Friday, June 29, 2012
I love the sauna...
Lately i've had a real hatred towards my scale. I haven't yet thrown it across the room or taken a hammer to it, but i have thought about it. Well, in my last few blogs i've expressed this discord and quite a few of my Sparkies reminded me to look for other clues that the hard work is paying off. Well, yesterday it was as though a shining light was show casing certain victories. Here are a few of them...
1) We all keep certain clothes that we want to fit back into. I have 2 pieces. One is this librarian looking dress from the Gap in a size 18. My sister hates it! But i just want to fit into it again...not actually wear it in public. It buttons all the way down the front and has a butterfly collar. It's from 1998ish...hahaha...well i'm not stupid - i'm not going to even attempt to put it on. BUT the other piece is a size 22 pair of shorts from 1998ish that i still LOVE! I tried them on about a month ago and i was able to close them but i was NOT able to breathe in them standing let alone trying to sit in them. So i tried them on...and they fit perfectly! AND i can breathe...
1999ish (I was about 230lbs here)
June 28 2012
2) My sister has lost just over 27lbs so she's about 220lbs right now. I've always been used to the idea that i was 100lbs heavier then she is, but yesterday while we were discussing our weight loss, it dawned on me that i'm ONLY 49lbs heavier then she is now! Not that i'm trying to beat her, but it was an internal victory that i'll soon closer to her weight.
100 Day Challenge
June 28th was day 18. I'm doing pretty well so far with not giving up and the "just keep going" attitude.
OK, so i've told you all that the bridesmaid dress finally zippered all the way up. After speaking to my sister last night i was talking to her about hair and make-up. I'm not really good with either. But she is always so beautiful so i asked if she could help. So my sister is doing my make-up (which means when i'm back in Chicago i'll be making an expensive make-up run) and my 13yr old niece will be doing my hair! How sad and funny all at the same time. But she's great with hair! I can't wait to see the transformation...
OH...and here's the finished product of my Chicken Tortilla Soup. EVEN with the sourcream, cheese and fried tortilla strips it was still pretty low in calories...but high in sodium...tasted sooooooo good!
* My ultimate goal this month is to get that bridesmaid dress to zipper up all the way ...IT FREAKING FITS!!!!!
* Complete 202 miles...completed 223.13
* Yearly goal of 1500 miles...completed 778.45
* Yearly goal of dropping 100lbs...lost 49.2lbs
* Overall goal of dropping 169lbs...REACHED 29.11%
So what are my July goals?
* Complete 325 miles (walking/running/cycling)
* Complete 4000 CORE reps
Thursday, June 28, 2012
100 Day Challenge
I've made it for 17 days...wooo hooo! There were SOOOOO many days where i just wanted to lay on the couch, or lay by the complex pool, or just sleep. But i didn't. Why? Because i want a better & healthier life for myself. Truth be told, when i look at my past pictures i can recall how sad it was. How lonely i was. How i allowed my weight to hold me back from a lot of fun events. I don't want to hold back anymore. I want to have fun and not have to worry about breaking something or embarrassing myself.
I was at the gym and ready to do my Walk/Jog Your Way week 2 day 2. I was 15 minutes into it when i realized that as much as i WANTED to complete those 27 minutes of walk/jog intervals...my body needed a rest. So i walked the rest of it. And while i was walking i came to this conclusion: I can't go hard every day. My legs need a rest so they can repair and rebuild. So over the next two days (Thursday and Friday) my legs will get a breather. I'll focus my efforts on other things - core and upper body. BUT i will still jump on the stationary bike. You see, i don't have cable at home so i don't get any channels. And well...i don't want to miss the Olympic Trails! Phelps all the way baby! So instead of my usual 110-124 speed, i'll go at an easy 80-90. I mean, i can't just go to the gym and sit in front of the TV. I guess i could - but i don't want to get laughed at!
So that blasted scale said 270.4 on Wednesday morning, on Tuesday it was somewhere in the 271ish area, Monday it was at 269.8...so yesterday i really watched my sodium intake. I was still over BUT not by much. So what happens when i step on the scale this morning? 269.4...My response that i said out loud: You've got to be freaking kidding me! This scale is gonna be the death of me!
So here's the thing. I used to just weigh in weekly. I hated it because i needed control over what i was doing and the number at least indicated if i was doing well with what i was consuming or not. I went to weighing in just 2x a month - andi ended up gaining weight to end the month. So then i went back to watching it daily. And here's what i now think...NO MATTER WHAT THE SCALE WILL AT SOME POINT DISAPPOINT YOU. So i think watchingmy sodium more closely i'll be ok. That doesn't mean taht i won't want to throw it across the room from time to time...but i do refrain from doing it!
So let' stalk about last night...
I made Chicken Tortilla Soup for the first time. It tasted GREAT! After i made it (it was for work so i had it for lunch today and shared it with the ladies here) i had left over tortillas. So i made cheese flauta's...so YUMMY! But not exactly good for me. But i had three of them with a diet coke at 10:30pm last night and i went to bed with a smile on my face. It reminded me of thedays my momma used to make them...i mean, hello, how else did i get this girlish figure?!
And the flauta...yumm....
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
My blogs lately have all been about what i've been achieving lately...and that won't change. But sometimes you just come to that moment when your chin drops to your chest, you squeeze your eyes shut, and you say to yourself, "Why?" That was me this morning.
If you have read my blogs, there is no doubt that you know i kick ass in the gym with my cardio, strength training and core workouts. My weight has been dropping. I've been in range or very close to range in regards to my calories. I'm on day 16 of the 100 Day Challenge, i've already walked, ran or biked my way through 758.03 miles this year. This month alone just over 207 miles. So many victories! So many things to be proud of...yet...
This past Monday morning i stepped on the scale and it read 269.8lbs...i was out of the freaking 270's! I jumped through my apartment (i live on the first floor) pumping my fists in the air i was excited...i even shed a few tears. So what caused my disappointment this morning after such a great victory? The scale said 270.6lbs...yesterday it read 271.4lbs...
I know i've been over on my sodium - but can i really BLAME the gain on the sodium? Or...as my head hung in disappointment this morning...was the 269.8lbs on Monday a fluke? I mis-read? I stepped on that dang scale 4x on Monday just to make sure it was right...same response every time...so what gives?
I'm my worst enemy. I can cut myself down quicker then any jerk ever can. I can have a butt load of triumphs, but give me one disappointment and it clouds everything i've overcome. Victories? What victories? This one thing can place a cloak of invisibility over everything else. Yes, i shed a tear this morning. I work so darn hard (not that you all don't, but this is about me) and i want to see my efforts pay off. I rarely get anyone to say anything about how they can tell i've lost weight...i mean it's still close to 50lbs. When i do tell someone i've lost 50lbs, they just look at me and don't really say anything else. I know i have a lot to lose still, but 50lbs is about a third of what i need to lose.
I have to ask myself why it is that i WANT the praise of others? My answer is simple...for me it's because i've never gotten praise. I've never been told i was beautiful (I HATE the "you've got a pretty face" - that's what people say to fat people not to be mean). I love Spark because so many of us understand this concept! We praise each other and sometimes it's those few kind words that let me know that someone understands me. I don't mean they just get it...they've lived it, are living it, have lived it - they truly understand the pain, hurt and disappointments.
I love myself, i really do.
So this morning, after i hung my head, whispered "why?" and shed a tear, i took a deep breathe and said, "Just keep going!"
I know i'll get there one day. I know my wish was that the one day was now, but it's not. So for now, i'll take it one day at a time...
Friday, June 22, 2012
Yes, i have started associating myself with this picture!
I had the gym all to myself for about 90 minutes...it was fantastic!
Getting ready to head on out towards the gym...it actually took me almost 45 minutes to make myself leave home. All i wanted to do was veg out on the couch with a book. But i went anyways...
On the tricep extension/bicep curl machine...this is one of my favorites!
Took advantage of being alone to get some full body shots...not too crazy about these
And i ended the night doing my 3.74 mile walk on the treadmill...
Another great 2.5-3 hour workout session (includes my core workout that i did at home).
So my friend, the girl that works out with me sometimes, well she had a stroke yesterday! She's in the hospital and they've run all kinds of tests on her. Her speech is slurred and her eye droops heavily. later on today the speech therapist will come in and evaluate her. Keep her in your prayers! Found out she also has HIGH cholesterol. She did NOT tell them how during exercise she often has her leg or her entire arm go numb. I told our mutual friend that is keeping her company about it and she was mad (they've been friends for many years). So she's going to make sure the nurses and doctors know about that too. I hope everything turns out ok. She'll need to take better care of herself. She's been reading up on what she can/should do after a stroke and there's quite a few things that will need to change...at least that's what our mutual friend was telling me. Oh, i hope she's ok...
IN THE NEWS
Did you guys see that news piece on the grandma being bullied by 13yr olds on the school bus? It was sick and so EXTREMELY heart-breaking. And this poor woman basically sat there and took it. Times like that when i wish the school teachers could still spank those dang kids! They needed a GOOD butt whooping!
So yesterday i ran a bit more. I walked 3 minutes, then ran 1 minute at a 4.5mph pace. I only did this for the first 30 minutes then i slowed down to a 2.8mph pace for the rest of my walk.
I need to rest my body a little. So my plan is to hit the gym and do 6 miles on the bike, which is 24 minutes including the cool down. Then i'll sit in the sauna for 45 minutes and read my book. Then i'll do another 4-6 miles on the bike to wrap up the night.
I mentioned yesterday that i was scrapbooking. I actually started my weight loss scrapbook last year. So i have an album for 2011 and one for 2012. I was thinking of taking pictures of each page and posting them on here so that you guys can see it. This year i am working on a 2012 album for my friend that is getting married in August. It goes from January and will end at her wedding .Actually it should go beyond that, but that's her gift from me so she'll need to do additional pages,
June Mini-Goals (20th-30th)
So now that i've tweaked my long-term goals, i've started thinking about my short-term goals. So here they go...
* I'd love to weigh about 269 come Monday morning - that would give me a 50lb loss
* To complete my daily goals for the rest of the month (as listed below)
* To stay within my calorie range through the weekend (baby steps)
June 21 (went over by 260 - after my workout i was starving so i have a protein bar that i did not plan on having)
* To complete my scrapbook project for my friend, the one that is getting married, by this weekend
* To complete an additional two pages of my own weight loss journey scrapbook album
* Work on July goals
* My ultimate goal this month is to get that bridesmaid dress to zipper up all the way
* Complete 202 miles...completed 165.91
* Yearly goal of 1500 miles...completed 714.53
* Yearly goal of dropping 100lbs...lost 45.4lbs
* Overall goal of dropping 169lbs...REACHED 26.86%
Here are my goals for the rest of June:
6/11 6.74 miles, Core (ACTUAL: 6.82 miles walk/jog, 8.71 miles on the bike, Core, and a little ST)
6/12 6 miles, ST (ACTUAL: 6.1 miles walking, ST)
6/13 3 miles, 8 bike miles, ST (ACTUAL: 3.04 miles walk/jog, 8.66 miles on the bike, ST)
6/14 3.74 miles, Core (ACTUAL: 4.76 bike miles, Core)
6/15 3.74 miles, Core (ACTUAL: 6.41 bike miles, core)
6/16 6 miles, 8 bike miles, ST (ACTUAL: 3.03 walking miles, 15 bike miles, ST)
6/17 6.74 miles, ST (ACTUAL: 6.77 walking miles, 6 bike miles, ST)
6/18 3.74 miles, Core (ACTUAL: 4.22 walking miles, 8.06 Bike miles, CORE)
6/19 6 miles, ST (ACTUAL: ST)
6/20 3 miles, 8 bike miles, ST (ACTUAL: 3.46 miles, 8.9 bike miles, ST)
6/21 3.74 miles, Core (ACTUAL: 4.15 miles, 6.93 bike miles, core and arm ST)
6/22 3.74 miles, Core
6/23 6 miles, 8 bike miles, ST
6/24 6.74 miles, ST
6/25 3.74 miles, Core
6/26 6 miles, ST
6/27 3 miles, 8 bike miles, ST
6/28 3.74 miles, Core
6/29 3.74 miles, Core
6/30 6 miles, 8 bike miles, ST
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