Friday, July 04, 2014
The good news is I'm scoring pretty high on my anatomy tests. The bad news is I misinterpreted something I thought I heard the teacher say and have lost some credit on homework assignments. So I guess we'll see what he meant about attendance and participation at the end of the term. But I can kind of see the light at the end of the tunnel for this term.
My plan for spending these two weeks prepping the house for sale has not gone so well. Each day seems to fill up with other stuff. We may have a party in a week or two, though, so that should require some focus in that direction. Well, life is too precious to spend much of it in regret. Moving forward and hoping for the best may sound naive, but I really am working my assets off.
I have a physiology test on Tuesday but I feel pretty well in control of that.
Monday, June 30, 2014
It's been a while since I've done a month in review, but I did turn 44 this month, and I guess that sort of thing does always make me think a bit. It's been a couple of months since I decided I am fine with maintaining at 160. I kind of worried that when I stopped wishing I weighed less, I might start weighing more, but I seem to be hanging in at the same spot. I'm still eating about the same and working out about the same, so that totally makes sense.
I do keep meaning to do more cardio than I do. I had a thing going a couple of weeks ago when I was watching youtubes about the nervous system. It's kind of fun to look back and realize how much I've learned, though I need to learn a lot more before my second round of exams. My anxiety settled down pretty well, and my sister shared a talk she gave in church that got me thinking about what's important in life, which was good.
I got a couple of projects done around the house, less than I might but it is what it is. The idea is to keep moving forward, right?
Wednesday, June 25, 2014
I'll bask in a full ticker while I can, before it throws another chunk on there. Not sure if it goes to 100 or 120 or what. Or if it changes tomorrow or next Wednesday.
I was having severe anxiety last night, verging on anxiety attacks, though I guess it may have been a stomach bug. Someone was telling me about getting all emotional and then having a migraine. This morning my stomach was so wound up, I couldn't tell if I was hungry or not, and now later my stomach just doesn't feel hungry. I probably broke it. But at least I'm not anxious!
Yesterday in physiology we discussed referred pain and sleep in the course of discussing the peripheral nervous system. Apparently heartburn is referred pain, where a couple of nerves from an organ and from the skin share pathways and since we very seldom need feedback on our internal organs, the brain interprets the pain as coming from the skin. Now I've never had heartburn (5 pregnancies, even) and I used to think science should study my stomach when I pass on. But it's likelier I just lack good fat breakdown enzymes. So I don't get heartburn up top, but I am pretty sensitive in my intestines when the excess fat arrives. I even went to the hospital a few times when I was fairly young, complaining of pain in my abdomen. They're always like "yeah right, sorry we can't do much about that."
I used to think I was lactose intolerant, but since monitoring calories (and usually fat by extension) it's been super less frequent. Add that to the absence of heartburn, and I'm thinking its the enzymes.
Tuesday, June 17, 2014
In anatomy class I learned that biceps flex and supinate, and here I've just been flexing as straight as I can this whole time! To supinate a biceps curl, you start with the dumbbells on either side of you like you're on parallel bars, and as you raise them you turn your hands so they wind up side by side like your gripping a chin up bar.
I'm also working my rhomboids more on my lat rows. I don't know if I could tell you what that involves, though. I think it's a little more subtle. I've just been tensing various muscles all week as I've been studying them. Being really careful not to get too crazy, though. Pushups are still just pushups.
Sunday, June 08, 2014
When I went back to school last fall, I decided I wouldn't study on Sundays. And it really seems to benefit my studies. Refraining from doing school work for the one day renews my motivation so I'm champing at the bit on Monday morning.
But today I realized how much I need a day off so I can think about my personal and spiritual life. These aspects of life require thought and creative energy the same as school does. I also like to cook things I may not usually take the time to cook during the week, which is kind of creative. It's a bonding exercise for the family.
I used to take break days from dieting. But that was back when I was losing weight, having a calorie deficit every day, And they got less and less. I think I always tracked, but ate as much as I wanted. Then I ate an extra 500 calories, and later 300. Then I did calorie cycling for a while, moving toward knowing how to eat a maintenance level. I've sometimes thought about going back to calorie cycling, but it's kind of taxing mentally.
So the question is, what kind of things are good to take a break from? I think as a "recovering compulsive eater" it's kind of dangerous for me to take a break from eating on point. If it were hard work, I might be renewed by a break, but eating the right amount is not hard work.
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