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Not So Victorious Saturday...

Sunday, December 05, 2010

I ate well all day Saturday and jumped around lots in work.

Got home Saturday evening and lay on the couch with my book. I then had a takeaway. A donner kebab and some chips and cheese. I gave in. The positive thing is i stayed in my calorie range still so hope this doesn't do too much damage.

Today is Sunday and i had a small victory. My hubby had KFC for his dinner. I went with him and everything, and sat next to him while he ate it, knowing i had my chicken and a wholemeal sub to come back to work to.

I don't feel so great right now. It's my tiredness... it is. So what i need to do have my workout when i get home later - because i know deep down it helps with my energy levels. I had my little victory of not going further after last nights kebab, i said no to KFC today. That's gotta be worth something? Ack, i can't help thinking "You still ate that stupid kebab, AND fries! Silly!!" ...what a way frickin go backwards.

NO. I'm ok. I can carry on now. Truth is i don't feel like working out tonight, but i so don't want to back out because... another back out makes it even easier/more likely to back out on Monday.. then Tuesday... then....etc. Ugh. So i have to, tonight. Stupid thing is, i know once i'm 5 mins into my warm up, i'll be enjoying myself and be rearing to go!

Gotta keep pushing forward.

  
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AVRENIM1 12/7/2010 9:49AM

    Yes push forward! Forget about it! Don' beat yourself up, just keep moving ahead. I've screwed up for weeks and am determined to not punish myself but to continue where I left off. You, do the same. You are looking beautiful. STAY FOCUSED! I'll do the same. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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FITJEANS 12/6/2010 11:02AM

    We r only human , we have good days and bad days. Love that you stayed strong through the whole process, Today is monday and a fresh start, lets accomplish our goals and have fabulous week. Lets do this! Why becuase we can. emoticon

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DAVEYSHADOW 12/6/2010 4:32AM

    emoticon it is hard to make the good choices when those around you are not. Keep it up and is worth that work out.

Keep it up!

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EMBRACE_SUCCESS 12/5/2010 8:42PM

    Hey Steph--

Allow this experience to make you stronger.

Sometimes we don't make the best choices. These choices can put us in a downward spiral if we allow them to. YOU DIDN'T LET THAT HAPPEN. Instead, it sounds like you made the next right choice by staying in your calorie range. Then you made another good choice by skipping KFC. And you made another good choice by choosing to work out. You bounced back instead of letting it keep you down. That's a good thing to practice!

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SWEETLIPS 12/5/2010 7:03PM

    Steph - precious! I have never known anyone who went back and relived the past, so... with that said, be gentle on yourself, and move forward. I have a chocolate bar for those moments that I think I might want it and I realized that is just a stupid thing for me to do.

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JUDY1676 12/5/2010 3:41PM

    Don't be so hard on yourself. We ALL give in sometimes. What's important is that you are back on track. emoticon

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YESKATIECAN 12/5/2010 1:14PM

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YESKATIECAN 12/5/2010 1:13PM

    Lovely Steph,
I think your being far too hard on yourself! Yes, you had some "off limits" food but you stayed within your ranges and turned down the yucky KFC! We all kick ourselves in the pants when we do something we are not supposed to, but this is life and we can't be 100 percent perfect with everything.

Your amazing and do not give yourself enough credit for all the RIGHT THINGS your doing and eating! Look back at your older\beginning pictures and remember what the girl in the photo was like before. How did she feel? Could she do a lot of physical things? Did she eat the KCF with her man or did she pass it up?

Look in the mirror and how do you feel now? Probably amazing right? That's because that is what you are and you have look great and have a positive attitude! You share it with others and give back that energy to other people here. Give yourself more credit girl! You need to look in the mirror again and say "I am strong, I feel amazing, I am changing to become the best version of me possible!" Believe it, because you are!

Don't be so hard on yourself. Just continue to be you. Amazing and awesome!
XOXOXO

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GODSBABYGAL 12/5/2010 12:21PM

    Your right ....Gotta keep pushing forward. Now that you've made an accurate assessment MOVE forward emoticon
Thank you for putting some of our victories and struggles into words. You are doing wonderful emoticon emoticon

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SEXYSLIM78 12/5/2010 12:12PM

    Well girl least u r very conscious about everything and u r staying motivated. Woohoo 4 u! I am so sick, (sinunitis)and i wish this darn pressure in my face and this headache go away so i can get back to jumpping around and burning some calories. UGH, I dont like this feeling of sitting here doing nothing, eating the wrong way and feeling sluggish. Trying to get back in the swing of things but all i can do is lay here, hoping to feel better. This site is such a good tool and i would hate to not make the best of everything it has to offer in helping me live a healthier life. Anyway, girl u r doing gr8 and im proud of u and u continue to do it bcuz u r one of the many that help me realize that this whole thing is so possible with determination and consistancy. emoticon

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-POOKIE- 12/5/2010 11:10AM

    *hugs* glad you managed to stay strong today, its so easy to be tempted :(

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Victory Friday

Friday, December 03, 2010

I'm calling tonight "Victory Friday" because tonight... could have been A LOT worse.

I'll start with my week. Eating and exercising - great!! As planned.

Tonight. I am over-tired from working, i know that, but only one more week left and then i have the weekend off. I volunteer for stuff, I need the money.

After work we went shopping for our dinner. I had to stop myself so many times from suggesting takeaway for tonight to my DH. SO many times. It almost slipped a few times. I walked back and forth between the isles in the supermarket because i didn't know what i wanted to eat. Neither did he. I settled for a WeightWatchers curry. And i'm having some wine.

I call this a victory. How so? There was less than 400 calories in my dinner tonight yet there's probably too many calories in the rosť wine... BUT. I think i may still have stayed in today's goals, AND just think - this could have been soooooo much worse. I could have had over 3000 calories tonight and enjoyed it, but i managed to hold back.

WOOOOHOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!

  
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FITJEANS 12/4/2010 12:31PM

    emoticon for holding back and letting your positivity shine so bright. You r doing such a great job, You go chica emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SWEETLIPS 12/3/2010 10:30PM

    Proud of You - I once had a 4500 cal meal - one meal and that was lunch. I enjoyed it too and then I had dinner. You are motivating. Have a good sleep. I need some money too, I wonder what I do - legally.

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LYNN-LOVESLIFE7 12/3/2010 8:10PM

    Yay for you.. Keep on pushing forward.

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FITNESSVIXENN 12/3/2010 4:54PM

    emoticonEnjoy your meal!

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-POOKIE- 12/3/2010 3:54PM

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EMBRACE_SUCCESS 12/3/2010 3:44PM

    You are doing a great job consistently making good choices in the food department!! All of your victories will add up and make a huge difference not only in your weight loss journey, but your life as well! Plus they remind me to say no to myself when faced with similar choices-- not in a deprivation kind of way, but in a loving kind of way:) Thanks and way to go!!

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In *That* Zone

Monday, November 29, 2010

I'm back in the zone again, motivation is creeping up on me.

I just about managed my workouts last week, but i did eat well, no more pigging out.

I am back in the zone. I noticed while shopping today, food shopping. I was by the check out and i looked over the sweets and chocolates, just interested in seeing what was there. Notice that? I was only looking to see what was there. This is different from looking at what i WANT and talking myself into buying something. I could look over them all happily and not have the urge to buy anything. I like it when I'm in this zone, things are easier !

I had a sneaky weigh in yesterday, just because i didn't know how i was feeling. I know, you shouldn't really weigh in to determined your mood... but what the heck. I weighed in and i was DOWN. *Smiles* I relaxed for the night, and started my new week.

My official weigh in tonight gave me the same results as yesterday, so i'm really really pleased. An official 3 and a half pounds loss... i can't believe it's a big one!!

Another little victory today - The husband had pizza for tea and left 2 whole slices. I had my workout and shower and they were in the kitchen. Guess what i did? Took a bite of a slice and then tipped them in the bin. I ain't ruining my workout for pizza that isn't even my favourite flavour!!!

Let's keep Sparkin' guys.. we know how good it feels. emoticon

  
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PUNZIE73 12/1/2010 4:45AM

    I'm proud of you! That really shows your determination. Congrats!

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COLD_GOLD 11/30/2010 11:15PM

    wow! just found your page on the motivational sparkpages... you are truly an inspiration!

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FITJEANS 11/30/2010 11:46AM

    Girl love this blog so motivated I am literally che emoticonsing ova here bcuz I am so proud of you . That was very empowering and it shows how far you have come and how much you have grown. That is nothing but strenth,commitment and determination. Very few people are able to do that, including your self as one of those few. Way to go and happy that you continue to make more strides in your journey. emoticon steph emoticon

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EMBRACE_SUCCESS 11/29/2010 11:12PM

    Hey Steph--
I just wanted to let you know that your blog helped me stay on track when I wanted to binge. I was weighing going to the gym vs shoveling in the ice cream and though I was leaning slightly towards the gym, reading about your choice not to eat pizza tipped the scales in favor of the gym. I'm still going to have some ice cream, but I'll stick to a serving... Thanks for the inspiration!

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-POOKIE- 11/29/2010 4:50PM

    Wonderful!!! emoticon

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FITNESSVIXENN 11/29/2010 3:47PM

    emoticonWAY TO GO !!!

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November Nearly Over

Thursday, November 25, 2010

I'm still doing pretty good. I don't know about a loss for next Monday's weigh in though. Maintaining would be good.

I feel a little... low at the moment. Just on motivation. I'm not making excuses for myself, I just don't know where this comes from? Everybody feels it... it creeps up on us all. One minute, one week, we're flying through the week, super fit, feeling amazing and doing more than we have planned, pushing ourselves harder and receiving the results we hope for. Then, BAM. The week after... Things become a pain. That naughty food that I was poking fun at in my cupboard last week and laughing at because i didn't want it in a million years, even forgot it was there - This week, i KNOW it's there, i can hear it and smell it. I want it so bad. It gets harder to decline food people offer which you know isn't good for you. And exercise, it's that little bit harder to get changed into workout clothes and get your funk on.

I don't think it's because it's winter and it's cold either - not for me anyway. I workout all winter long last year without too much trouble to myself.

I'm not super low on motivation, I'm just... feeling that lack of... force starting to go down. I now have to counteract that and work harder.

I just had a thought. I don't have the huge goal of getting married anymore. I have a New Years Challenge to be working towards... but it's just not as huge a deal. I was going out with family this past weekend, and i whooped my own ass working out last week, so that i'd feel great going out and seeing people. I need that goal.

I have my Honeymoon to work for, coming up in March 2011. I am going to work hard for this. I am working hard for this. Just, deep down in the back of my mind, i KNOW that i have plenty of time, to lose the 10lbs i've set for my ultimate goal. So subconciously, i'm being lazy at the moment, because i know i can. And partly because i know that it's harder to maintain than it is for me to be in the frame of mind to lose weight, in my head i would rather maintain for a while and THEN begin a new weightloss goal.

I'm not doing that though, I'm on track now to carry on pushing, getting fitter and healthier and dropping those pounds. I gotta get this belly in shape!! A-ha! I just remembered my fitted t-shirt i want to wear Christmas Day - how did i forget that?! I need to work hard on the belly so that my t-shirt fits nice!

Well duh i almost forgot the reason i'm writing a blog!! My eating has been good since my allowed overload the weekend, and dinner last night was good and well portions, BUT, afterwards i just got soooo hungry!! Not real hungry, just dying for a snack hungry, grrr!! So i had a chicken toastie thing worth 169 calories. Which wasn't too bad. I also gave in to a packet of crisps too, at 110 calories. Grr! I guess it could have been A LOT worse but it took me over my calorie target and over my carbs... BOOOOO! I am over it now, it's just annoying, i will now just stick to what i've planned to eat, it's a new day and i just snacked on some fruits. *Another Edit* AND it wouldn't have been so bad if i'd have worked out! But i didn't, because i was cold and sore from Tuesday night. So there is definitely some hard working out planned for tonight, and NO BACKING OUT.

So there we have it, i'm back and forth with myself and now i have my goal, my Christmas goal that will tie in with my New Years goal.

I do get silly, sometimes. emoticon I'm right about the up-and-down motivation thing though!

  
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FITJEANS 11/26/2010 8:19PM

    Lo emoticonve that you have found a tar emoticonget to work hard for. Your honey moon . Im certain that you will do and look amazing. Yes we all have these days or sometimes even weeks but we all bounce back and fight for ourselves and our goals that we want to complete. Congrats for doing fabulous on thanksgiving, way to go. I didnt hit my target calories but I done phenomenal compared to what i could have ate and what i ate last year. There was just no control, there was a honey comb monster on my back saying eat it, eat it now Lol! Its all one big cycle and we are in it to win it and come out successful. So lets do this steph, why because we have the choice to do so. The choice to put ourselves first and rock!

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SWEETLIPS 11/26/2010 6:06PM

    I know this is your blog, but after reading Pookie's comments, I love that we do routine. I too sometimes do not feel moitivated, and I realize that it is just old talking that put me in the place and I have to look for the rainbow that is always waiting for me. You have motivated so many of us, and I hope we can help you as well. We are here for you.

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DAVEYSHADOW 11/26/2010 7:05AM

    emoticon don't know what it is, but I am struggling as well. Need to get December going well so I am ready for Christmas.

Struggled this week as had old IUD out and new one put in on Monday - not a pleasant experience LOL! and now home computers are up the creek. No internet and we can't get our old software and drivers installed on the new computer as it is running Windows 7 and old software is for Windows XP - need new drivers, but guess what they are on the internet! At the moment the new computer is just a pretty ornament!

Anyway keep up the good work, just think of the party dresses you can now wear for this season. You have done so well so let's not lose it now!



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PUNZIE73 11/25/2010 9:46AM

    Girl...I know ALL to well how you feel. You have days where your motivation sky rockets and then other days where is just plummets! Wassupwidat? I did feel this way today as well, which was the inspiration for my blog...go check it out when you have some time. Thanks for the inspiration!

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-POOKIE- 11/25/2010 6:36AM

    If you can manage motivation, try looking for routine... you dont need motivation to brush your teeth, or dress in clean clothes... its all routine. Make a routine for a food issue, or a low effort exercise to fit in, so even if you cant find enough ooomph to really work out, there is a walk planned, or if you are feeling tempted, the routine of, say porridge for breakfast, can kick in.

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A Small Gain After A Big Loss

Monday, November 22, 2010

I had my new Monday weigh in and i gained a pound. I'm really happy with this - yeah i know it's a gain BUT, i lost over 6 pounds last week! Sooo to still be so close to my huge loss, i'm really pleased and ready to keep moving and working.

I over ate and drank Saturday night for my Mum & Dad's Silver Wedding Anniversary and then Sunday i had hangover food... but it's all good because this is my lifestyle, i had a day and a half off and now i am back to being sensible.

I didn't work out when i got home tonight - i am soooo tired right now - i should actually be in bed now but i wanted to Spark around for a little while, i'll go to bed with my book shortly. I did have an abs workout though, because that's what my main focus is now. I didn't realise how hard i actually find crunches and stuff... i read about people doing 200 a day and i can barely knock out 30!

Another happy note, since it's my second week being under 159lbs, that means i have lost over 80lbs! Woohoo! I did have to make sure it was atleast over a week though, just to be sure hah.

I need some sleep !

  
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PUNZIE73 11/25/2010 9:44AM

    159 is my ultimate goal. I hope I can do it. You should be proud of yourself! You go girl!

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FITJEANS 11/22/2010 11:46PM

    Wow steph i am so proud of ya, you are amazing. Youve done a phenomenal job, your gonna have to send some of that emoticonness over here. I am truly motivated after visiting your page. Thanks chica you rock emoticon emoticon as usual. Just continue to keep being that beautiful woman from within.
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BLAAMA57 11/22/2010 5:41PM

    Congratulations! I love your positive attitude when you gained a pound. I'm very inspired by you, because you have lost so much! I hope to look like you in a year or so! :)

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YESKATIECAN 11/22/2010 4:21PM

    Steph,
A pound means nothing if you had a great weekend with your family! Next week, it will be gone and then some! Your friggin amazing girl!!! You look sooo good and you did it the right way!

XOXOXOXO

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