Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Ok yeah, i've taken a long break. I think i may have needed it... to kick back for a (long) while and just let go for a while... do whatever and not have a schedule to keep to.
I don't feel so bad right now. It's almost new year, and i know that when new year comes, then i have some deadlines to start meeting, and some targets to work for and accomplish. That's what i look forward to.
My Honeymoon, March 25th, i will be at the very most, 145lbs. I have lots of new workout DVDs to get my butt into, AND, i am purchaing P90X, so i am so gonna be on my game. So roll on January, when reality comes back, i go back to work and i get back to doing ME! x
Friday, December 17, 2010
I am so red faced and embarrassed. And ashamed. And disgusted.
After that blog about having some timeout yet being 'totally in control'..... I lost it.
I'm angry too. 6 days now i have ate almost 3,000 calories per day. GRRRR!!! I didn't want to post this, but i HAVE to, to make it real. To make it reality and SHAME myself because i know how frickin stupid i have been!!!!
The thing that angers me more is that i DID think about what i was eating. I KNEW. And you know what? I laughed in my healthy/fit selfs face and said SO WHAT? And ate it anyway. And ate more of it. And then carried on, and made another bad decision after that, and so on.
I'm angry because i've broken my exercise streak too. I had it up to over 10 weeks... i can't remember exactly, but it was going good and strong. You know what? I contemplated FAKING some, so i wouldn't lose my streak.
I can't do that - how stupid is that? I would only be fooling myself, nobody else. It's like eating foods and hiding the wrappers - so what if somebody finds it, you're only fooling YOURSELF!!!! And also CHEATING yourself!!!!
I have healthy foods in for the weekend, so i plan to get back on board tomorrow, Saturday, NOT Monday. NOT THE EASY ROUTE of the new week. TOMORROW. Saturday. Healthy eating and exercise again. I need a damn good workout to put me in my place.
It's so sad at how really easy... so so easy it is once you veered off the track, to stay of the track... TOO damn easy. I got my strength. I got Sparkpeople. I got the PEOPLE on Sparkpeople, the SUPPORT.
=( I feel like i've fallen down a mountain where my belly is concerned. I felt i was getting somewhere and it might be toning up. Now? Now it is fat and flabby and bloated and horrible and feels like there's no hope.
I am ready to get back to it.
To end on a happy note... it's snowing. Ok it's not good that i have to be in work tomorrow morning with lots of responsibility, but why not make somebody laugh with my silly pics.
Me preparing to brave the snow...
And me mid snow-angel in my back garden.
Well my Mum had a laugh at them anyways =P
Friday, December 10, 2010
Just to check in.
My week has gone well. I lost just over a pound on Monday's weigh in - yay!
I worked out for my 4th time in the week today. AND i said no to takeaway food for the second Friday on the run. I'm having a glass of wine tonight but i'm still much in my nutritional goals. (I ate a light choice meal, beef enchiladas & salad - tasty!)
I'm feeling very positive. And kind of patient. I want my abs work to just show on my belly. I know deep down that it will, so i am just holding my breath and knowing i need to be patient. So i'm soldiering on. I do feel i need to push myself harder though.
Taking my niece ice skating tomorrow - another workout for the week ha! Very excited!
Also, i must add, i don't think i'd be here so religiously without my fabulous Sparkfriends helping me along the way... the love and support i receive every day... it's keeping me in line. People don't realise how much one little blog comment, one little "like", one little status comment, one little Sparkpage drop by... means so so much to me.... i can't express it the way i would like to, but if you're still reading at this point, then YOU my dear Sparkfriend (You people know who you are!), thank you SO so much, you fill my heart with the SPARK to carry on and help more than i could ever explain!!
Tuesday, December 07, 2010
So it's Tuesday and things are going good again.
I picked myself up Sunday night and had a workout. Some extra abs work too - that's my goal now so need the work being done there! Monday i ate well and rested. Tuesday, today i have eaten well, eaten a little more carbs, in the higher part of my daily goal for my workout tonight. I had fun with tonight's workout and did 10 mins of fast upbeat dancing, (extra part on dvd) it was so funny because i have no rythym (sp?!) and can't do the moves properly but hell i tried and laughed my butt off too hehe!
For dinner i cooked my own "Tamarind & Salmon Curry"... and it went really well. Spicy! Gots some left over for lunch tomorrow too, and it's nice knowing exactly what is in it. =)
Got a Japanese recipe to do tomorrow, only an omelette but i am keeping my eating FRESH again and pushing my workouts.
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