Saturday, August 06, 2011
This is where I'm at right now. For an update !
I just weighed myself and i weighed in at 11 stone 1 pound. = 155lbs. I..... it could be worse.
I just got back from a nice relaxing week in Greece. The hubby and i both deserved it after working constant for days and weeks on end. We did nothing but mainly relax by the pool and explore the island a little on our little moped. ;)
I had some sad news that I am trying to deal with at the moment. Long story short, trampolining used to be a huge part of my life. I bounced every day for about 10 years. I competed and was seriously into it. Obviously, this is before i put on all the weight that Spark People helped me to lose. Throughout my childhood I had my fantastic trampolining coach. He wasn't only my coach, but my best friend, my worst enemy and my second father. He was the best. I didn't see him as much for the past few years, but i knew i would go back and even start training again one day - for sure i would be taking my kids to him so he could train them and tell them silly stories about when i was a teenager... he had the best sense of humour. He has had cancer for the past year. I saw him once and we had a nice catch up. I planned to go see him again recently. He lost his battle against the cancer, which spread to his brain, at the end of July. It isn't quite real in my mind right now... as he was always untouchable in my eyes and he was never sick.... I've never had to grieve for anybody who i was this close to, so i'm just taking it day by day. I did sit in my office at work today and cried my eyes out for a while! Luckily i was alone!
I hope to go to a trampolining session soon to see my old crew, some of them now have their own coaching classes.
I am putting together my weightloss-in-pictures blog, i've started by putting pictures from different times into folders.... it's exciting for me to look back on so i'm excited to share it.
While i was in Greece, i overindulged in alcohol .... and have decided to not touch alcohol for a while. I laughed as i said the next day, as everybody says when they're hungover "I'm never drinking again!!" but then i thought no, i mean it this time! For a while at least. I just disgusted myself with the state i got in and am highly ashamed. So we'll see how long i go and i will see how i feel about this!
I think i've put some belly fat on, so that needs to be addressed. I'm bored of myself now with my planning, i need to just take ACTION. For now then, I am off!
Rest in Peace - Ray Jones. x
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
Apologies for this not being a very lady-like blog.
I'm not very lady-like anyways though. ;) I was wayyy too tired to blog last night. The good news is i DID get my workout in though, woopah!
I'm having a little problem and i'm not sure if it's down to my protein or my fibre supplements. I read somewhere about protein that when you really increase your intake, it can bung you up inside and might cause constipation. I also invested in some fibre a while back because i've always struggled to have enough fibre in my diet. I thought these would go well together, but now i'm not so sure.
I do think that when i first starting having protein shakes after my workouts, i didn't have any digestive problems or anything.
Now that I add some fibre to my shakes, i really have an increase in ... wind. I'm really full of wind all day long, just when you don't need it!!
This is causing me problems because i was ILL in work yesterday. The first half of the day i had a sore throat and felt like i could vomit at any minute (this i think was maybe a little bug or the start of a cold) - then in the afternoon my tummy was like a balloon, and really hard. I felt like i needed to release in SOME way but i could just about manage to pee when i went to the toilet! Ugh. So then later on i had the feeling it was built up wind. And when i'm in work (and because i can be a lady!) if i ever get the need to... pass wind, i hold it in. Hold hold hold it in! This has a bad effect because sometimes i can feel it coming back inside where it's not wanted! Resulting in a sore tummy :(
So, if anybody knows about protein and fibre, do you think this could be partly down to an over intake of one of them or not enough? Or because i am balancing them? :s
I bodyrocked when i got home regardless (yay) and then did some serious relaxing. I did have protein but i didn't put the fibre in it as my post-workout snack. I feel great today! And ready to bodyrock when i get home! :D
Saturday, July 23, 2011
Hey Hey Sparks!
I took a week out again. Like i said, i'm kind of 'going with it' - as in the flow. ;)
I feel ok. I stop workouts for a while but i do miss them. I quickfired my days this week. I've been kinda busy and working lots, so i've been really tired getting home from work. I've been cool with listening to my tiredness and just going to bed early.
I had a wave of spontaneity this week and booked a last minute holiday to Greece. So the husband and i are getting away for a cheeky week in a Greek island next Thursday. Feels great to be getting a little holiday in (as i know i have some extra hard work coming up at work) and i already have clothes from our last hol so we're not overspending or anything. - This does mean i need to be working my butt off workout wise before Thursday so i can feel good!!
I've been unsure as to whether my body is looking like i'm putting weight on. I'm scared of putting weight on again. I asked my Dad if he thought i had, and his answer was "I hope not!" - heh, so that was helpful. A colleague's husband who doesn't seen me often commented that i looked skinny last week. That was quite amazing to hear !! Although sometimes even people saying these things you question their genuineness? Meh.
I know i'm not skinny and i never could be. I know that where weight is concerned, my Mum is always brutally honest ALONG with being very helpful. I asked her today if she thinks i've put weight on. She hesitated and said no. So i asked why the hesitation. She confused me and said "I noticed your legs earlier..." - I had short jeans on today, above the knee but not hotpants. I was immediately mortified and asked if she thought my legs looked fat and flabby? She laughed and said she'd noticed the muscle tone in my legs, and she thought they looked nice! WHAAAAT?
This was so so nice to hear, and relieving. The toning i might have is definitely thanks to bodyrocking. This gave me a massive lift and shows me that it is damn well worth my time bodyrocking and sweating my guts out - especially in the long run. NOT that i NEED this proof because i do know this... but sometimes we all need a reminder.
I plan to bodyrock in the morning when i get up. I would have worked out this morning but i took the opportunity of dry weather to mow my grass!
I tried some bikini's on in Diesel today too. I didn't buy any - but it did feel great to actually try on some designer bikini's. My boobs were too big for the cups. Not even too big, just... too fleshy. I'm thinking of seeing a doctor about having a lift or something. My boobs are ridiculous, i'm not even going to go into it.
Right well this entry is a little all over the place! I weighed myself for the first time in AGES before, and i weighed in at 152lbs. I'm pleasantly surprised that i haven't piled weight on. I do long for the day when i get my complete mojo back and i have the will to go all out to work on myself again, and put 100% effort into losing the fat and work hard on myself so i can be tighter and toned... and get rid of my stupid belly.
Love to everyone! xx
Sunday, July 17, 2011
Well considering i've been rather busy this weekend and i'm tired, i'm feeling rather content with myself. :)
I went for some drinks Friday night after my workout, so i felt real good about myself. I had a good time with an old friend plus some new friends, so that was nice! Saturday i worked all day long. And a long day it was! With bad weather. I was sore too, from Friday's workout... 'What's My Name?' - I'd done some broomstick exercise a little wrong at the beginning and bruised my lower back... kinda like the tops of my bum cheeks. Well wow did i feel that on Saturday!
Saturday night the hubby and i had an Indian meal in the house. My favourite! Sunday i've had another long day at work. Getting things sorted out. Bad bad rain all day long. I did quickfire my day though, and my bruising seems much better. I can only feel it when i prod around for it now, rather than feel it if i walk / move in general - lol!
I'm home alone now as hubby is working so i had a good little workout with my stereo blasting. I got a new cd by Example - and it's fantastic!!! I know most of the songs from some workout videos and they are just so upbeat and exciting... they made me go faster and better! Then at the end, an old classic called Satisfaction by Benni Benassi came on... well woooo i carried on dancing and shaking my bum like a lunatic for those extra few minutes hehe! Where the energy came from i don't know?! Ack i'm loving my music lately!!!
Also, in my cool down/stretch, a song called Kickstarts came on. And i had a little giggle to myself, the lyrics sound like my relationship with exercise and working out, in a weird way, LOL. Ok i might sound like a weirdo right now but here's the lyrics --
"You want me to come over I got an excuse
Might be holding your hand but im holding it loose
Go to talk then we choke its like our necks in a noose
Avoid the obvious we should be facing the truth
Start to think it could be fizzling out
Kinda shocked because I never really had any doubts
Look into your eyes imagine life with out ya'
And the love kick starts again
The Love kick starts again
Its the same old you the same old me
You get bored and I get cold feet
Get high get wondering eyes
Forget ive never ever had it so sweet
I realise what I got when Im out of town
Cos deep down youre my girl in a golden crown
My princess and I dont wanna let you down
No I Dont wanna let you down down down down"
Hah! Happy Sunday Sparkies! And let's bring in a great week together! =)
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