Friday, May 22, 2009
Fortitude: To have the strength of mind to face danger, endure pain, or adversity with courage.
Resilience: The ability to recover from or to adjust easily to misfortune or change.
In my life these has been my strongest attributes. It has kept me from becoming a statistic. Most of my life , I had been told things that I would never be able to do, and things I would never become. I always felt that I would never be worth loving, and didn’t deserve it. After all, my own parents didn’t want me; so how could any one truly love someone that didn’t belong to them. My family was ravaged with drugs long before I was born, I never had a chance with my biological family , so it was God’s Will that I be put in foster care. I went through most of my life , with the “Woe is Me” syndrome. I always secretly felt sorry for myself, because of the cards dealt to me.
I gave up any thing that was “too hard”, It seemed as if I always had this dark cloud around me. I always lived life on the edge, and on the defense, for I knew trouble was always around the corner. I didn’t walk at my high school graduation, neither did I go to the prom. I felt that I didn’t have any one to make proud, so what was the use.
Although, I have been through many trials and tribulations in life, I know that God has been with me In the midst of it all. He has always kept his Angels camped around me . If not, I wouldn’t have life, I would’ve been dead along time ago, with a lot of my friends. I found out the truth about life at a very young age. The devil came to Kill, Steal, and Destroy. “Therefore rejoice, ye heavens, and ye that dwell in them. Woe to the inhabiters of the earth and of the sea! for the devil is come down unto you, having great wrath, because he knoweth that he hath but a short time.” Revelations 12:12
I am proud to say! That I have turned out to be what I was told, I would never become statistically, and literally. God has blessed me with these two great attributes that I would‘ve never knew I possessed, If I hadn’t gave in and let God. I came to the conclusion that I couldn’t bear my burdens alone. God has given me the wisdom to know what to do. The skill to do it, and the Virtue of doing it. I think God for SP, it has equipped me with the tools I need to accomplish my weight loss goals , and an ongoing test to use my attributes on a daily basis. I love the members, and the friends I have on this site. I feel like this is one big family, something I’ve longed for all my life. And I will put those attributes to use, and make the family proud.