Friday, October 04, 2013
I have now lost 19lbs - and working out 5 days a week! seeing some big changes
this is me from my graduation in 2009 at my near highest weight! since then I have lost over 40lbs!
and me today!
Sunday, September 22, 2013
I have managed to continue on my weight loss journey, staying on track and losing another 7lbs taking me to 16lbs in total in 6 weeks.
things have slowed down the last couple of weeks - purely because I was getting bored of eating the same things, so I have had a few higher calorie days and increased the length of my workouts temporarily, just to account for it.
I had dominos pizza last night, the first since taking major steps towards a healthier me.
I enjoyed it, took my time, savoured it then left the rest until this morning, Where I had a couple of cold slices - because it's oh so good. then threw the rest away to prevent me eating it all.
I calculated it all into myfitness app so I am accountable but not feeling guilty.
I have worked out today already and eaten a big salad for lunch.
no need to stress, I enjoyed it and I have moved on. I will probably do another workout later to account for the pizza this morning - bit o dance will be good! :)
My body shape has really changed and my fitness levels have improved dramatically as has my pain in my knees, ankles and feet.
I feel good and I am committed to getting to my goals - it will happen slowly and there will be days where I want to do nothing, but every step I take in the right direction, gets me one step closer to my goal and maintaining it so I can achieve my career and life goals!
Wednesday, August 28, 2013
I have come to the conclusion that I shouldn't make promises to blog regularly because clearly I can't maintain that - ah well!
However, after a ropey few months with healthy eating, exercise etc I was working non-stop and was just trying to get through the day then (at last) I have had the summer holidays and during that time, I went home for a visit - I hadn't lost any weight or made any attempt to be healthy I just ate whatever I wanted and sat on my butt.
Then I ended up having the most freeing conversation with my mum, talking about a lot of things about my past, my dad and all the painful things you never really like to mention.
there were no tears just talking and it really opened my eyes as to my mum being only human not some superwoman I always expected her to be. It didn't mean I loved her any less, in fact now understand her in a far greater way. I was also able to take my dad off of his pedestal and realise he was only human too, everyone makes mistakes and falls down.
I felt lighter when we had finished talking, lighter than I had ever felt around her and in myself.
I was letting go of hurt and guilt and pain that I had carried around for 15 years.
I learnt new things, and reminisced on old things. It was such a healing conversation even better that it was unplanned and just felt natural.
the day after that conversation, I decided I wanted to start taking care of myself - let go of this eating anxiety and addiction that I have obsessed over for far too long.
3 weeks later and I have completely changed my diet, I have had no diet coke and I work out 5-6 days a week.
I rarely miss anything, If I do I allow myself a small amount and then move on.
I feel better and stronger and I am not tempted by things at the supermarket.
I am done holding on to fat and to food, food is good, I love it but I won't let it control me or my emotions. I am letting go.
I am 9lbs down already. I have stopped weighing myself because I was falling into the trap of weighing every day and obsessing about whether or not I am 1/4 of a lb up or not and I was in danger of it affecting my progress. I am now 3 days without weighing and feeling good.
If i work out, drink my water and eat well then the scale and my size and my clothes can only get smaller.
I am determined but not pressured like every other time, I am sure there will be moments I panic or stress, but with planning and strength I will keep making good decisions. It's not a quick fix, it's not temporary.
I will push forward and make sure I can have a long, fulfilling life.
No more hiding in the shadows.
Wednesday, May 01, 2013
I am not feeling good about myself, the warmer weather is back - my self confidence and calm temperament have disappeared!
I feel bloated and disgusting - I just don't like me at the moment.
I long for a day when I can feel good about myself, when I can say "I'm beautiful" and believe it.
I yearn for love, for self belief and confidence to chase my dream career!
I can sort every other area of my life - but for some reason I cannot allow myself to lose weight - WHY WHY WHY???? It's so frustrating - why do I want food so badly?
I eat a lot of healthy food - but I also eat a lot of unhealthy food.
I feel tired and heavy everyday and this makes me grumpy, frustrated and sad!
Now how do I sort through this and put a plan together...
I know that if I try to do too much at once I will fall - I've been doing this long enough to learn that.
So I am going to set small achievable goals that will make me feel like I am doing really well and hopefully get me some results.
I will drink more water (2 litres a day)
I will eat far more healthy, fresh foods than unhealthy, calorific processed foods.
I will walk briskly everyday
I will blog regularly - my thoughts and feeling to get them off my chest and to help me sort through those thoughts and feelings to prevent as much bingeing as possible.
I will eat smaller portions - and eat 6 meals a day instead of 3
I will also save money by making healthy packed lunches rather than allowing myself to buy whatever I fancy - usually something calorific!
and I will lower my carb intake - purely because it's pretty much the bulk of my diet!!
any tips?? I would love a support buddy to check in with if anyone out there would like one - I can support you well! It's me I can't support haha!
I would appreciate any tips, motivational speeches, quotes, internet hugs etc etc
Hope you are all well!
Tuesday, April 23, 2013
I am returning for yet another visit - I have to hand it to myself, I never quite give up!
I am still living in Cheltenham, I have been living here for 15 months now.
I am working at a primary school, and they have just extended my 18month contract by another year and increased my hours too!
I am also giving private singing tuition to 5 separate students, and still teaching at PQA.
I have grown up a lot and I have done a few sessions of CBT, which have really helped, I am building my emotional strength and learning to say no, to fight for what I want and to not force myself to endure the things I don't enjoy if I don't have to.
I am supporting myself entirely and enjoying all of my work - which considering I can work up to 50 hours a week it's a good thing I do!
I am still working on my weight, I have maintained my weight for over 9 months now, fluctuating frequently but able to keep it around the same - However, I had a photo shoot on sunday and although I didn't like a lot of the pictures there were a couple I liked and the process of being made up and having to pose - it boosted my confidence and made me feel good.
So this week i have made an extra effort to eat well and exercise - so here's hoping it continues - I know I am still willing to fight for me and I will do whatever it takes to achieve my goals.
I hope you are all well!
PS: Here's a pic from the photoshoot!
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