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Meaurements and Pictures

Friday, October 18, 2013

This is really just for me to keep a record of where i'm at in regards to my measurements.

January 2012 to October 2012
Thigh: 28.5 to 25.5
Arm: 14 to 13
Chest: 52.5 to 41
Stomach: 54.5 to 49
Waist: 50 to 42.5
Hips: 57 to 47.75
Calf: 18.5 to 16.25
BMI: 56.5 to 46.8

Starting Weight was 320ish pounds. Current official weight (10/16) is 256 pounds.

The scale and even my measurements only tell certain parts of the tsory.

Here's some of my "BEFORE" shots:




Here are som eof my "NOW" shots:




My favorite change to date? My legs...I love the way they look.


  
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BEHAPPY0201 10/29/2013 11:53AM

    Beyond just the weight - you look so much happier too!!

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JEN169 10/26/2013 11:22AM

    Fantastic!! You are doing a great job! So happy for you! You look great!
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HAPPYJUNEBUG 10/19/2013 5:02PM

    You go girl!! You look great!!

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TREE57 10/18/2013 11:14PM

    Great numbers!

You are on FIRE!

Congrats!

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FITCOFFEEMOM357 10/18/2013 8:51PM

    so beautiful

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MONIQUEDVA 10/18/2013 8:48PM

    Great job!!! Keep on pushing to your goals!


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    emoticon emoticon job!!

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KIMMYGEE83 10/18/2013 7:18PM

    Great job!! Keep up the hard work girl! Bc we all know it isn't easy :))

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MJ7DM33 10/18/2013 6:04PM

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THOMS1 10/18/2013 5:39PM

    emoticon Job!

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DRKYASHI 10/18/2013 3:54PM

    emoticonon your success AND
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BERTAS_JOURNEY 10/18/2013 2:38PM

    Awesome work girl!! Those are some mighty pretty thighs you have there, hope one day mine look like that.

You have made some AMAZING changes to yourself!!! emoticon High fives to you for such fantastic changes!!!

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MACKMTU 10/18/2013 2:38PM

  emoticon You're doing great!

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SHARBEAR100 10/18/2013 2:34PM

    emoticon You look much more fit and happy! Keep up the good work! emoticon

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EVER-HOPEFUL 10/18/2013 2:32PM

    i agree your legs do look great love.better than mine,lol.keep on keeping on you are doing great. emoticon

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    emoticon You look great!

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PINKYYSUEE 10/18/2013 2:23PM

    Good job!

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An old letter...

Friday, October 18, 2013

Have you ever come across an old letter from a friend or loved one and reread it just to have the tears flowing? I've been going through my old blogs and deleting many of them and I came across a letter i wrote to myself...and i had to repost it because it's so honest...and i can remember hte pan and frustration. While i think i've grown a lot, so many of the hurts and fears are till there...but they are weakening!

From July 2011:

Hi Vicky!

It's been a long while since we've spoken. Maybe I was too hesitant to come out and talk to you, or maybe you were too busy hiding from me. Whatever the reason we are at a point where we can no longer not face one another. We need to talk!

You know i love you, right? You know i care about you. I want to see you happy. I want to see you grow old and be that granny that walks circles around the twentysomethings. I want to see you love yourself and thus allowing someone else to fall in love with you. I know you want all of those things for yourself. But what i don't understand is why you are holding yourself back from having it all. I've failed you and i take full responsibility.

I see you when you cry at night. After everyone has left and it's just you...all alone. I see you when you cry yourself to sleep at night because you are so lonely. I know and understand that you just want to be loved. You just want someone to hold you. To tell you that you are gonna be all right. That you are special. That you mean something to someone. That someone out there is thinking about you. I understand your pain. I know it all too well.

I know your heart Vicky. I know how much you hurt. While your friends just see the smile on your face and the laughter from your heart, I see the smile that you've perfected and the laugh that blankets the pain. You've been told time and time again that you are such a happy person. If only you would allow them in and tell them the truth.

I've failed you. I've gone silent when i should have told you to make healthier choices. I should have told you to go walking when instead i allowed you to sit in front of a television for hours at a time. You deserve so much more then what i've provided. I should have protected you. I should have loved you more. I should have seen the hurt in your eyes and talked to you about what would make you happy. Can you forgive me?

You are beautiful. You need to know and understand that first for yourself. You can change your life. You will have days when you fail yourself. It's ok. Just keep going - be warned that i will not allow you to just sit there when you think you've been defeated. You are a wonderful woman, a great hostess, an amazing cook and baker. You know how to take care of your home. Most men would kill for a woman like you. You are the only thing in the way of your own happiness Vicky.

You are a fighter. You've come through an abusive home. You've witness things that no child should ever have to see. You were raised with parents that consistently told you how much they didn't want you or care about you. You married a man because you were lonely and you survived the divorce. Remember just how much you've gone through. When you do, remember that exercising and eating right are simple actions compared to anything you've ever experienced.

I'm your closest friend. I will cheer you on at each and every victory as well as at any set back. I will wipe that sweat off of your forehead during each mile you walk...and eventually run. I will continually give you the support and guidance that you need to succeed in life.

It's time that I took care of you.

  
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BEHAPPY0201 10/29/2013 11:58AM

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EVER-HOPEFUL 10/18/2013 12:56PM

    i agree with what sally said YOU are stronger than your past.do you know what carries me through all my life trails.and like you i have had many and still do.it is the knowledge that god wouldn´t give us any trail he didn´t think we could handle and if god has such a faith in me who am i not to have that faith in myself.believe you me this thought is what keeps me strong and keeps me going.it means i am worth.if i wasn´t god wouldn´t have so much faith in me.he has also that faith in you love.time you had it as well.remember you are worth and that we all have faith in you. emoticon

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SALLYLEE84 10/18/2013 11:59AM

    Wow. I can totally relate to 98% of that letter, it could've been written by me. We are stronger than our past. You are such a motivation! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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I Changed One Addiction for Another

Thursday, October 17, 2013

I use to be addicted to food. What does that mean? It means EVERYTHING i did revolved around food. Friends are coming over...what should I cook and bake? Meeting up with friends...where are we going to eat? Lets watch a movie...what size popcorn should i get? Every emotion triggered my making multiple trips to the kitchen. God i love food...I still do. But just because something is good, does NOT mean that it is good for you. Too much of anything can be dangerous.

I don't really know why it happened or even how it happened, but sometime about seven weeks ago I decided to make another change. I've always worked out. And for the first 9 months all i had to do was move and still eat junk and the weight came off. All be it was 55ish pounds, but i didn't have to work hard at it. When you go from being a couch potato to actually moving your butt, the weight can come off pretty easily. THEN my body got used to the moving...my food intake did not change. So for the next year i stayed right where i was at until seven weeks ago.

I needed to refocus and REALLY learn what it meant to live a healthier lifestyle. Its not all about moving. It's about what we fuel our bodies with. I wholeheartedly, now, believe that what we eat makes ALL The difference in our efforts.

For so long i would eat anything I wanted and then head out to the gym. Pizza, burgers, icecream, chips...you name it and i probably loved it. I enjoy cooking and my passion is baking. This was and still is my greatest challenge. I had to reprogram my brain. I took to the computer and found ways to swap my high fat, high calorie, high carb recipes for recipes with lower fat/calorie and carb dishes while still keeping the great taste. It's like everything else in life, if you want the good stuff you need to work for it. It won't just be handed to you. You need to earn it.

As far as my fitness goes, i practically walk every day. No less then 3 miles and upwards of 18 miles on a given day. Walking is free (except for the fitted shoes). It was what got me started almost 2 years ago. I can easily remember my first ever 5k. It was TORTUROUS! I came in last...dead last! I mean the awards were given out and the ONLY people still there were my two friends and the clean up crew...and the 70+ year old man that rode the golf cart next to me encouraging me to keep on going. Everything in me wanted to just stop and cry. But i kept on going...i needed to prove to myself that i could do it. My pride was hurt (yes, women have pride too) but i did it. And after that i kept on walking.

Seven weeks ago things changed...

I needed more. I needed my body to feel a different kind of pounding. So i asked a friend if i could join her on her training runs. So i started running...slowly, but a runner is a runner REGARDLESS ff their speed. WOW...who knew that running could be my next love. BUT i had to be logical. I'm still in my training for the 3 Day event which calls for ONLY walking. So i ran on my off walking days. Once the 3 Day event is over and i've rested, I will be training to run my next events.

One week ago things changed...

After completing an 18.49 mile day and a 15.76 mile day back to back (per my training) i ended up with a blister of all blisters. The doctor told me to stop my training for 7 to 10 days in order for my foot to heal. I could do other things, but i could not do anything that would cause my full weight or friction on the ball of my foot. So i took to the stationary bike and to weight lifting.

Weight lifting and kettlebells...i've dabbled with them all before. BUT this time something happened. Can a woman really fall in love with weight lifting and kettlebells? You bet your sweet bottom she can! It wasn't so much the weights and bells themselves..it was the sweat dripping down my face and chest that i loved. It was the way my legs and thighs would feel the next day. It's the way my arms, back and shoulders would react to such a thing. It was all so...magical!

So i swapped a food addiction for a fitness addiction. As i stated before too much of a good thing could be bad. I tend to over-do and dive right in to whatever passion is on my plate. The effects of the changes i've made are inspiring to me. While the scale is FINALLY moving in the right direction, i'm more tantalized by the changes in my body. The scale is not my tell-all...it's the woman in the mirror that I am starting to fall in love with..as if i just met her for the first time...I'm starting to really love me and that is the biggest victory of them all.

  
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JOANNE_LEE 10/18/2013 9:40AM

    I've replaced both smoking and drinking addictions with fitness and it's working for me. Once you get into that mindset that fitness really makes you feel better, then those other things which harm us are easier to resist. I love weight training!
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PROVERBS31JULIA 10/17/2013 11:14PM

    That is so awesome!!

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NPDSLEUTH 10/17/2013 6:38PM

    I'm an addictive personality too so can really relate to this. Good for you recognizing it -- and working toward a healthier lifestyle!

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DRKYASHI 10/17/2013 3:57PM

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TREE57 10/17/2013 3:46PM

    YES! It may be trading one addiction for another, but ST will carry you through your whole life HEALTHIER, STRONGER, OUTLOOK BETTER, AND LOOKING GREAT. It is a feeling of extreme pride when we can actually say we did it the hard way! Nothing beats it!

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NEWLEAF16 10/17/2013 3:39PM

    I have always WISHED I could make this switch! So far no such luck for me - but so happy to see that it has happened for you! emoticon

Sounds like you have really turned a corner - keep it up

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EVER-HOPEFUL 10/17/2013 2:40PM

    you said it girl that is the biggest and most powerful tool on this journey.the ability to love and accept ourselfs as we are and how we will be .so proud of you love.keep up the good work emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SIMONEKP 10/17/2013 1:29PM

    good luck with your food and training. I love me some ST!

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TIFFANIE150 10/17/2013 11:53AM

    I just recently started HIIT workouts and love, love, love them! It is making big changes in me, as well.


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MIPCY1 10/17/2013 11:39AM

    Oh, I absolutely LOVE kettlebells! I love the combination of strength and cardio, because I really am not fond of either one on their own. Especially strength. Too much repitition for me. Now that I'm getting stronger, I'm doing them most days without feeling sore. must be time to up the weight...again. I'm glad you discovered them and fell in love!

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SLIMMERJESSE 10/17/2013 10:56AM

    Yes, I've seen the replacement of food addiction to exercise addiction on SP. Congrats on your progress. This is a much healthier addiction, for sure.

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JAROL7 10/17/2013 10:51AM

    Some people WISH for it ... we WORK for it! But, "grazing" in the kitchen is a real problem for me. I don't do well with moderation. When I am serious about losing weight as I am right now, I move to total abstinence from grazing. Get the junk food out of the house. it is not good for you or your family. It needs to be GONE!

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MAKE it a goal to your future self to be your healthiest...

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

So I want to share something and i want it KNOWN that i'm not boasting or down playing this at all, but..

When i weighed in the scale read 256.0 pounds...i CANNOT remember the last time i weighed only 256 pounds. I changed my yearly goal on Spark. I would love to end the year at 236lbs. Do you know why i chose 236lbs? I'll tell you why...

Back in 1996 I remember going to the doctor, stepping on the scale and the nurse announcing that i was 236lbs. I remember how crushed i felt. Now mind you i had always avoided the scale. BUT i knew that 236lbs was the heaviest i had ever been (up to that point in my life). So i decided to change my life and i worked out and i severely restricted my food. I lost 57lbs in 6 months. What happened? I gained it all back PLUS almost an additional 100lbs because i did not learn the right things about myself or my body.

So i'd LOVE to get back down to my 1st ever highest weight by the end of the year. IF it does not happen, i'm ok with that too. Why? Because i know i'd headed in that direction regardless.







I was at my weight watchers meeting last night (Did i mention i joined weight watchers at the beginning of September for added accountability?) and someone said something that stuck with me...

NEVER wish to go back to the time when you were at your healthiest...MAKE it a goal to your future self to be your healthiest.

I was not healthy back then.

Today i'm learning to be healthier...and i'm extremely proud of that!

  
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FITMARY 10/17/2013 7:09AM

    Congratulations on your achievement and on your new goal!
You are really tearing up the track!!!
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NEWLEAF16 10/16/2013 7:30PM

    Wow, what a great motivational quote, thanks for sharing it!

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DUSTYPRAIRIE 10/16/2013 5:18PM

    I am so glad you share that advice. Perfect!

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EVER-HOPEFUL 10/16/2013 5:18PM

    that is a great quote that person at weight watchers said she is very wise. emoticon emoticon

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Triumphs and Loneliness

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

Sometimes I think that both triumphs and loneliness go hand-in-hand. They can both cause havoc on one another.

Last week my doctor told me i needed to stop my training for the 3 Day event until my foot heals. I could have easily taken it as an opportunity to just stop all fitness and veg out on the couch. BUT it worried me because i did not want to lose momentum and/or gain weight. So i asked if I could do other things. I can basically do anything that will not cause me to apply constant direct pressure on my foot or cause friction.

So i changed up my plans and hit the gym, started lifting weights and even threw in some kettlebell work - btw, i forgot how much working with the kettlebells actually works your legs..OUCH!

The result? I've lost another 3lbs this week. I'm now down to 256lbs (In an earlier blog i typed that i was at 258...i should double check my numbers, i was at 259lbs.).

Here's the thing...

The holidays are right around the corner. For a single woman, living 900+ miles away from any family...it gets tough. REALLY tough. Most of my closest friends here will either be traveling out of state to see family or they are attending the holidays with their significant others. The writings on the wall this year...it's just me this year. And it sucks. But i need to devise a plan to just keep my head in the game i guess.

Loneliness can destroy all of the hard work i've placed into myself over the last month and moving forward. It's not something that i haven't had to deal with before...loneliness is a major issue with me and always has been an issue. Don't get me wrong, i have a lot of friends, but...they aren't the "lets just hang out and do nothing" type of friends.

Lately i've been hitting the gym or working out multiple times a day (before and after work). Why? Because it keeps my mind off the fact that i'm lonely. I don't want to just be at home by myself. Feeling alone sucks...and it can be crippling.

Don't get me wrong, I'd rather be alone and lonely than with someone that doesn't care about me. I was ina marriage for almost 10yrs where that was the case. I was MORE lonely while i was married than any other time in my life.

Why am i writing this? Because i need to be accountable to myself and being able to go back and read it allows for that to take place.

  
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HAPPYJUNEBUG 10/19/2013 5:54PM

    :hug:

I know how that feels: the loneliness. Just being around people, but not quite feeling that they're really there. I dunno how to explain it.

We're here for you, even if not physically, these comments remind you that somewhere all over the world are fellow sparkers who are perhaps suffering from loneliness, even though we are supporting each other through this online community.

Hope this makes sense.

:hug!:

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NANCYSINATRA 10/16/2013 1:54PM

    I'm so glad you shared. Very inspirational. I'd have probably taken the easy way out and not worked out at all. Great job on your accomplishments!!

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EVER-HOPEFUL 10/16/2013 1:23PM

    hi vicky love your first two replies have given the advice i was going to give.another option is booking a singles holiday or a last minute holiday that way it is cheaper.you get to see another place and meet other single people in the same potition.a friend of mine used to do it all the time. you can treat yourself to a week in a wellness farm.or look at the jobcentre if you have holidays from work alot of people who have nannies for their kids are looking for tempory nannies while their normal nannies go home for christmas.you are around other people,kept busy ,get to see the kids excited faces on christmas day and earn some money.you can go visiting people in hospital,old peoples homes(some have families that lkive away or they are on their own this time)or even people in prision who are also lonely this time.visit childrens homes etc.the options are plenty.i think you are doing great and i know what ou mean about sometimes being more lonely around other people than when you are alone.my 1st marriage left alot to be desired.is your church planning something special over the christmas holidays?i just rememberered going once orange picking in spain around christmas time when i was alone.just look to see what is available. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CHOCOHOLIC2276 10/16/2013 11:59AM

    Awww huge hugs.

How about on those holidays that you know are an issue you offer your time at a homeless shelter? You'll be surrounded by people, doing a good deed and I'm sure you won't feel as lonely emoticon

You'll have to remind yourself of the hard work you've done. Do NOT let the holidays pack on the pounds.

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ANNROW0354 10/16/2013 11:27AM

    Congratulations on your weight loss and for finding a way to stay active while your foot heals.
I don't know where you live and maybe this isn't available in your area, but have you heard of meetup.com. You can go online and find groups in your area that "meet up" to share interests and activities. It's NOT a dating group. It's for people who are looking to do different things but don't have anyone to do it with. It might be worth looking into for the holidays and beyond because there are many people who live far from family.
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