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Where I'm At

Saturday, August 06, 2011

This is where I'm at right now. For an update !

I just weighed myself and i weighed in at 11 stone 1 pound. = 155lbs. I..... it could be worse.

I just got back from a nice relaxing week in Greece. The hubby and i both deserved it after working constant for days and weeks on end. We did nothing but mainly relax by the pool and explore the island a little on our little moped. ;)

I had some sad news that I am trying to deal with at the moment. Long story short, trampolining used to be a huge part of my life. I bounced every day for about 10 years. I competed and was seriously into it. Obviously, this is before i put on all the weight that Spark People helped me to lose. Throughout my childhood I had my fantastic trampolining coach. He wasn't only my coach, but my best friend, my worst enemy and my second father. He was the best. I didn't see him as much for the past few years, but i knew i would go back and even start training again one day - for sure i would be taking my kids to him so he could train them and tell them silly stories about when i was a teenager... he had the best sense of humour. He has had cancer for the past year. I saw him once and we had a nice catch up. I planned to go see him again recently. He lost his battle against the cancer, which spread to his brain, at the end of July. It isn't quite real in my mind right now... as he was always untouchable in my eyes and he was never sick.... I've never had to grieve for anybody who i was this close to, so i'm just taking it day by day. I did sit in my office at work today and cried my eyes out for a while! Luckily i was alone!

I hope to go to a trampolining session soon to see my old crew, some of them now have their own coaching classes.

I am putting together my weightloss-in-pictures blog, i've started by putting pictures from different times into folders.... it's exciting for me to look back on so i'm excited to share it.

While i was in Greece, i overindulged in alcohol .... and have decided to not touch alcohol for a while. I laughed as i said the next day, as everybody says when they're hungover "I'm never drinking again!!" but then i thought no, i mean it this time! For a while at least. I just disgusted myself with the state i got in and am highly ashamed. So we'll see how long i go and i will see how i feel about this!

I think i've put some belly fat on, so that needs to be addressed. I'm bored of myself now with my planning, i need to just take ACTION. For now then, I am off!

Rest in Peace - Ray Jones. x

  
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PENFOLDROCKS 8/8/2011 11:25AM

    Sorry to hear about your coach :(
Lots of love your way
Glad you had a good holiday
Looking forward to reading your next blog.
Lots of love and hugs x

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KAYWEB555 8/8/2011 7:01AM

    Thank you for sharing this with us. It shows your pain over the loss of your dear friend. He has touched your life and now touched all of us. God bless him and You.
I was all of six when I learned what it ment to loss a dear friend. My five year old friend down the street got sick one evening after we all had been out playing. Two days later she was gone. Back then they had the wake in the home. I can still remember the day well of what took place at the house. I gave MaryEllen my favorite doll to take with her. A month later her Mom gave me all of MaryEllen's dolls ! What and exchange!
Remember all that Coach taught you about life and spread it out in his honor. You will feel better that way!

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DAVEYSHADOW 8/7/2011 11:28AM

    emoticon get exercising again and work out those demon's!

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BAZNCAZ 8/7/2011 6:25AM

    Sorry to hear about the loss of such a good friend,Keep your chin up, Knowing you it will not take you long to BOUNCE BACK, don't forget to keep your chin up STEPH!!!!!!!!!!!! emoticonYou do not have to get like this again to Bounce Back. HA HA HA X

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SULFABABY 8/6/2011 9:14PM

    I'm so sorry for your loss, Steph. As we say in Greek, "May his memory be eternal."

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JOANNA202 8/6/2011 7:21PM

    Sorry to hear about your coach Steph, sounds like it really knocked you sideways. Big hugs for getting through this one step at a time. Going to a session with your old crew will be a great chance to share memories.

Glad to hear Greece was so relaxing (which I forgot about when I wrote on your page!). Sometimes you just need to overindulge to put you back on the right path - that's my excuse anyway! Looking forward to the pictures blog!

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SWEETLIPS 8/6/2011 7:11PM

    I am sorry for your loss, and I know you are in pain. Your coach left you a legacy and as you can, celebrate his life. Some reason, I feel that might be what he would want. I hope to see Greece someday, I know that someway and somehow I will. Be blessed Steph, and know that my heart is with your heart!!

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VYVIENN 8/6/2011 6:09PM

    Oh no, this is just bad news month... my friend's aunt passed away yesterday afternoon. I'm sorry to hear about your coach. Grief can be such a difficult emotion to deal with. Just remember that nobody can tell you how to "do it right", and you are allowed to take as long as you need - everyone is different. emoticon

I'm glad you had such a nice week in Greece, and I'm also glad you're back!

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Trapped Wind Problems Anyone?

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Apologies for this not being a very lady-like blog.

I'm not very lady-like anyways though. ;) I was wayyy too tired to blog last night. The good news is i DID get my workout in though, woopah!

I'm having a little problem and i'm not sure if it's down to my protein or my fibre supplements. I read somewhere about protein that when you really increase your intake, it can bung you up inside and might cause constipation. I also invested in some fibre a while back because i've always struggled to have enough fibre in my diet. I thought these would go well together, but now i'm not so sure.

I do think that when i first starting having protein shakes after my workouts, i didn't have any digestive problems or anything.

Now that I add some fibre to my shakes, i really have an increase in ... wind. I'm really full of wind all day long, just when you don't need it!!

This is causing me problems because i was ILL in work yesterday. The first half of the day i had a sore throat and felt like i could vomit at any minute (this i think was maybe a little bug or the start of a cold) - then in the afternoon my tummy was like a balloon, and really hard. I felt like i needed to release in SOME way but i could just about manage to pee when i went to the toilet! Ugh. So then later on i had the feeling it was built up wind. And when i'm in work (and because i can be a lady!) if i ever get the need to... pass wind, i hold it in. Hold hold hold it in! This has a bad effect because sometimes i can feel it coming back inside where it's not wanted! Resulting in a sore tummy :(

So, if anybody knows about protein and fibre, do you think this could be partly down to an over intake of one of them or not enough? Or because i am balancing them? :s

I bodyrocked when i got home regardless (yay) and then did some serious relaxing. I did have protein but i didn't put the fibre in it as my post-workout snack. I feel great today! And ready to bodyrock when i get home! :D

  
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FEED_ME_SHOES 7/26/2011 2:21PM

    Protein & Fibre can do that. Give your belly a good massage, and go for a little walk. That should help you with the releasing problem. Failing that, try some yoga'! emoticon

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PENFOLDROCKS 7/26/2011 12:11PM

    Another reason I LOVE working from home!!
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BAZNCAZ 7/26/2011 12:10PM

    I can suggest one good thing for the wind.

BUY A KITE. HA HA HA HA. emoticon

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KASEYCOFF 7/26/2011 9:26AM

    I think 'Sock' has good advice. I've read more than once if you haven't eaten sufficient fiber for a long time, or if you have upped your protein intake, you might have the twin problems of constipation and (love your ladylike euphemisms, lol) wind. The only solution I've ever heard of is working up to an increased fiber slowly. The other might be to try to add something like nuts or beans to your diet - yeh, I know about beans, lol, but you could cook one of the 'windless' recipes, or again, increase the amount slowly. Point being that you would have additional fiber to go with the extra protein intake, so that would be of some help, too.

(That advice was worth exactly what you paid for it, sunshine, lol...)
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SOCKITTOME 7/26/2011 7:44AM

    The fiber is likely causing the problem -- taking too much too soon. If you use the nutrition tracker here on Spark, monitor your fiber intake. Perhaps you're getting enough already. If not, increase the fiber slowly, over 2-4 weeks, and see if that helps your body get used to it. I understand the problem of "wind" at work. If you're not able to release it in the restroom, are you able to take a short walk outside for a few minutes? I drink hot tea to help the insides relax. Simethicone ("Gas-ex") also helps.

Good luck -- it's miserable to be blown up with wind!

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ADEWYN 7/26/2011 7:38AM

    lol...I guess i am even less lady like if my stomach hurts I get up and go in the bathroom and pass it... itis normal and everyone does it...dont hold it in not good for you..but yes when i increased both it did the same to me... then when i increased fruits and veggies it happened again... it is just your body getting use to the changes... try the tabs pookie suggeted.. cant hurt :)

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-POOKIE- 7/26/2011 7:26AM

    I dont suffer with trapped wind because of those issues, its usually when I over-consume fizzy drinks and not enough other liquids, or too much sweet junk.

But what does help, is Bisodol tablets, they are cheap, millions in a packet and also for heartburn/indigestions, they are yellow and in little boxes of several rolls of them.

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Little Check In

Saturday, July 23, 2011

Hey Hey Sparks!

I took a week out again. Like i said, i'm kind of 'going with it' - as in the flow. ;)

I feel ok. I stop workouts for a while but i do miss them. I quickfired my days this week. I've been kinda busy and working lots, so i've been really tired getting home from work. I've been cool with listening to my tiredness and just going to bed early.

I had a wave of spontaneity this week and booked a last minute holiday to Greece. So the husband and i are getting away for a cheeky week in a Greek island next Thursday. Feels great to be getting a little holiday in (as i know i have some extra hard work coming up at work) and i already have clothes from our last hol so we're not overspending or anything. - This does mean i need to be working my butt off workout wise before Thursday so i can feel good!!

I've been unsure as to whether my body is looking like i'm putting weight on. I'm scared of putting weight on again. I asked my Dad if he thought i had, and his answer was "I hope not!" - heh, so that was helpful. A colleague's husband who doesn't seen me often commented that i looked skinny last week. That was quite amazing to hear !! Although sometimes even people saying these things you question their genuineness? Meh.

I know i'm not skinny and i never could be. I know that where weight is concerned, my Mum is always brutally honest ALONG with being very helpful. I asked her today if she thinks i've put weight on. She hesitated and said no. So i asked why the hesitation. She confused me and said "I noticed your legs earlier..." - I had short jeans on today, above the knee but not hotpants. I was immediately mortified and asked if she thought my legs looked fat and flabby? She laughed and said she'd noticed the muscle tone in my legs, and she thought they looked nice! WHAAAAT?

This was so so nice to hear, and relieving. The toning i might have is definitely thanks to bodyrocking. This gave me a massive lift and shows me that it is damn well worth my time bodyrocking and sweating my guts out - especially in the long run. NOT that i NEED this proof because i do know this... but sometimes we all need a reminder.

I plan to bodyrock in the morning when i get up. I would have worked out this morning but i took the opportunity of dry weather to mow my grass!

I tried some bikini's on in Diesel today too. I didn't buy any - but it did feel great to actually try on some designer bikini's. My boobs were too big for the cups. Not even too big, just... too fleshy. I'm thinking of seeing a doctor about having a lift or something. My boobs are ridiculous, i'm not even going to go into it.

Right well this entry is a little all over the place! I weighed myself for the first time in AGES before, and i weighed in at 152lbs. I'm pleasantly surprised that i haven't piled weight on. I do long for the day when i get my complete mojo back and i have the will to go all out to work on myself again, and put 100% effort into losing the fat and work hard on myself so i can be tighter and toned... and get rid of my stupid belly.

Love to everyone! xx

  
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KASEYCOFF 7/26/2011 4:20AM

    I know what you mean about the constant self-checks - I keep looking at my wrists and thinking, I can see bones (which is good), and if I get to the point where the bones start disappearing - well, how far too far over the line is that?!? lol...

One of my friends says 'Be ever vigilant.' She's right. I think we run into trouble if we stop monitoring. Oh sure, we don't want to become OC, but we need to be consistent and do frequent self-checks. IMHO

Wow, Greece! Have a great time - what a brill idea for a quick break!!!
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DAVEYSHADOW 7/25/2011 7:45AM

    Enjoy the holiday, we are off to Rhodes on the 13th and really looking forward to it. Glad to hear you are getting more tone with the bodyrocking. Sure you look fine!



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-POOKIE- 7/25/2011 5:44AM

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JOANNA202 7/24/2011 5:48AM

    Ooh, a holiday to Greece sounds lovely. Have a fabulous time!!

You've got a great resource in your mum there - we could all do with someone who is completely honest, and then just have to trust them!

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BAZNCAZ 7/24/2011 4:26AM

    Have a good HOLIDAY in GREECE.
And if you have not changed since your last photo.

(wassa PROBLEM.) Go and ENJOY. HA HA HA emoticon

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RAINBOWCHOC 7/24/2011 3:50AM

    Have a great holiday and try and keep cool!

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ALESHABEE 7/23/2011 3:27PM

    You're awesome girl...and yes it's good to listen to your body. As long as you're maintaining a good chunk of your proper nutrition you will be fine. It's actually not very easy to gain weight if you have a lot of muscle and keep your eating fairly clean. Good luck and have fun in Greece!!

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PENFOLDROCKS 7/23/2011 3:04PM

    Hey sweets, nice to hear from you.
Holiday - fabulous!
Lots of love xx

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Kickstarts

Sunday, July 17, 2011

Well considering i've been rather busy this weekend and i'm tired, i'm feeling rather content with myself. :)

I went for some drinks Friday night after my workout, so i felt real good about myself. I had a good time with an old friend plus some new friends, so that was nice! Saturday i worked all day long. And a long day it was! With bad weather. I was sore too, from Friday's workout... 'What's My Name?' - I'd done some broomstick exercise a little wrong at the beginning and bruised my lower back... kinda like the tops of my bum cheeks. Well wow did i feel that on Saturday!

Saturday night the hubby and i had an Indian meal in the house. My favourite! Sunday i've had another long day at work. Getting things sorted out. Bad bad rain all day long. I did quickfire my day though, and my bruising seems much better. I can only feel it when i prod around for it now, rather than feel it if i walk / move in general - lol!

I'm home alone now as hubby is working so i had a good little workout with my stereo blasting. I got a new cd by Example - and it's fantastic!!! I know most of the songs from some workout videos and they are just so upbeat and exciting... they made me go faster and better! Then at the end, an old classic called Satisfaction by Benni Benassi came on... well woooo i carried on dancing and shaking my bum like a lunatic for those extra few minutes hehe! Where the energy came from i don't know?! Ack i'm loving my music lately!!!

Also, in my cool down/stretch, a song called Kickstarts came on. And i had a little giggle to myself, the lyrics sound like my relationship with exercise and working out, in a weird way, LOL. Ok i might sound like a weirdo right now but here's the lyrics --

"You want me to come over I got an excuse
Might be holding your hand but im holding it loose
Go to talk then we choke its like our necks in a noose
Avoid the obvious we should be facing the truth

Start to think it could be fizzling out
Kinda shocked because I never really had any doubts
Look into your eyes imagine life with out ya'

And the love kick starts again
Starts again
The Love kick starts again
Starts again

Its the same old you the same old me
You get bored and I get cold feet
Get high get wondering eyes
Forget ive never ever had it so sweet
I realise what I got when Im out of town
Cos deep down youre my girl in a golden crown
My princess and I dont wanna let you down
No I Dont wanna let you down down down down"

Hah! Happy Sunday Sparkies! And let's bring in a great week together! =)

  
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-POOKIE- 7/18/2011 3:53AM

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DAVEYSHADOW 7/18/2011 3:50AM

    Hope the bruising is a little better today, I need that kickstart this week, been a bit off the path lately!

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VYVIENN 7/18/2011 2:33AM

    Hey, I like that song already! This post comes just at the right time, I'm always in need of some new musical ideas for the workouts, thanks!!

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FEED_ME_SHOES 7/17/2011 4:07PM

    Sounds like you had a great weekend. I am so ready to get back into Bodyrocking full time. I've had a busy few days, and my workouts have been shuffled around a bit.

The video for that song is pretty cool too! I'll let you in on a little secret, sometimes when im not in the mood to workout, i turn up the music and have a good dance, and i boogie right on down, and crank those squats and lunges out! haaaaaaaah, sometimes you just got to!

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  How are you today?
My name is blessing, i saw your profile here today and it was interested and nice. I think we can click and become friends i will like you to reply me back through my email address (blessingndadaye@hotmail.com) for more introduction and exchange of pictures if you don't mind. I am waiting to see your reply.
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LIOCORO 7/17/2011 3:01PM

    Haha those lyrics somehow sum it up very well, indeed! :D
Glad you're feeling better now and ouch for those bruises, I feel with you because I get bruises so easily ... sometimes I have the feeling you just have to touch me and I get a bruise from it ;)
Anyways, hope you enjoy the remaining time of your Sunday and have a great, relaxed and energized start into the new week if possible!

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One Day

Thursday, July 14, 2011

Eh, quick blog. It's needed. I am putting it off and putting it off....

I still don't want to write about my recent bad times. I lost myself. I couldn't find my way for a while. I didn't know what i wanted. I didn't know why i felt like i did. I didn't know how to escape, or how to find my way out of the dark.

But i have to blog to start keeping up to date. I will write about my rollercoaster times - as it will be good for me, but just not yet.

I feel amazing today. Tonight. I am taking each day as it comes now. Each day is a new beginning. It's never too late to start again... AND we have to start somewhere. That's what i said to myself in the mirror today. "We have to start SOMEwhere.... again".

You might have been on this journey for a long time. You might have been Sparking for years. You may have lost 90lbs. 100lbs. 200lbs. It doesn't mean you're finished and you're through. You'll still get lost and you will still have battles to fight. It's accepting this part what i find hard... and baffling... and stupid.... and annoying.

Back to Spark is where i am happy and i belong.

When i grow up, i want to be a Bodyrocker.

  
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MISSEDIVA 7/15/2011 1:27PM

    Keep it in your head that you won't give up...
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FEED_ME_SHOES 7/15/2011 5:51AM

    I love that last sentence. Thats my dream too! Some day!

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DAVEYSHADOW 7/15/2011 4:45AM

    emoticon one day is the way to cope with this journey, we have long term goals but can only reach them one day at a time. If we have a bad day / week / month whatever, just dust yourselself off and start again. The Spark and your friends old new and those you have not yet met will always be here!

Hope you don't hurt too much after the marine workout!

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-POOKIE- 7/15/2011 3:24AM

    *hugs*

Im back (mostly) on track now after being so off with surgery, moving, recovery etc.

certainly have to find my control again.

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SPACELION 7/14/2011 9:52PM

    I know how you mean about losing yourself temporarily.. It becomes harder and harder to reappear and I'm glad you have! Sometimes we need these 'blah' weeks just to reaffirm that we really want this, it's nice to have a bit of headspace too where you're not obsessively tracking and focusing completely around weight loss, the important thing is you're back :D

Hope you're feeling better soon my dear! Glad to see you're loverrly face around these parts again ^_^.

xxx

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PENFOLDROCKS 7/14/2011 5:31PM

    Not much time to write, but sending big love and hugs xx
We are bodyrock!

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MNGIRLIE 7/14/2011 4:12PM

    emoticon Sorry to hear about the rough times. I recently went through a pretty rough week of the blahs. Lots of ish going on. I'm thankful it didn't last longer because it absolutely had the potential to.

You already ARE a Bodyrocker girl!

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