Monday, April 19, 2010
I did great last week and was on such a high. Friday came and i didn't want a nice healthy meal, i wanted a curry. I ended up having a Chinese.
Saturday... we had some drinks in the house and i ended up getting quite drunk. Oops. I was making my own healthy-ish curry for tea, so we ate and i was drunk. It was actually a fun night, but then at about 9pm i decided i was hungry. Oops. I ordered a pizza and some donner meat. Whyyy?
The good thing is, what i didn't realise... was that as soon as i'd started eating it, i needed to be sick. Too drunk. Ugh, i'm so embarrassing. So i spent a lot of time being sick. How much of an idiot i am, inbetween retching I called to Stephen and told him to keep my food in the fridge for Sunday. What a weirdo!!
Sooo.... Sunday i got up. I had my pizza for breakfast, but only half. I then did something positive. I went ice skating! Woo! Haven't been for YEARS and almost forgot how to do it... hehe. It was so awesome, although my heels are now in agony because the stupid boots were rubbing on me. I didn't care while i was skating though. I got a good 40 mins of cardio in, quick skating.
I wasn't great for the rest of the day, i had a cookie dough milkshake, and ended up having Snack A Jacks for lunch, with a chocolate bar - i thought my body needed some crap to help with my pooey hangover.... but i didn't go majorly over my calorie intake.
I can't actually believe i've put this in a blog, it's disgusting and i'm just vile sometimes.
I had my weigh in yesterday too and it seems my hard work earlier last week has paid off. I lost 2.25lbs! So that's kinda the motivation i need to get me straight back on board.
So i'm kinda back to happy again. And i'm not beating myself too much... (i'm getting good at not doing that haha) in a way i think my 'slip ups' are helping my body to have what it wants every now and again and let loose, eat a load of crap, but the hard work is keeping me on track.
Bring on cardio this week!
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
I'm feeling great at the moment.
I just joined a new Spark Team called Quickfire Challenges. It gives an exercise each day to complete throughout the day, how ever many you can do or how many sets, say 5 sets of 20 during the day. I'm on my second day and i think it's fantastic, it's making me feel ALIVE! Getting myself moving and making my body burn calories through the day too, whilst toning my muscles!!
Also, i got home from work yesterday and i have a bag of clothes from my Mum's house that she's cleared out. My old clothes from when i was 15. There are a lot of size 16s, and others smaller. After trying on a size 16 a couple of weeks ago in the shops, they're still tight on me at the moment... BUT, i tried an old pair of cropped jeans on last night - size 16. They FIT! Perfect! Infact to be honest, they'd need a belt to keep them in place!!!! EEK!!!!
I'm so happy right now, i need to keep this feeling in my mind for when i'm feeling like cheating. I don't WANT to cheat right now. I wanna keep going. I wanna be fit and toned and healthy!!!
So here goes nothing!!
Monday, April 12, 2010
Indeed they are!
Last week i didn't have a big loss, i think i lost half a pound. This week, well, last week before Sunday's weigh in, I did cardio and strength for a good hour, 4 times the week, way over my weekly goal. I don't want to up my goal at the moment because i'm feeling quite proud when i do more than what's on my goals, if i was just fulfilling them to what the goal is i don't think i'd feel as great as i do about it, lol.
So i lost 3.75lbs this week, and i'm very very happy about it. I ate some crap the weekend with going to a big work do at the races and then the following day. So now it's back to hard work. And i'm starting as soon as i get home later, big cardio session here i come.
I got the motivation i needed at the weekend, i saw lots of people while i was dressed up and everybody complimented me. I felt great. My Mum said i looked stunning. Why's that? All the hard work i've been putting in! Sooo i felt great... although my feet didn't from the heels i was wearing! Haha!
Monday, April 05, 2010
Since my splurge i've had big workouts. And no more splurges.
Ste had a kebab the other night because he finished work late. I had a slither of it, a tiny piece of meat. He left loads to waste because he got too full but guess what? I didn't finish it for him. So for that, i am pleased with myself.
Had my weigh in yesterday and i actually lost 0.75 lbs. Which puts me a quarter under now, after my gain last week. I can't say how happy i am with that, i deserved to gain, i really did, but i'm so happy it didn't happen.
So i am definitely back on track and i need to keep this mentality up. I might have an extra workout later today. I feel good now.
So let's go again. No mistakes now, for a week atleast. =)
Saturday, April 03, 2010
Well to start off, i am still ill. And feeling sorry for myself, hah, it's only 7am and it's worse in the morning, damn you body fight it off already!!
I'm a bit lost at the moment, if i'm being honest. And i am. I keep making the same little mistakes... i can't keep making them, because they'll end up adding up to my old lifestyle. I'm scaring myself a bit. I was naughty twice this week, once early in the week and once Thursday night. I can live with once a week, and accept it, but twice? I'm so angry with myself!!!!
I had a relaxation day Friday, with it being a bank holiday. It wasn't planned, we hadn't planned to do anything, but we ended up staying in our pjamas, i was between upstairs and downstairs, mainly reading my book. It was bliss really, although i was annoyed most of the day, wondering when we were gonna make plans and get up and get dressed LOL. I may have needed that long rest though, for myself and for my immune system.
I did do something good yesterday though, after my lazy day, i decided to have a workout. I did not want to at all. Y'know when you're still groggy at 5pm because you literally haven't done a thing? Yeah... that was me. I told Stephen to shout at me. He did, bless him. =) So i changed into my workout gear and put one of my hard dvds on. I also put it onto "intermediate/expert" for the first time with this dvd. And oh i went for it! I sweated lots. I tasted pizza repeating on me, nice !
The change in my mood afterwards was fantastic, i wasn't groggy and poopy, i was HAPPY, and full of energy! I was red allover and sweating good. I knew it was a good workout because my usual shower temp was too hot, i had to have it on cool to cool me down. (even after my cool down and stretch) I even carried on after my shower and decided to change the bed linen, hah! I find that quite the energetic chore LOL.
So the workout did me good and lifted my mood. I just wish it was so easy to remind myself of that feeling i get after a good workout. I will have to try harder with that. I have my weigh in on Sunday, and i don't expect anything, i just hope it's not a gain.
I am still low on the confidence though. I've been in stage 2/3 (3 i think?) of the lifestyle change since January/February, i only have one more stage to go. I just can't go into that last stage while i'm still making stupid mistakes and... these naughty things happening.... i don't trust myself.
So for now i guess i'm working hard on my attitude. I can't let it slip now, 50lbs down the line and still plenty of goals ahead of me.
I just hope i can find the strength to carry on and just... do it.
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