Tuesday, May 29, 2012
I need some help on figuring something out? Or maybe i already know the answer, but i'm looking for confirmation...ya, we'll go with that!
So this weekend i had a friend over at my place Sunday night through last night. I told her i was getting up at 7am to go for a 4 mile walk and then hit the gym. She SAID she wanted to join me - she's the same friend that i work out with once a week on Wednesdays. Well, 7am came and i was out the door on my own. She woke up and tried to start a conversation, but i told her i needed to get this 4 miles in before it was 100 degrees outside. She didn't want to go for the walk so she slept for another hour.
When i came back to my place i asked her if she planned on going to the gym with me. SOOOO...for a woman that knew and had SAID she wanted to work out she failed to bring anything to workout in or her gym shoes. I lent her a sports bra and a pair of shoes - she went in her pjs. It took us almost 40 minutes to get out of the house because she was taking her sweet time.
At the gym we go our separate ways. I went straight for the ST area and she went for the elliptical. She asked me if i was going to warm up - she actually said "it's a good idea to warm up so you don't pull a muscle or anything." she said it in a way that meant i should do a warm up before i ST. I simply said, my 4 mile walk was my warm up. I went on my way. I spent about 40 minutes in the ST area. She was on the elliptical maybe 20-30 minutes. I then jumped on the treadmill for 32 minutes doing my walk/jog intervals. I saw her leave the elliptical and go into the group fitness room. She grabbed a stability ball and laid on the floor and plopped her legs on the ball. I NEVER saw her do a crunch. I think she just laid there like that. Towards the end of my treadmill time i saw her walk to the ST area. I think she did 1 set of reps and then she sat down at a table and waited for me.
As we were walking back to my place she asked me how my workout was. I said it was great and i asked her about hers - again i clearly saw what she did. She said she felt great and that her workout was amazing. REALLY?!
Then we go to lunch. And i'm from Chicago and where i'm from we are honest with those we care about. So i asked her if she really wanted to lose weight. She's 230lbs. She said yes. I told her i didn't believe her and proceeded to discuss why i thought the way i did (i've always been open and honest with friends. It's who i am and they understand it's out of love that i express my concerns). She started to cry and explained how other areas of her life she has no control over (i'm her friend so i knew all of these things). Simply put - i told her she makes excuses for everything. She doesn't put forth effort in most of the things going on in her life. She just lets whatever happens happen and then cries about it later.
Here's the kicker - she proceeded to tell me how she's upset because we wear the same size clothes. She was crying so freaking hard because of it. Remember i'm still around 280lbs so i have 50lbs on her yet we wear the exact same sizes. I had an answer but i did not say anything - the truth is that she doesn't work out so she's flabby. I'm big but i'm solid because i workout and workout hard. The real truth is that the clothes i lend her to wear are extremely tight on her - so she may be lieing about her weight.
She's one of those people that i may need to send to the exit door of our friendship stay. Out of any relationship there is give and take. There are things you take away from it. I see what she can get from me, but when i look at it from my perspective i'm not getting anything. She brings me down. I've had a rough childhood and refuse to ever believe that someone is a product of their environment. You choose if you want to stay in the same kind of crappy atmosphere that you are used to or you do better for yourself. I chose better! She has chosen to let others do the choosing for her. I can only push and help someone for so long. At some point they need to take control of their own lives and do something for themselves.
So, i'm asking...is she just jealous or is she self-loathing?
I'm really not mean, i'm just tired of people's self pity parties when they refuse to do anything to fix the problems in their lives.
Friday, May 25, 2012
So this big & beautiful girl cheered on her friends son at his scrimmage game last night. After the game was over she and i walked the track (0.25 miles), walked the stadium stairs (55 steps up...55 steps down) 5 times (10 total for 550 stairs), and walked the track another lap for 0.25 miles (we had to leave because they closed up the stadium). SO...this big girl that has been walking for HOURS on any given day got her @ss kicked by those stairs! After the second trip up the stairs i had that not-so-friendly visitor that we all get from time to time. You know the one? The one that feels like they are clawing their way out of your abdomen and no amount of poking at your ribs or bending over can get rid of! DANG! I had a great sweat! So we are now on the lookout for places where we can incorporate walking up and down stairs on our walks.
This is me BEFORE we went walking and stair climbing!
I love this angle! Why can't everywhere i walk i look this good? I mean HELLO - barely a double chin in sight!
Tonight i am in the gym. I will be lifting heavier weights so wish me luck!
Tomorrow i am out walking. During my walk tomorrow (Saturday) i want to walk/jog the 3.14 miles. I'm hoping i don't die!
Sunday, i'm aiming for a personal best. The most i've ever walked at a solid time is 6.28 miles. My goal for Sunday is to walk 8 miles. It's been a while since i've pushed myself just to see what i can do. I'm currently looking up parks and places in my area to see if i can find a location to add stairs and hills to that walk. I don't want just a straight normal walk. I'll take my camera to take pics of the journey.
So this morning i got up and did some batch cooking for the weekend. I took the recipe from a fellow Spark buddy and tweaked it just a little. All that is it is 10 servings of chicken breast, juice from 3 large oranges and 3 limes, peppers, onions, paprika and various spices. Tonight i'll cook my rice and steam the veggies. It'll give me 10 meals and allow me no excuses as to why i would need to eat out.
Ok, so remember that DRESS i've been talking about? You know, the bridesmaid dress that i cannot zip up all the way...here it is:
See how it doesn't zip all the way? Well...this looks worse because i didn't have somewhere there to help me zip it up further, but you get the point.
Here are my Mid-May pics that i failed to post...not much difference from my mid-April pics...
Can you tell that i'm not shy about taking pictures? I'm hoping to see a difference in my mid-June pics.
Have a great Memorial Day weekend!
Thursday, May 24, 2012
I had to do some soul searching yesterday. I've been so frustrated over the "plateau" of mine. I've been sitting right about 280 since the beginning of April. I workout like a dog, i eat around 1600avg calories a day...why wasn't i losing weight.
I reached out to 4 women - each with their own goals, accomplishments and success stories.
I reached out to Yoovie - I love this girl because she tells it like it is and she doesn't take anyone's crap! She's who she is - love it or leave it. I'll admit, i'm often too scared to comment on her blogs because she responds to them and i would hate to set her off.
I reached out to Callikia - this girl has lost a GREAT amount of weight, has plateau'd at around 300lbs and is still kicking @ss regardless of that arch enemy - the scale.
I reached out to my Sister-in-law who is a personal trainer - this girl has helped so many women lose weight. I've seen her in action and ONCE...yes, only once did i allow myself to have a training session with her. My body ached for days after that 30 minute session. OMG! She should be illegal!
And i reached out to my friend that is getting married in August - you know, the one i have to wear the dress for? She currently working out and has dropped about 40lbs. She bought her dress a size 10...she is barely fitting into a size 12 right now. But she's working with a trainer and i wanted to know what she was doing that worked.
So after these 4 wonderful ladies took time out of their busy days to answer a few questions i had, here's the consensus...
1) I'm not eating enough - especially for what i was doing
2) the workouts I was doing, along with the calorie amount i was consuming, i was killing my metabolism.
3) I don't need to complete hours of cardio every day. I need to make my cardio, an hour a day, count for me. I need to interval train. Whether that's my changing my routes so i do more hills (hills and flats), or jog every few minutes between walking minutes. I need high intensity intervals!
4) My ST sucked! All i was doing was conditioning my "muscles" for endurance - garbage stuff. I need to lift heavier weights for fewer reps. If i can do 8 or 10 reps and not struggle for the last few of them - my weight isn't heavy enough.
5) I need to rest my body. I currently do not do this. I work the same muscles everyday. So on the days i ST, the next day i will not - i will allow those muscles to rest and recover. It's in the rest and recovery time that the muscles actually build up.
6) Heavier weights will NOT bulk me up and make me look like She-Hulk.
These women rock!
So i did a core/upper body workout earlier today...
floor crunches 100
oblique crunches 100
reverse crunches 60
arm curls (10lb weights - i don't have heavier at home) 60
Reverse Flys (4lb weights - ok so i need to up the weight here...i have 5 and 10lb weights i can use) 30
Arm Extensions (10lb weights) 60
Tonight i will complete my cardio: I'll be with a friend at her sons scrimmage game so we are walking the track around the field and in between (when we reach the stairs) we'll run up and down the stadium stairs. I've NEVER done this so we'll see how it goes.
I've been over weight for as long as i can remember. I've tried so many diets and it's failed. I even went to an orientation for a gastric type surgery - but I wasn't going for it once i understood what foods and drinks i would need to give up to be successful. So now it's just about eating what's healthy and working out at a healthy rate. It should be SIMPLE! But it's really not. I thought for so long that it was all about the math...calories consumed minus calories burned. But there's so much more to this equation. Like, what's the minimum number our bodies need to be healthy? We should not go below this number - other wise we are robbing ourselves. I was eating 1600 calories and burning 1100 calories on some given days and i was frustrated that i wasn't losing weight. It's because i wasn't eating enough to sustain my body. And weight lifting helps so much to slender your body! OMG i thought i would just turn into She-Hulk but i am so wrong.
This is definitely a learning process...
Yesterday when i was discussing all of this with my friend, i mentioned to her how i cry because i'm terrified i won't fit into the bridesmaid dress for her wedding. She returned with a "I don't fit into my wedding dress yet either." She bought a size 10 but she's barely a size 12 now.
So all i can do is change what i'm doing to see if this works. i won't give up. I won't stop eating right. I won't stop working out. I will simply change what isn't working.
This is still me...big and going strong!
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