Monday, December 05, 2011
Be gone, oh evil lazy bad streak! Be gone forever!
*Wish i knew a Harry Potter spell......... or something*
I made Monday a good day. Yes, *i* did. Because we have the power to do that for ourselves, don't we? We just so conveniently forget, or lose faith and belief in ourselves. My diet plan has been on track today and then i had the urge to do SOMEthing so i picked out a BodyRock workout that hopefully wouldn't break my spirit and did this one -
Glad i did because i got through it at a steady pace, and now i feel good. Got those endorphins-a-pumpin' :)
On top of that good news, I have acquired a treadmill for a short while. I am 'babysitting' my Mums treadmill over the Christmas period so she can sort the house out for all the family coming around and have the extra space. I'm more than happy to babysit because it gives me the opportunity to put it to good use! I did day 1 of week 1 of C25K tonight, so yay! This should really help with my... levels :P
I've been in quite a bad place to be honest. And the nightmares i have had in the past week.... woah. To cut a long story short, I had some stresses in work that i wasn't stressed on the surface about, but in my subconscious. And I've been really sad. But I don't want to fill my blog with that, because it's on the up, and I have broken the bad streak i was stuck in, atleast to start the week and I plan to carry that on now and take action to live happily and do the things that make me happy.
Oh and my diet plan has been spot on all week - except for Saturday dinner and Sunday dinner. Chinese happened on both of those nights. :-/ They will NOT be happening this week though. And i am down 1.5 lbs. Would have been much more without the Chinese i know, so that, plus exercise, i should be quids in. Or pounds down, whichever would be good. :P
Let's go December !
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
I like the saying that goes something like "Just like everything else, this too shall pass"
It's the "This too shall pass" which is the important part. Like any bad times we go through, they will pass and we will eventually get through them. I'm thinking of the correct saying as a tattoo someday.
Jeeez.... honestly i wish this present time and struggle i'm having would just HURRY UP AND PASS! Leave me alone PLEASE! :(
I just can't find it. I can't find the oomph, the need, the want, my mojo.
This is not good.
I totally failed on the BodyRock workout i attempted tonight. I liked how it was a nice mixture of exercises, with some good cardios through it too. www.bodyrock.tv/2011/11/28/it-will-r
ain-sweat-1000-rep-workout/ I knew 10 was too many rounds for me, so i thought i'd go with the "BEGINNER SUGGESTION" of 5 rounds. Pfft... well 3rd round and i was done. DONE. Wiped. Finished. That's sad. Awful. I'm not supposed to be a beginner. :( LESS than a beginner can do better than that.
I've tried lightening the situation up with ... I didn't totally fail because i DID attempt it and i did manage to do at least a stupid 19 minute workout.
Doesn't make me feel any better though.
I'm super snappy with my husband, and i know it's only because i'm super frustrated with myself. I'm so hungry.... but it's NOT real hunger, it's just greed and illusion. I was so not working out tonight and he got all stern and mean with me. Ordering me to go and change so i would workout. There was nearly even an argument over it. I've asked him to help me and push me all he can.
I'm sorry. :(
JUST HURRY UP AND PASS.... PLEASE!!!
Saturday, November 26, 2011
Argh. I'm here. I miss everybody... and feel awful for being away. I want my friends to know I'm here and thinking about them, and I'm gonna be keeping up a bit better... I have been thinking of everyone, I just think of how I'm no good for people when I'm in the frame of mind i've been in, so it's best to stay on the side lines. It's not being a good friend by coming here to everyone who is doing such a wonderful job, eating things their bodies are thriving from and taking in goodness from, and treating their bodies right and exercising well, getting fitter and leaner and stronger... and i'm like "Well yeah i had McDonalds for breakfast with an extra hash brown, lots of coffee with dunking biscuits, then a large portion of junk food for lunch, then a huge pizza plus the husbands leftovers for dinner, then some packets of crisps and biscuits before bed"... I mean come on that is ridiculous right?
I want to be honest and show where it's at.
I weighed myself this morning. I didn't want to but thought, I might as well see what the damage is. I weighed in at 11 stone 2.5 lbs. - 156.5 lbs. Ouchies! This is motivating for me because i do NOT want to hit those 160s again. Also, I'm not happy in the 150s. This is a good thing though? Because it shows i need to start kicking my ass again. Stop slacking and being carefree, and feeding my body with such CRAP.
Having being quite large, my body still has the fat cells, because once you grow them, then your body keeps them forever, waiting to fill them with lovely fat one day again.... right??
Monday is a fresh start for both me and my husband. He's also lacking on the diet approach... i mean, he's diabetic (type 2) so needs to be taking care of himself.... and for fricks sake, if i'm not doing this for me, i should be doing this to take care of HIM!
I got my hair cut yesterday. I've wanted to have some shaved parts for a while now, but only just gathered up the courage. I was sooooo so excited and i'm HELLA pleased with the results. Might as well show you hey?
Honestly? I LOVE it! It may not be anybody's cup of tea but wahh... I've never been SO happy with a hairstyle and you know what?? This feels like ME. I've always wanted a short cut, hell I've always wanted to shave my head and have spikey parts i can play with... and eeeeek i'm so excited with this!! It may even be a little masculine but you know what? I'm masculine anyway. LOL.
I'm gonna go try and catch up with everyone now.
I love my BodyRocking, i do. Love it love it. I don't mind having different hosts there either, although my heart is with Zuzana always, i don't mind. BUT. Y'know... i love seeing guys with some muscle... and just big guys in general often 'do it' for me (don't tell the hubby!:P) but.... meh, I am just not digging Sean, Freddy's brother, both doing the workouts ... aaaand also the workout tag shots. Like close up of Sean's chest. :-/ I feel awful and i'm sorry, but maybe it's because he's just put right infront of my eyes, I'm just not digging him very much.
Anywho's ... my face is full of spots. Part hormonal but really, it's got to be all the crap i've been eating. My face is screaming out like "PLEASE FEED YOURSELF RIGHT!!"
Oh and i did mention BodyRock for an actual reason. I'm thinking that it's not enough for me, as much as i don't like to admit it, i need more physical activity for those times when i do overindulge. The good news is that my Hot Yoga friend is back from Las Vegas in a week and a half, to continue our hot yoga AND get started with zumba classes. So that's gotta be some motivation right there.
Oh and over the past couple of weeks i bought two fancy dresses. Exciting stuff? lol, i really like 'em anyways. Probably wear them around xmas time. They're both dark colours and i didn't even realise!
Ok and to finish, a picture of me rocking my new 'do.
Monday is the day!!
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
I'm having different aches each day. It's a bit weird. :-/
My knees seem to be feeling a bit weak (in turns) when i decide to use a springin my step. My right shoulder (the one that hurts during certain exercises) was really sore and felt hot on Sunday night. I'd hurt my other shoulder last week a bit.
Hmmm. It's not normal for me to get little aches or... what feel like sprains in places. I'm torn between two ideas. The first is that my body is falling apart, i.e punishing me for not having worked out for a week. (Although i'm glad to see it's ONLY been a week, PHEW) The other idea is that maybe i'm coming down with something and my body needs to rest............
Heh, let's not go making excuses.
The people here are beyond amazing.
I'm not on board yet....... but it won't be long. I just feel a bit.... lazy.
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