Saturday, March 15, 2014
I'm maintaining okay, but right at the top of my desired range. I would like to take several more pounds off. And the question, if this is what I think I want, why don't I?
I'm not doing much deliberate cardio. Because? I don't feel like I have extra time.
I'm not calorie cycling. Because? When I do, I seem to sleep poorly.
I'm not sparking on a daily basis. Because? I'm not trusting the importance of social support.
Of course when I sit down and look the reasons for my choices in the face, they're not as sensible as they seem. They come down to beliefs that are not going to contribute to me getting what I claim to want. So which things need to change, my beliefs or my goal?
I do feel like I need to make the time for cardio. I frequently read textbooks for long periods of time when I could be on the treadmill. Not because of my weight, though, but for my cardiovascular health and my mood.
There are alternate explanations for the difficulty sleeping. I do have a lot of anxiety right now. Trying to eat less will contribute to that. What other things can I do to address the anxiety? Because it's not like I can just wait for the anxiety to clear up on its own. It's always going to be something.
Sparking and other social supports: Like the cardio, I need to remember why this is important and consider what it gives me. I need to do things that build me rather than deplete me (like arguing about politics - not on spark, but elsewhere). It's like choosing healthy foods and not toxic ones.
It's interesting to look back a year. I was largely in the same range I am now. There are things I'm doing right, like strength training and tracking my food, getting enough water.
Wednesday, March 05, 2014
The first thing I noticed a few weeks ago is that when I'm working out, especially doing strength training, I feel different from how I used to. This is in contrast to when I'm sitting on the couch, I don't feel different from when I was obese.
The second thing is I'm just finally getting the hang of savoring my food. It may sound weird, and it's amazing that I've been tracking my intake for over 2 years and just getting around to this. It's as simple as thoroughly chewing one bite and swallowing it before taking the next. Doing it not because someone told me to, since I've read this advice many times, but doing it because I really want to experience each bite. I'm aware too of how I try to get my toddler to eat as fast as possible and how I've probably set up all my kids to snarf down their food.
I'm also finding as I go along in maintenance I'm less aware of each month landmark. I'm not sure if that's an important thing or not. It's probably a good thing as the healthy lifestyle becomes more fully integrated into my daily routine. But I remember when I was approaching maintenance wondering why people blogged less and less often as they went along. I mean, a lot of it for me has been going back to school. It's kind of like how when you have a baby you take lots of pictures, but as they grow the changes are less obvious, and you maybe don't take as many pictures. But they never stop growing.
Tuesday, February 25, 2014
A friend of mine was stressing about whether he made it into his graduate program, which has a 40% acceptance rate, and I realized that the PA program is like 5% acceptance rate (your chances appear to double if you reapply in a subsequent year) and the BSN program I'm eligible for is a 25% acceptance rate. So I looked up some other options. I mean, there's always the long slope of a 2 year RN program at the community college, 16 months for the RN to BSN, and then maybe grad school after.
But other things I could apply for in the 2015 cycle year are a biochemistry graduate program, or a masters in nutrition, which accepts around 20% would require several more classes I haven't taken yet, but I wouldn't have to take most of them until I knew whether or not I got into nursing school. The biochemistry program is more like a 40-50% acceptance rate, though their average GRE score is higher.
So those are all interesting options. I've been thinking about biochemistry just because I seem to enjoy that class, which seems a little unusual. And I'm really interested in the regulation of metabolism.
Sunday, February 16, 2014
At the end of summer I posted a low weight of 152.5, but I've been around 160 for a couple of months now, which is closer than I'd like to be to the overweight line. So I've been talking about getting back in weight loss mode for several weeks.
There's a biggest loser contest on at the college starting next week. I first looked at it because my teacher is offering extra credit, but I don't really need more extra credit (I think there's a limit that I'm already set for). But it got me thinking.
Initially I thought that if I lost 2 pounds a week for the 9 weeks of the contest, I'd be around a BMI of 22. But my husband thought that sounded unreasonable, and 2 pounds a week would probably involve me being hungrier on a daily basis than I'm interested in being. So I'm just going to shoot for a final weight of 150 lbs. That's a BMI of about 23. I don't think I'm particularly likely to win, but who knows. Maybe I'll be like the tortise. And I may get a chance to promote the DASH Diet, the NWCR and Sparkpeople.
My exercise streak is going well. I signed up to do 5 days a week for 12 weeks. I don't know how many weeks it's been, but I am turning back into a daily exerciser.
Thursday, February 06, 2014
Everyone is up in arms about Rachel losing too much weight for the Biggest Loser. Maybe she did. Maybe the rules need to be tuned so that people aren't incentivized to go below a normal BMI. Imagine if we had a "without going under" provision like on Price is right. That would keep the finale exciting! In season 1 they had transformation number that included fat loss. I would love to see that come back.
But on to sexism. Did we freak out like this when Danny Cahill showed up looking like he'd walked home from Andersonville? And Rudy, the runner up that year, had an even lower BMI. I about cried when I saw how emaciated he was, and still didn't win. He was 6'4" and technically still overweight at 208, which exposes the problem with BMI for tall people. In an interview Rudy said:
"In talking with Dr. Huizenga and my own physicians, probably the best weight for me -- especially since I plan on getting back into the gym and putting some muscle back on -- I'll probably settle in somewhere around 225 to 235. I think with my height and where I want to be, that will be the best."
What I see in a lot of this coverage is the message that women's appearance is always up for criticism, whereas men are applauded for being competitive. I didn't think Rachel looked too thin for a Biggest Loser finale. She still had some muscle definition. She still had swimming rotator cuffs. I think she's below a sustainable weight, but that's been true for most of the winners and many of the finalists.
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