievable.
Wednesday, June 06, 2012
Still going dudes.
I hope everyone is having a good week... My week has been so filled with ups and downs, and I'm grateful to have a place like SP to share my thoughts. You are all always so helpful and encouraging.
The downs. My parents moved to Texas about a year and a half ago to run their own lunch truck business on a military base. They have gone through so much, and this week, the restaurant that supplies their hot food was 86's by the base for lame reasons (they are so strict on inspections!). It looked like this was the final straw and that my parents were going to move back to California, back to unemployment, roommates, and debt. Miraculously, it looks like things are coming around. They found a military-approved restaurant and now plan to stay. They are incredibly hard working, and I just really want this to work for them.
Mike's grandma Edith was taken to the hospital for shortness of breath, but thankfully, is doing fine now. She was diagnosed with congenital heart disease, which is troubling, but she is so strong and resilient. Here is a photo of her, Mike, Peggy (Mike's mom), and me from Mike's graduation last month:
I know that people get older and have issues like this, but I just adore her and hate that she has to go through this. She is an excellent cook, eternal optimist, sharp-witted woman and the only person who calls me "Natty," which I really like.
Okay, the downs are out of the way. Whew... The ups are as follows: I have a second interview for the community college library job on Oahu and the University of Oahu Library director called me to schedule an interview for next week. I feel like I might be forgetting other good things, but it's been a rollercoaster for sure.
Health: Hmm... To tell the truth, I've been in a bit of a funk since Mike left three weeks ago, and I have not been active. I take some short walks and do calisthenics, but I believe I am losing weight because I am still eating 1200 calories a day. I am not in maintenance mode at all. CyndiBunnie had great suggestions for adding the additional calories to my day, but honestly, I can't get over the guilt of eating anything but lean protein, whole grains, fruit, and veg. Like real, deep guilt. I want to find a good balance where I'm much more active and enjoying 1800 calories a day to maintain this weight, but after dieting like this since January 1st, I'm finding it difficult (please don't hate me).
Food: I'm eating really well, just not enough for maintenance. Tonight I made this recipe for moo goo gai pan: http://rasamalaysia.com/moo-goo-gai-pan/2/ , but added in some onion and red bell pepper. It was really nice. One miss was overnight oats. I LOVE me some oatmeal for breakfast, but it's been too warm lately, so I tried it with rolled oats (it tasted nice, but was like mush), and later steel cut oats (too tough). I am like overnight oatmeal Goldilocks- looking for overnight oats that are juuust right. Here's a pic of the overnight steel cut oats with soy milk, nectarine. dried cranberries, and cinnamon:
One last thing (to end on a positive note)- I came across a picture from last fall of myself, Mike, and his old boss after a work softball game, and holy moly is it awful (thanks, Facebook!). It makes me proud of how far I've come.
Thursday, May 31, 2012
Here are some pictures from Las Vegas... My best friend Dulce had her bachelorette party, and my sister came out from North Carolina. We had a freaking blast... I will say this- I knew we'd be drinking quite a bit, so I made the decision to NOT splurge elsewhere (no buffets, no 3 a.m. doughnuts, no slacking on exercise). In other words, I chose one vice and stuck to it!
I ate egg whites at breakfast, salads at lunch, and watched my portions at dinner. We also had so much fun at the pool Saturday morning- dancing and swimming for hours before we went out that night. Champagne was NOT going to take me down this week, lol!
My sister and I at our hotel:
All of us at a lounge in Cosmopolitan
A picture I would have NEVER shared in the past- a BATHING SUIT shot:
AC/DC Penny slot. I love Vegas, lol:
It was a great time. I felt positively confident in positively tiny dresses and even had fun at a POOL in a BATHING SUIT. I wish I could bottle the feeling.
In week 21, I will continue strength training and I will begin to eat a little more. I've read this elsewhere (and I used to shake my head, but now I can relate), that it is HARD to go from 1200 calories a day to 1600+... It's like adding an additional meal!
LOVE to all my Spark Peeps!
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
I have been tracking and walking and this happened in 10 days. The Spring 5% challenge ended last week, so I decided to start weighing in on Mondays again (it keeps me honest over the weekends, lol). But on Sunday I went to a graduation (with a burger and chips/dip/cookie lunch) and a grad party that night (taco man, margarita, champagne, and candy), so I was afraid to weigh in yesterday... But I got my courage up after eating well and walking around a mall yesterday.
Here's a pic from the party with my bonus sister (Mike's sis) Pam and my niece Taylor:
135 is a significant weight for me. When I was in seventh grade, they weighed all of the students during P.E. Weight had never bothered me before that day. I really thought I was the same size as my friends until the teacher announced "Beatrice, 110 pounds... Natalie 135 pounds... (enter more names and tiny weights here)" I was mortified/horrified/supremely embarrassed. Of course 135 was not overweight or bad, but it made me think about my weight (negatively) for the first time. I have been a dieter from that day on. Grapefruit diet, cabbage soup diet, hard boiled eggs and canned tuna protein diet, weird made-up deprivation diets, The Zone, Weight Watchers, and it finally happened here with Spark People.
So now, 15 years later, I am back at that seventh grade weight. It's strange and wonderful and scary. Someone is going to come over and teach me maintenance now, right?
Love to you all,
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