Sunday, September 28, 2014
With my foot injury, and waiting for a doc to diagnose my foot, (I am on a LONG list of patients waiting to see a podiatrist), I confess that I have held a pity party a few times(...no party guests of course), and I have given into eating emotionally occasionally. . .and as of last week, I faced myself and admitted that this 'occasional' bad habit has become just that - a bad 'frequent' habit.
I am thankful that fitness ( being my true love) is and always will be, a Habit. I find very creative ways to spend time strengthening my body....using low impact cardio/or no cardio due to my foot injury.
So far - Success!
Do I know this mindless eating is self-destructive? Yes, of course I do. So WHY would I head in that direction when I know better.
Sometimes situations can feel complicated, messy & just plain hopeless. The key word here is "feel". . .because the fact is Hope is real, the answer is simple, and I know I need to just take the first step.
I feel so embarrassed & frustrated that I am at this place. I didn't want to blog about it either. But I felt led to share the truth with you, and I KNOW I need support.
...:::Perhaps someone else is going through a messy patch in life and might relate to mine. Or perhaps someone has a word of encouragement for me.....or a 2x4 to wack me with...LOL!
I think I strayed from "mindful eating" during the time while we were looking for a house....:::during our move and definitely during our construction days...LOL. This decision was such a bad choice( I don't KNOW just when I made the decision...rather it snuck in somehow). I now have such a deep hole to climb out of. . .or at least it feel as if I am in a hole. I need help climbing out.
I refuse to be led by feelings. I AM here, blogging. This is my first step. And as of yesterday, I made the choice to eliminate ALL quick bites....another name for "junkfood". I am committed to prepping my meals even if I have to wake up earlier. I am worth the effort. I still LOVE fruits/veggies TONS. Somehow along the way, I chose the easy way & I compromised. Oh, how costly that choice was. I have spaghetti squash cooked, a fridge full of veggies, whole grains and fresh fruit ready to carry out my PLAN.
For those of you that don't know, this summer has been FULL for all of us - a huge move, house under construction, a new job, my new cello studio, multiple sports schedules for our children...not to mention a new music calendar too, leaving our home church and in the process of finding a new one close to where we live. These are all emotionally charged events. I just thought I was strong enough. I feel like a failure for allowing myself to compromise. I used to RUN when life became challenging, but without that outlet, I have felt trapped. Perhaps that was when I gave in and turned to food. ....not sure, just thinking out loud.
OK, I'm all done now....:::Thanks for hearing me out.
I'm ready to be held accountable, to be faithful to my "mindful eating" PLAN, and to post my progress here. If I don't have time to blog I will post on my FEED.
Sunday, September 07, 2014
(Wow...I don't seem to have time to blog anymore....looks like it's been more than a month since I last blogged.)
I have been busy with bits of this & that at home.....:::finally putting a few finishing touches in our house. And with school beginning ....in full swing now, there's just no way.
A friend asked if I would share my home ideas...:::so here are my latest ones.
I saw this "scarf"...fell in love with the colors, and used it as a table runner. Then I used my own pottery & black iron pieces to accent the top of this antique buffet table.
...and above this buffet I hung another wrought iron "plate rack"...except I like books...and hanging-from-the-ceiling-butterflies.
Finally after some digging around in the garage, I found my candelabra and decorated it with autumn leaves and wired ribbon....it's home is on our dining room table.
Just hung my wrought iron hook fixtures in the foyer for guests....(shown is just one of a pair). Our home is always open to all as it is a source for choir class, my cello studio and of course our home school classes. We don't have a coat closet; so, these will have to do.
Love this find - these HUGE glass airtight jars hold so much, and have chalkboard labels....which I absolutely LOVE! Now I need chalk!
I remember showing you in one of my last blogs (Home Renovations) that I had left a few cabinet doors open....instead choosing to mount a fabric backing. I like the color/design that it lends the kitchen. I also got the fabric on SALE...always a plus!
This hanging candle piece was an $11 bargain ( originally $50)!! I like the delicate metal filigree and my children love to light it up anytime. We find excuses to do just that. . .like yesterday afternoon when a thunderstorm rolled in and the dark skies, and rain set us up for a perfect tea time together.....with candlelight.
So, that's all for now....& as I have learned by now - a home owner continues to tweak her house as time goes by with a neverending list... I can live with that.
At least it FEELS like home now. With bare walls and rooms still waiting for painting...etc, I still have my long list...The boys room is next...with painting & border...then the girls room needs painting and a mural of trees too. We will all get creative with brushwork! I'm looking forward to that.
Also, I have made that executive decision to paint my dark wood paneling in the living room....but that will take place down the road. Lol! These lists are fun to have.
I have reached a place where I can stop, survey my surroundings and be happy.
Wednesday, July 30, 2014
It's been almost a month since I joined my new gym - Planet Fitness!!
...:::and I am feeling Ggrreat! Can I just give a holler for Fitness? Do you know how I spell f.i.t.n.e.s.s.? - health ....laughter.....balance.....energy!! Oh Yeah!
You know I haven't been running due to the REST my injured foot needs....and still needs. ((BUT)) I will add that ever since I joined the gym, and got back on track with what I COULD do, my foot has slowly improved.
I love my intervals with the ARC Trainer, cycling & elliptical....as well as my JOY in weight lifting! I involve what I CAN do and am feeling so much better.
It feels so good to be making progress once again albeit SLOW, but still Progress...:::to feel alive with energy I only receive from being FIT.
I wasn't sure if I could find an affordable gym close to home which would enable me to frequent the place at least 4 times/week thereby making it worth the annual cost. But here I am feeling at home in this gym - Praise the Lord for His direction, timing & faithfulness!
Also, my little sister joined the gym too and we have been meeting 2-3x/week.
She needed a motivator - she chose me.
...and, yes, I DO believe I will run again one day in the future. I have to keep the faith. Meanwhile, there is much to enJOY while I wait!
On another note: I have had several ongoing house projects going on....:::so I am keeping busy in that direction. I enjoy crossing off stuff on these long lists of mine. hee-hee...
And in addition to being busy with house improvements, I began to teach cello lessons in my home( something I have wanted to do for a long time), and I am continuing to teach our weekly children's choir too. Our summer concert is this Sunday. I can say that everyone is well prepared. We have a group of 8 very talented youth who will be singing 4 part harmony. I am so very proud of them.
Music makes the world go round. . .
Meanwhile, my sister is flying to Ohio for a scheduled surgery next week.
I would really appreciate your prayers for her healing & wisdom for the docs.
We are celebrating my beloved grandmother's 91st birthday on Sunday!
She is an AMAZING lady! What a blessing she is to everyone.
Lastly, my children are begging for a pug dog. We know they shed and everyone has allergies ( several have asthma). I wonder if I sweep every day, if that would do the trick...ya think?
Thursday, June 26, 2014
It's high time I posted a blog about our new home ...:::if I wait til I am satisfied, it might take til Christmas...Lol! Once you get going, the work is never finished, or so I am discovering...
If-truth-be-told, we are finished for the most part...at least the house is functional, construction workers are gone, and I am content to wait to gradually do this-and-that.
I have plenty of time to piddle with different kitchen hardware as I find what I like, time to place all of the contact paper in my cabinets, time to choose just the right roman shade for above the kitchen sink and curtains at the dining window....etc.
...::Before pic on the day we purchased the house:
...::Process of trees trimmed and shrubs scalped, leaves raked:
...::Before kitchen pics:
...::Pics of the "Process"(sanded cabinets & trim, primed, sanded again, painted topcoat 2X, new granite countertops, natural stone backslash, kitchen faucet & sink):
..:::( Oh my word, the taping that must be prepped before anything is done! LOL!!, and everything papered before spray painting too) Also check out the fact that my cabinet doors are still down...I am undecided as to which ones will stay down . I decided to use a foam board/fabric backing on several cabinets to show case my handmade pottery:
BOY! Did I learn TONS of new DIY projects in just 30 days!
...::Before pics of living room:
...::After pics of the living room with new laminate plank flooring(Oh, and that pic of the tree on canvas is my painting that our housewarming party guests added their touch by using their thumbprints to create "leaves"):
...::Before pics of the foyer(stripping wall paper, priming & spray texturing):
...::Final (so far) pics of the kitchen:
..:::and my new paint (sassy blue):
..:::Lastly, pics of our backyard with Faith, my just 10 yr. old DD in our pool!
..:::more blooming trees:
..:::and my DD, Fairlight near our back fence and clothesline:
We moved in on the 16th - seems like an age ago. Lol!
Tuesday, June 17, 2014
,and a virtual hug or two.
It's my foot again. Yep. I actually cried today - and I am not a person given to tears. I just want this foot to heal. (guess I need more patience)
It is beginning to hurt a bit...on a pain scale of 1-10, it's just a 3 or 4. Still, I wish my foot were better. I LONG so much (I cannot begin to express) for a run. .. or a jog. This break from any pounding on my feet is painful emotionally.
I just needed to write this blog....always feels better afterwards.
Thanks for bearing with me.
Mid-spring, I took a REST from any foot pounding fitness (which was 90% of all my routines at the time), and began to use the foam roller and ice on my foot, and just rest more.... Then - we moved & REST left in a hurry. LOL!
I have been on my feet more than EVER before ...::::I have been in the DIY construction b'ness for 31 days now.....at least 12 hours each day doing pretty rough work. I DO know how to float walls, texture them, paint, tile, create flagstone walkways, sand/prime/paint cabinets, and stay sane the entire time.
Hence, my upper body is quite fit and SORE! ...:::but my lower body and my heart misses the cardio, the JOY of an elevated heart rate with the all the rewards that fitness brings.
So, with being on my feet more than ever before and pushing myself 31 consecutive days - this could very well be WHY my foot is beginning to hurt. For Pete's sake - my hands feel like they are swollen and arthritic, my shoulders are killing me. Why shouldn't my feet hurt too? Lol....
It makes sense - add 31 days of construction work to my routine, and why shouldn't my body not pour out a complaint. don't mind me - ...I'm just rambling.
However, we are FINISHED now with our house improvements! That blog will be up and coming soon, I promise, with pictures too of the before & after (as requested). . .
God must have a plan with the timing, and the consequences of this injury.
I know He will heal the loss I feel, and fill the void with something in the meantime. He knows my desire to run. I leave my heart trusting in His Love and His Plan for me.
For now, I can continue floor exercises & Pilates.
If you have any suggestion for me, I would appreciate it. . . but if it is just listening, that is a blessing too.
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