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Back From Prague!

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Hello there!

I have lots to catch up with everyone so I gotta find the time later!

Just wanted to blog, i'm working. I think i may have overindulged a little too much because i have spent today doubled over with really sharp tummy pains. I'm getting through the day though, and it's better to be at work taking my mind off it rather than be in bed feeling sorry for myself!!

I'm a bit scared to weigh myself right now, but it has to be done. I'm done with eating crap now and need to get back to some tough workouts.

The way i'm feeling right now, I fancy doing a bloody hunger strike or fast... i haven't ate all day as i'm scared to - as i've had visits to the toilet lots (TMI - apologies!) yet i'm still all bunged up inside? Will just ride it out for a while me thinks.

I have lots of pictures to share with everyone and hopefully a little burpee vid - which isn't great but it was an adrenaline rush to do it haha! Ciao for now!

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GEMINIGEM6 9/28/2011 3:43PM

    Glad to have you back. Sorry you're not feeling well. Hope you feel better. :)

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FITJEANS 9/28/2011 12:05PM

    love your english accent, its awesome. I feel you chica , you can do this. I havnt been eating crappy, but im ready to get back to more serious workouts bcuz i am capable of it. I am gonna take advantage of all the things that i can physically do, cuz there are people who can not and, dont worry about that bloody scale. Mind over Matter, you already look amazingly beautiful emoticon

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PENFOLDROCKS 9/28/2011 6:51AM

    Welcome back!
I agree, don't weigh yourself now - oh, unless you want to lose LOADS in the next few weeks!
Sorry to hear that you're having *ahem* troubles - maybe will help accelarate the weight loss?!

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ESBELL 9/27/2011 8:59PM

    Glad you are back - I hope you get to feeling better soon.

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TRUELYMI 9/27/2011 4:17PM

    Helloooooo - sorry to hear that you're not well! Hope your trip was adventurous and F-U-N! Hey, I'm curious on the burpee-vid ;) I'll be travelling the next days and planning on video some burpees far away too ;)

Get well soon!

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DAVEYSHADOW 9/27/2011 3:47PM

    Hope you are feeling better now! Sounds like you had a good time in Pargue though

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SULFABABY 9/27/2011 1:30PM

    Welcome back! Can't wait to see the vid. :) Hope you feel better soon. Don't force yourself to weigh if you don't want. Jump back on the horse and weigh in a week. You can do it because you are awesome!!

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-POOKIE- 9/27/2011 11:48AM

    *hugs* welcome back x

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BAZNCAZ 9/27/2011 11:17AM

    Hope you both had a great time.
Good to have you back.
If you do not manage you know what
you will have to get D/H to squeeze your head. HA HA HA.

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    oh shoot, double post! SORRY! or.. well.. triple now.. LOL!

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    I'm sorry you're having intestinal issues!! I know that now that I've cut beef and pork out of my diet, EVERY TIME I have just a little bite it throws my body into a downward spiral! It's crazy! I hope you start feeling better soon! Maybe extra water or green tea would help you? =]

Can't wait to see the pictures and a BURPEE VIDEO! =D I've seriously THOUGHT about making a video of myself doing a burpee for Erin, but at the same time, I think I'm too self conscious/embarrassed haha.. Maybe your video might 'spark' a fire under my belly! =p

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    I'm sorry you're having intestinal issues!! I know that now that I've cut beef and pork out of my diet, EVERY TIME I have just a little bite it throws my body into a downward spiral! It's crazy! I hope you start feeling better soon! Maybe extra water or green tea would help you? =]

Can't wait to see the pictures and a BURPEE VIDEO! =D I've seriously THOUGHT about making a video of myself doing a burpee for Erin, but at the same time, I think I'm too self conscious/embarrassed haha.. Maybe your video might 'spark' a fire under my belly! =p

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Pics of the new 'Do

Saturday, September 17, 2011

I took some photo's of my hair the day after getting it done. This just proves that i am SO awful at taking pictures - or being photogenic or something. I shall post what i took, and no, the amount of pics i taken is not in vain, it's because i kept thinking "Ok the NEXT one has got to be ok to share..." but seriously, they didn't get any better. I am awfully un-photogenic. You'll see.

I don't need to post before pictures, do i? They're on my Sparkpage looking all blonde.

This is a huge difference, lol. Please feel free to give your honest opinion, how you think it looks, and if i suit being a newly-brown. I'm enjoying it. Although i've had LOTS of mixed reactions, good and bad opinions - and i'm cool with both.

Here we go!!

I took the sides to show how short i've gone. I've always wanted really short, but never had the courage - I'm finally getting there!! :D I am LOVING having short hair having always had my hair all the way down my back.
I got somebody else to take a pic to see if they'd be any better than my crappy ones haha..

Aaaand i just washed my hair tonight - and it's always different doing it yourself isn't it? So i took a picture of that outcome too.... LOL

I....... didn't do it as well as the hairdresser did. Maybe i'll get a hang of it soon.

Happy Saturday peoples!

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HEEEYBOOBOO 9/21/2011 9:00AM

  OMG I just saw this!!! I absolutely love the cut and color you fox! I like how it's assymetrical - such a flattering cut. And btw - you look like a skinny minny in your pictures. I love how that blue polo engulfs you LOL. Also love your guns in the second to last picture.

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ADEWYN 9/20/2011 5:19AM

    I love short and sassy!!.. and the color is great...i went from blonde to that color when i lived in massachusetts i pulled in my parking space and my neighbor came over yelling that it was my spot it was Adewyns LOL i had to tell it was me becuase she was on a rant and didnt realize i chnged my color lol...oy vey!

LOL enjoy the new do its great!

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GEMINIGEM6 9/19/2011 8:55PM

    SOOO cute!! I love it! I wore my hair blonde for a long time too and when I went to black it was a drastic change!! I loved it though and am still wearing it. :) I love the darker color on you!

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-POOKIE- 9/19/2011 9:12AM

    It does make you look very different!

I do think its cute though and you do suit it.

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RICHILA 9/19/2011 12:09AM

    Your haircut is so cute!

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AGRLNKY 9/18/2011 10:56PM

    I like it! You look great!

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SCHENPOSSIBLE 9/18/2011 10:06PM

    That's a sharp cut. You look great

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SULFABABY 9/18/2011 3:54PM

    Tres chic! Looks lovely on you :)

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DAVEYSHADOW 9/18/2011 12:02PM

    I just about get the hang of a new hairdo just as it needs cutting again LOL. The colour and cut suit you!

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PENFOLDROCKS 9/18/2011 11:38AM

    Lovely! Are you naked in the first pic?! hahahaha
Check out your collarbones - super slim
Hair looks great too

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ESBELL 9/18/2011 11:17AM

    LOVE that deep color - and short is so sassy on you !

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MZDOLPHIN 9/18/2011 10:05AM

    wow ! you really look different

I've been thinking of cutting my straight long hair lately.. I feel like I need to make some changes.. wanted to have a bang for a change but haven't had the time yet.

Really love your new hair

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LIOCORO 9/18/2011 8:39AM

    Aww I love the new do, suits you really well. Looking good!

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VYVIENN 9/18/2011 6:43AM

    I think it's cute and suits you very well! You look like someone who's up for anything, which, of course, you are!! emoticon

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BAZNCAZ 9/18/2011 3:29AM

    It suits YOU.

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NEWMAC2011 9/17/2011 11:52PM

    I LOVE it! It's really different in a great way. We can never do our hair like the hair dresser does it. I actually liked how I did my haircut better than he did it. I know that when I get to goal I'm getting something really different (don't know what yet) but since I'm a natural blonde, I won't be changing the color.

Enjoy the new you. You look terrific!

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B-LYNN1ST 9/17/2011 8:00PM

    I love the cut. And I love the color. It makes you face pop.
Some colors washes people out, but this color is making a statement. I love it...

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ERPARA 9/17/2011 7:49PM

    Rockin haircut!! - now you have less to pull up :)

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MNGIRLIE 9/17/2011 6:10PM

    Looks super cute!!

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SPACELION 9/17/2011 6:01PM

    Oooooooohhh I'm loving the new hair!! You look ever so trendy haha, I've always wished I had the balls to have a dramatic/awesome haircut with different layers and things, you look amazing! I lovee the dark on you too, your eyes are very blue so I bet it makes them stand out loads when you're in natural lighting.
Lookin' good! I'm a big fan of the new hair :D

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    I love your new DO! SUPER CUTE! I've always had really long hair too, so I can so relate to you! I don't know if I'll ever chop it all off... but I wont say NEVER because it could always happen! haha.. i chopped quite a bit off at the end of my pregnancy with my son due to hormones and ridiculous heat, so really, anything can happen =p

Screw the "bad" comments.. you look HOT! =]

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CRYSTAL8488 9/17/2011 4:37PM

    I LOVE that hairstyle! It looks very good on you. emoticon

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LIGHTHOUSE0403 9/17/2011 4:19PM

  Very cute & sophisticated! emoticon

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Pullups Week -1 Day 3 And... Hair

Thursday, September 15, 2011

I've been slowly keeping up with the 20 pullups challenge - if anything. Slowly! I did day 3 just now.
1 pullup
1 negative
1 pullup
1 negative
max reps

Happy i did the two pullups on the whole. The final 'max' part was 1 and a half pullups, then 2 more assisted. I didn't count the assisted. 3 pullups in one session is the most i've ever done - and it's an improvement from being able to knock out one single pull up and then no more for the rest of the day, to three pullups from standing in the same session.

I want to work out tomorrow. WANT to. I have a workout suggested to me so i think that's how it'll go. (Thanks Nina!)

I got a new haircut yesterday. Completely new. I've been pondering over it for months... months and months. My recent new hairstyle in March, was a stepping stone to this. I have gone shorter again and.... I've only even been blonde my whole life. Really light blonde as a child and then my hair has gone gradually darker as i've gotten older. It's now naturally a dull blonde. WELL............ I just had my hair dyed brown ! Shock horror hehe. I don't think blondes have more fun anyways (hah) so i can see for myself now?

I've had mixed reactions from everybody... too much to talk about right now. I have tried taking some pictures to share today but really... i am so bad at taking pictures. I'm doing to bed for now anyways but will share my new haircut (and colour!) tomorrow... no matter how awful i take them haha!

Thank you to everyone for their much-needed and much-appreciated support. xxx

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ERPARA 9/16/2011 7:01PM

    That is awesome - congrats! Improving every day - I love how that feels! Especially with these pullups - I never put too much into even trying to do one because i didn't feel like I could... but I'm glad I started the challenge - it shows me once again that our brain is not as strong as our muscles :)
or something profound like that lol
Yay on the haircut - I love getting a haircut!

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-POOKIE- 9/16/2011 8:49AM

    Looking forward to seeing!


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HEEEYBOOBOO 9/16/2011 8:42AM

  I just read your blog from the other day and I think the overall consensus was you are awesome and we all have our down days. And if we stay steady - it would be IMPOSSIBLE not to reach our goals. :)

I am also superrrr envious of your pull-up skills. I can do one... maybe... if I jump into it LOL.

Don't forget how much of an inspiration you are to so many people. And also don't forget that we are human - prone to make mistakes, but also able to bounce back completely. You are resilient, inspiring, and you now have a sexy new haircut!! Keep it going girl!

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VYVIENN 9/16/2011 5:29AM

    There you go, Warrior Princess, I knew you had it in you! *beam*!!!

Looking forward to the new 'do! Once upon a time, I accidentally dyed my hair brown and loved it. Sadly, I could never figure out the shade again, so I've left it blonde since then.

Lemme just get this quote from Little Women (the most recent movie with Kirsten Dunst and Winona Ryder) out of the way: "Oh Jo, your hair! Your one true beauty!" emoticon emoticon

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DAVEYSHADOW 9/16/2011 4:41AM

    I have always been dark haired, and I reckon it is best!

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PENFOLDROCKS 9/16/2011 3:54AM

    Yay! Well done on the pullups - and photos please!
Have a great Friday x

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TRUELYMI 9/16/2011 2:00AM

    WOW - superwoman, pull ups ... your my absolute hero!!!! sounds as your mood is getting better ;)
How can you mention your new haircut without posting a picture?!?!? HAHA, I guess that leaves everyone curious ;)
Have a happy day!

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FEED_ME_SHOES 9/15/2011 4:48PM

    You warrior! I just read your last blog and was about to leave a comment when i read this one. Can i just bring your attention to the part where you stated there was no more progress to be made. Like seriously, I think you better take that back. Also cant wait to see your new haircut!

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SPACELION 9/15/2011 4:17PM

    OMG you did a real full pull up?!?! *pouts and seethes with envy* I've alwaysss wanted to be able to do a pull up you BAMF! What is this challenge?

Can't wait to see your hair! :D


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Wednesday, September 14, 2011

*you really don't need to read this, this is just me making a sort of diary entry*

I'm writing this from my phone in work! Our internet is down so i've been exploring my blackberry a bit more and have taken the time to load spark! Its not too good with sparkpages tho so wont be able to spark properly.

I'm due a blog then hey? I'm not feeling great at the moment. I don't like coming here and saying things like that, because i do have really brilliant spark friends here.. But everyone is so great, and doing so well, going strong and doing themselves proud. And i feel like a drag. I feel like being here when i'm not happy and doing-good me, then i'm just a drain and positivity and i'm not helpful or a good friend. I'm sorry for that.

I'm not so down like i was last week, but i haven't had the oomph to get changed and workout. Nothing has 'tickled my fancy' and i've just been in 'can't be bothered' mode... I can't be bothered working up a sweat and i can't be bothered eating the right foods which i know are good for me !!!

Part of my lack of drive is because its so much harder for me to lose weight now. When i had lots to lose, it was great having a loss every week, i could get away with the odd slip up or missed workout because on the whole i was good- better than my old lifestyle. These days its so hard. Its so hard to lose just a pound or two... When last year they were coming off in the 3s and 4s! Every slip up holds me back just as every missed workout does. I'm sorry to go on, i just need to write it out because i wasnt even sure what was bugging me. I can be kind of lazy.. Not workwise but when its working on myself then i can get lazy, especially if i'm not getting far. Will i ever be satisfied? Im kind of pleased with my arms and legs, but my belly really gets to me. Its my own fault for getting so big, growing all that extra skin and fat, and now im stuck with it, i havent met one single person who used to be obese and has a flat stomach. Sur there'll be stories online but how many of those people can you have a proper chat with ? I feel like they'r not real people, or they are just advertisements for some product or surgery.

I'm blabbing now. This time will pass i know. I do feel like i'm at a wall now and my success is finished now - there is no more progress for me to make. Don't get me wrong i am mostly happy with my results right now but i want more? Yes i know - go out thjere and bloody well get it then. It's driving me crazy too that all this back pedalling just moves me backwards and is making more work for me when this mood changes and i'm in work-hard mode again but... Uuughh!!!

To end looking up - my male love/hate work colleague asked me what i fancy for lunch today. I told him i need to stop eating all together, he asked why. I told him i'd just ate nothing but junk lately, and he said -bless him, he can be nice on the odd occasion- 'oh well you look really well for it!' So that made me smile.

Soon. Sometime soon.

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VYVIENN 9/16/2011 5:33AM

    Oh, psssst... btw: if you want to see the ridiculous effect of photoshopping in action, check out Orlando Bloom on the October issue of US Men's Health! He's friggin' HUGE! Plus, his head looks like it should be on an action figure... well, point is... as ESBELL said, a lot of those "inspirational" pics we see are as real as a thirty dollar bill...

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FEED_ME_SHOES 9/15/2011 4:45PM

    Hurray for awesome work colleagues! Although i have always been small and never really had any real weight to lose (more vanity than anything) i have really bad cellulite and stretch marks. And it totally grosses me out because i totally dont get it. What im trying to show is that nobodys perfect. Not even those thin people with no bellies! Also i think you are totally awesome, such a supportive and inspiring friend. You my friend are a true Bodyrocker! x

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SPACELION 9/15/2011 4:16PM

    Yeah I can totally relate to you on the belly thing.. It's so horrible seeing people with perfectly flat stomachs and being heavier or who clearly don't work out. I don't feel like it's in proportion to my body.. But that said your belly is practically flat! I actually felt envious looking at your last entry. I don't know what the hell is with mine, I wish I knew whether it was skin or fat.. It just doesn't look in proportion to my body. I have better days than others when it comes to my stomach and boobs, but it does get you down.. I can totally relate. Sorry this isn't particularly helpful, hope you're feeling better soon poppet.

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GEMINIGEM6 9/14/2011 9:44PM

    I don't really know that I have anything better to say than everyone else on here already has. I also don't know what it's like to lose a lot of weight and be in the stage you are. But I WILL say that I care about how you're feeling and sending you positive vibes. Like you said, this will pass. :) I'm here for you. emoticon

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SULFABABY 9/14/2011 9:39PM

    Haha aww that was sweet of your colleague (and you ARE looking well). Seems that quite a few of us are in a 'blah' phase now, yeah? Rest assured that we want to read about how you're doing, no matter if everything is just peachy or if you're in a funk. You've cheered us on in our down days and we are here now to cheer you on. You will get past it. :) We'll get past it together.

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BAZNCAZ 9/14/2011 12:44PM

    You are now under my HYPNOTIC spell. And you will do exactly what I tell you to do.
You will snap out of it. (NOW) emoticon

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    What would be the point of SPARK if you couldn't share your downsides along with your self praises and success????????


I can so relate with you on the whole tight belly thing... I always had a "pooch" belly before my pregnancy and then my belly got HUGE, my skin RIPPED, and now here I am left with an extra several inches of ripped open skin... 2 years later =[ It's rather depressing when I think about it!


Look at that belly right now! Look at how much SMALLER it is in comparison to how it was before! YOU did that! It was ALL you and no-body else! You put in the time and all the dang hard work and you should absolutely be giving yourself the credit!

Another thing, I've read in multiple places, is that "6 packs aren't made in the gym, they're made in the kitchen!" You have you REALLY hone down your diet when it comes to the final "vanity pounds". That's kind of the point where I'm at now! Everytime you put food in your mouth, think to yourself "is THIS going to get me there? Are there ANY other choices?" 9 times out of 10 there IS a better choice! So go with that!

Also, maybe you should start tracking your progress in different ways? Instead of focusing on the pounds, maybe try focusing on a fitness goal.. I know Nina is doing pull up challenges.. and another friend, mistyblue, is doing burpees! That way you can track your STAMINA rather than your body shape, because really, our bodies will ALWAYS be somewhat the same.. maybe smaller, maybe a slightly different shape, but we've got to come to a point in our heads where we accept ourselves for WHAT we are and focus on the things we CAN change! (like stamina and strength and our own personal choices!)

Blah blah blah, all that blabbering of my OWN set aside, I think you're doing GREAT! Do YOUR BEST to keep up with your training and making healthy choices and you WILL reach your goals =]

I've been saying this a lot lately, it seems, but I'll repeat it again! You can't take back or change the choices you made YESTERDAY, an HOUR ago, 10 MINUTES ago. What you CAN change is what you do about it next! Lets focus on the tomorrows and we WILL improve =]

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ESBELL 9/14/2011 10:04AM

    It's not always sunshine & roses & that's okay. You have made terrific progress, and are maintaining well which inspires many people. Give your body some time to catch up with your brain, and when it's ready it will give up the last few pounds.

I do NOT believe most of the toned tummy ads any more. Either they have are professional models posing as previously obese, or have had surgery to tighten back up, or have been photo shopped to death. Our bodies don't work that way, and it's okay. We need to be the best *ME* that we can - not aspire to look like a picture we see on the internet.

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-POOKIE- 9/14/2011 9:01AM


Who made me read this blog?
Who made me reply?

Not you certainly!! I chose to reply and be damned sure if I thought it was a drag I wouldnt have done!!

I really understand, I lost the amount of weight I need to re-loose now, in about a month or so when I was big... now Im faffing about, eating rubbish and maintaining the extra weight, not losing.
Its hard without the gratification of loss, the excitement of it.

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DAVEYSHADOW 9/14/2011 8:08AM

    emoticon you are never a drag. We all have walls to contend with. When the journey has been so long it is hard, but pull out some photo's of the old new and compare them with the new and reflect on how you feel about you and your life now compared with then I am sure that will help and remind you of where you don't want to go back to!

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RAINBOWCHOC 9/14/2011 7:59AM

    to add my bit to the others is to say "well done" for blogging and not eating a chocolate bar.
hope it passes soon, try drinking some flavoured water today, it makes a change and you do yourself some good too!
best wishes, Sandra

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VYVIENN 9/14/2011 7:43AM

    There's a lesson from the economists in all this: everything comes in cycles. And one from the botanists: everything comes in cycles. Same thing? Must be true then... first, I find this comforting. No matter how bleh we feel, eventually, the phase will end (thank goodness!). Secondly, we tend to forget that no matter how technologically advanced we are, we are still subject to Mother Nature, and she tells us with the waning of light and dropping temps that it's time to slow things down. Way down. The only thing that surprises me at this time of year is that annually, people are surprised again and again when it happens. Don't beat yourself up over it. You have a vacation to plan for pretty soon, don't ya? Incidentally, my one and only piece of advice for that is this: stay away from anything that remotely looks like cake in Czech. Czech cake is a disgusting abomination of everything that makes a delicious dessert worth taking a fall for and on top contains more sugar and food coloring than Easter peeps (or whatever those marshmallow things are my fellow Americans like to indulge in).

Secondly, a remark. Luckily, you're my friend, not my therapist. Therefore, you get to use all your resources here on SP even when you're not being superfitness crazy mama - in fact, just yesterday, I kind of coerced one of my friends in RL to finally sign up here because she was complaining how she can't find motivation to work out! That's the other side of the coin on SP for me, the ability to let off some steam and gleefully benefit from other Sparkies' energy to avoid drowning in the swamp of doldrums. You'll pay it back eventually, if you haven't paid it forward.

So eat, drink and be not merry. It's ok. emoticon

Psssst... instead of saying you can't reach your goals, how about shooting for some completely different ones? I seem to remember there's an ongoing pullup challenge, and something about a long-forgotten try with yoga...

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JOANNA202 9/14/2011 7:38AM

    I know you said not to read that but tough! It's definitely important to blog when you're feeling down as well - that's when everyone around can feel useful to the super woman (and people like me can feel that it even happens to the best of us!) But seriously, hang on in there - you know you have all the tools at your disposal to get going again when you feel like it. I wonder if it would be worth looking at your motivation again? I suspect everyone has different motivations at different sizes and if you're using the wrong ones, it's never going to give you the drive you had before?

Whatever works for you, make sure you keep come back here and blogging about the doldrums, and eventually they really will go away!


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PENFOLDROCKS 9/14/2011 7:30AM

    Ah - bless you lovely. I think there must be something in the water; I'm feeling really lethargic atm and the lack of new BR workouts doesn't help. I ran today, but it was super hard. I was going to follow it up with a workout, but am feeling bleurgh, so don't think I will.
I've been thinking to myself - "I wonder what would happen if I went back to eating what I want, but kept on exercising" - I think that's because although I do see results when I'm super-strict, I can be semi-strict and not see any change, so think - meh - can't be arsed!
We're off to the Lakes in October, so my plan is to exercise, but eat pretty much what I want, and then take stock at the end.
You're still making some good choices - you're still here! so that's something. Just hang on in there and the trough will pass and we'll be back riding that peak!
Huggggggs xx

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I Don't Know?

Wednesday, September 07, 2011

I just wanted to write. I don't usually... at times when I'm struggling or .. when I'm coming out of struggle.

I don't really know what to say either, but wanted to write some feelings down.

Tuesday, I don't know what happened to me. I think it had something to do with my rest day, Monday. I had taken pictures, posted them and compared them to the last photo's. I don't think i liked what i saw much. I also weighed in. I worked my ass off last week - plus i worked my weekend off too... two workouts on Sunday for cryin' out loud?! And then my weigh in on Monday tells me i GAINED a pound.

emoticon I knowwww i know.... if this was somebody else, I could give the right advice, tell them to keep their chin up... don't worry over ONE SINGLE POUND, look at how well you're doing, etc etc etc. WHY are we no good at putting our OWN good advice to good use?

I don't know what happened. I don't usually let weigh ins get to me. I *try* my best not to let them dictate my mood afterwards but.... alas, I am human. I went down.... Workout? Nah. So i ate instead.

I don't recall eating like that before. I don't really want to talk about that.

I could not persuade myself to lighten up. I HATE being like that. All's it took this afternoon were some various kind words here at Spark, and some magic words suggesting a workout for me... I'm glad i re-read it, because it made me ask myself "well then, why not?" ... All of a sudden, there was some light!

I tell ya, we are flippin' weird.

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TRUELYMI 9/12/2011 1:08PM

    Hey gorgeous! Feeling better again? Hope your mood is up again - if not so, I'll send some positive energy right away! emoticon

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DAVEYSHADOW 9/8/2011 4:42PM

    emoticon CHIN UP!

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-POOKIE- 9/8/2011 11:26AM

    Hey, I think this battle... and cliche as that word is, it IS a battle, is going to continue for our whole lives.

Im desperately searching for balance at the moment and Im not finding it,

Feel free to drop me a private PM if you want to talk about eating issues, I have had issues with various episodes and types of eating behaviours and will happily offer a completely non-judgemental ear for you.

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VYVIENN 9/8/2011 1:23AM

    Yeeeeeeeap, but it's all good weird. emoticon It's been a sucky week for me, too, being all dark and wet. All I want is to eat Nutella on toast and sleep, and then I kick myself for being a lazy ass.

I don't know why we're made to hold ourselves to higher standards than everyone else. Maybe it's to make us more sympathetic to the plight of those we perceive to be worse off. Best thing would be if we could develop a method to put a gag on our inner critic and send her on holiday when she gets too much (beeeatch!!).

Meanwhile, we can look at our journey to fitness like a hike up a mountain. There'll be stretches that are easy and beautiful, but there may also be areas where the trees have fallen over and bolders block the path, but if we keep on plodding away, we'll be rewarded with the most gorgeous view from the top. Let's get up there together. emoticon

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GEMINIGEM6 9/7/2011 9:26PM

    Girl you KNOW I understand! I just wrote about this kind of thing yesterday. Lol. I know how you feel about gaining even a pound and how it can make you feel down. But, we shouldn't be so hard on ourselves. And our weight flucuates like crazy anyway. You know you were doing the right things and one meal or whatever is not gonna make or break your overall efforts. :) Glad it got better for you in the end. :) emoticon

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SULFABABY 9/7/2011 5:08PM

    Big hugs and much love to you! It's so true that we are so kind and give good advice to others, but our self-talk can be so cruel. Personally, I think your pics look great! But if taking them and posting them is a trigger for you, consider not doing them. Lean on us! We are here for you. :) But seriously. You look wonderful. :) I wonder if it's just us girls that can swing from so down in the dumps to on top of the world so quickly. haha

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AMC120 9/7/2011 4:10PM

    The closer you get to your goal weight the harder it is, but don't let a number on some scales dictate who you are! For crying out loud- YOU'VE LOST 90 POUNDS GIRL!! You obviously know what you are doing! Just keep eating clean, training dirty and drinking lots of water! Change up your workouts some...if you need to. Sounds like your body just needs some confusion! You'll get there! We all have those days- Trust me! Good thing is every day is a new day to be the best you can be!

Keep up the good work! emoticon

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